It is not a fairytale
It hurts..
Being disappointed by the one person
You never thought would let you
down, and now all I do is frown
It’s not an illusion
It hurts..
Coming second to a person who comes
First in your life
Love is a warning
That’s why you need to guard your heart
Love hurts..
That’s why you need to wear your heart
On your sleeve
Sometimes it’s astonishingly beautiful
Sometimes it gets pretty-ugly
Your lover could be a stranger
In a blink of an eye and you’d feel
like you wanna die
It’s hard to continue to choose to care for
Someone that makes it hard for you
To love them
You wanna be better , but at my cost
I thought I was winning at this love
thing, but it seems that I’ve lost
I’ve been so drunk in love, but now
I’m hungover from loving you so dearly
Assuming it’s the pain and the toxicity
that intoxicates and drains me
It hurts to see you sacrifice my love for
Your little happiness , baby, it pains me
This is a warning that
Love sometimes, hurts
Love can be hell
Love can be painful
Love can be toxic
Love can be a lesson
And with all that love could possibly be,
I still choose to love you, regardless. I still choose to be Toxic, but only with you .
I guess this was a Toxic Warning.
Beware of love, Love.
Dec 24, 2021
Dec 24, 2021 at 5:47 PM UTC
It's the saddest hours of the morning
And of course, I feel sad
I feel so much anger I might be a
Danger to myself
If it was up to me I'd pack all the
Type of emotions I'm feeling on a shelf
Just so you could comprehend what I'm going through
Pure melancholy, I preach to you
Not sure if I feel
Lonely or if I'm indeed alone
If I were to leave, forever tonight
I'd regret one thing
Don't ask me what, as it is not worthy
of knowing
I'm drowning, deeply in my sorrows
It's as if my heart's being pierced with
A sharp arrow
If you asked me, I'm not coping at all
But I still smile, to ease the conflict
between my heart and my mind
I take the deepest breathes just to keep sane
I avoid escaping to my mysterious world
To avoid being called insane
I can handle whatever that comes
My way
But I refuse to stay happily unhappy.
-Liaa
Apr 18, 2020
Apr 18, 2020 at 7:53 PM UTC
You've left me so miserable
With all these life challenges
I am unable to continue wearing this mask
I'm expected to be this happiest, craziest
Child in this so called family
I think I might be losing my sanity
Whenever she's around I'm at my lowest
How am I supposed to cope?
I'm tired of faking everything
How did you even allow heaven to take
You away from me when you were all I had?
I wish you took your phone with
So I could communicate with you
But who am I kidding, what I'm asking
For will never be legal
I thought time was supposed to heal wounds
But instead I'm incredibly bruised
Inside out and in every way possible
I thought everyone deserved a second shot
At everything but why were you denied one?
This life thing isn't for me
Premeditated ****** on my mind
Twenty-four-seven
But I think dying in my sleep would
Be less painful
Listen
I hope you can see my eyes glitter like
crystal
I hope you can hear me lie to these humans
When they ask me if I'm okay and I tell them
"it's just tears of joy"
I hope you can feel the demons I'm surrounded
By at night
I hope you understand why I'm tired,
extremely drained of having to fight
With inner demons
And trust me when I say I wanna
break up with my anxiety
It been a long term relationship
But it lacks plenty of love
I'm depressed, I say this with pride.
My scars will never heal for as long as
I'm alive.
Come back and take me with.
-Liaa
Dec 23, 2019
Dec 23, 2019 at 4:27 PM UTC
You Are Not Entitled
It hurts to a point where you
Can no longer feel pain anymore
You get used to disappointments
It starts becoming a bore
It cuts deep to the core
Knowing that you're not
Entitled to someone you've
Loved so dearly
You let them show you twice
That they don't want you
You felt entitled it only lead to
Depression
You lost yourself in the process of
Fixing your so called lover who was
Broken by someone else
How's that your mission to accomplish?
Don't you see the bigger vision?
I mean you deserve the entitlement
That will fight for you, nothing less
You're not entitled to being someone else's second best
You're entitled to receiving love that can
Never be replaced, but embraced
You deserve the type of warmth that will
Heal your unseen scars that you claim
Were caused by a cat's aggression
On your wrist
An entitlement that won't make you feel
Like you're at war with yourself
You're not entitled to attention that seeks
You only when it's lonely
That boy is not worth it, that girl ain't either
Stay away from self petty, redeem from being phony
Entitlement can come with extravagant
gifts and sincere efforts, but it can also come with extreme grief and
Counterfeited apologies
Entitlement can be the reason why
you're happy or sad
But you're not entitled to a wish
that might never be fulfilled
Liaa
Dec 19, 2019
Dec 19, 2019 at 3:25 PM UTC
The Pleasure Of A Heartbreak
I hope you are happy
Knowing that you're the reason
Behind someone's heartache
It's sad how we choose not to
recognize love, yet we are too quick
To act like Stevie Wonder when true
love is not even blind
But I would like to thank you
Through this pain you've caused
You've also brought me pleasure
I guess this is what they meant when
They said "everything happens for a
reason"
I'm all grown now, I stand in love
We don't fall now, We stand in love
I'm sorry if I make you feel like
I am nothing without you
For you've made something out of
me
With all the pain you've caused,
you've also brought me pleasure
While you were out seeking sweet
nothing's, I became someone else's
treasure
I hope the truth manifests within you
I hope the day we meet, we'll be able
To speak the same language, fluently
Most importantly I hope that you don't
think that this poem is for you or about you
Perpetrators aren't supposed to feel this special
Through this pain you've caused
You've also brought me pleasure
And I Stan, because you made a fool
Not out of me, but out of you.
-Liaa
Mar 10, 2019
Mar 10, 2019 at 2:45 PM UTC
Can you hear that?
that awkward silence
between you and your anxiety?
the void and the nonsensical
voices in your head?
Does it not make you feel dead?
I mean
Is it not sad how the people who
always wanna see you happy are
the reason why you're unhappy?
now our hearts are loose and flappy
Falling in love is too high of a price
I fell in love with poetry i guess
that's all i can afford
But Lately I Dont Say Much
these days you don't get what
you give
the world keeps on demanding
it only leads to grief
they keep telling me that my life
is crowded with people who will
stab me in the back with a knife
I know thats betrayal, but what
happened to loyalty? Or
perhaps I did not get briefed
I can still hear the silence
between me and them
the fakes, the jealous, the evil society
how do I handle this
do I even make it a priority?
I offered them masks cause their
character is constantly changing
They keep wondering how am I
Managing
All the pressure, the pain and the tragedies
Little do they know that there is no
strategy
I stay shut lately - I dont say much
I do not mix emotions with
devotion what do you call such?
I stay quite I stay woke
please do not provoke
Lately I Don't Say Much
I roll a dice and gamble with your life
but if oneday I decide to speak up
it will probably be too late for you to
hear me out because I would have
already cut you out of my life
But Lately I do not say nor do much
-Liaa
Aug 10, 2018
Aug 10, 2018 at 5:53 PM UTC
Dear Somebody Worth It
I write this barefooted
freely and open minded
no rhymes no foot prints
no sense but quite dense
with much appreciation
I still lack plenty of love
I feel provoked and evoked
by long lost memories
I feel revoked, by what we call
"mokes"
this so called "black" society
doing nothing good but constraining
the young "mokes", ridiculous!
what do we call this? anxiety?
unfortunately no matter how many times
we wear a mask and fake our smiles
no support denotes our true feelings
but this is life - let us not promote
depression, but suppression instead
With the true intentions of making
this world a better vacation
Dear Somebody Worth It
Stop breaking our hearts just
because you're broken inside
Let us not play games, let us grow
let us glow, let us be bold
Life's too short for shenanigans
May your broken heart repair
and sparkle in gold
Yours Truly
-Liaa
Jul 12, 2018
Jul 12, 2018 at 10:02 PM UTC