if only i knew
as i dragged the blade across my skin
there would never be a way to win
i look around and see
it’s slowly falling apart
it won’t be long now until you depart
i can feel you fading
i fear there’s nothing for me to say
that will make you want to stay
but please
stay
Oct 28, 2021
Oct 28, 2021 at 1:43 AM UTC
how is it possible
to feel so incredibly empty
but yet my brain won’t shut up
Dec 8, 2020
Dec 8, 2020 at 1:24 AM UTC
through all of the pain
i’ve had someone else to blame
but now i feel quite the same
as i take my final look around
there is no one to be found
and i realized this was a fault none other than my own
oh how i wish i could have known before i was all alone
now all i feel is anger
only this time towards myself
Dec 8, 2020
Dec 8, 2020 at 1:23 AM UTC
i want to kick and scream
yell at my self for being mean
i want to cry out for help
but i can’t
i can’t move
i’m paralyzed
Sep 7, 2020
Sep 7, 2020 at 12:18 AM UTC
i turned eighteen today
the voice in my head had, something to say
“you’ve done so well, 132”
she told me “no one will recognize you”
that was before i lost all self control
looking around i see the ice cream bowl
now all i can do is eat
and eat
Aug 18, 2020
Aug 18, 2020 at 10:53 PM UTC
i can still feel it you know
it doesn't go away
i don't think it ever really will
i loved you
i really did
Jul 10, 2020
Jul 10, 2020 at 1:28 AM UTC
sometimes i wonder
if i left would you really miss me
i know you’re thinking you would
but the thing is
i know you already miss me
because i have been gone for a while now
Apr 25, 2020
Apr 25, 2020 at 1:34 AM UTC
i’m lost
i can’t tell anymore
who i am
how i feel
where i’m going
i want this to be over
all of it
i’m tired
i’m just so tired
Mar 29, 2020
Mar 29, 2020 at 1:47 AM UTC
i can feel it happening
the change all around
my feet once steady on the ground
are floating away again
i am looking for something to hold
but i’m just too far gone truth to be told
where will i end up
no one knows for a fact
i hope a little piece of me will remain intact
Mar 28, 2020
Mar 28, 2020 at 2:45 AM UTC
some people say depression is like drowning
but for me you see it’s like floating
i just wish i could float away
and be gone
Feb 19, 2020
Feb 19, 2020 at 11:46 PM UTC