I hear you,
all of you.
Talking about me,
good and bad,
behind my own back.
I guess that's okay.
Though,
The **** you say stays embedded in my brain.
Haunts me while I do the things I love,
suffocates me.
Am I too much?
Am I too wrong?
I try to be perfect,
or the best I can be,
for you.
And all I get is **** back.
That's okay,
that's alright.
I guess I'll be okay.
Act like I'm fine,
I'm that happy kid...
Everyone wants to be me.
At least they think they do.
I live under that rock,
mind my own business,
Be my own person.
But being lonely hurts,
It brings me sadness,
and pain,
that I cover up like I'm putting on makeup.
But when I take off that cover,
Not many people believe what I say.
I'm too much without that cover.
Maybe I should just live with that cover on.
That's okay,
That's alright,
I guess I will live like that,
If it means I'm found.
I hear you,
all of you.
Talking about me,
good and bad,
behind my own back.
I'll be okay,
I will be okay...
May 21
May 21, 2026 at 9:52 AM UTC
When you want to defend,
You just stand.
Waiting for a chance,
So you can show,
You're worthy.
You CAN impress.
They talk about you,
Make you mad.
Don't give them a chance,
because they can't impress.
They ARE the same.
Saying YOU can't,
You're NOT worthy,
But you can show,
You're meant to do this.
When you stand,
You can benefit.
Show them this ISN'T right.
Your ANGER becomes their PAIN.
You can show your worthy,
You can show,
Your able to impress.
You CAN do this.
May 13
May 13, 2026 at 8:10 AM UTC
I mess up,
Over
And
Over
Again.
I can't fix it.
I say the wrong thing,
Make them get mad.
Then I feel bad.
For days
And
Days
On end.
Can't get this feeling gone,
Can't get it out of my head.
I can't do it right,
So why do I try?
I should just stay in the shadows,
mind my business,
and then just be there if needed.
Do what they say,
So I can't mess up.
I try to be my best,
But it is only the worst.
I try to lead,
But apparently,
Leading is a bad idea.
I get yelled at,
for being myself,
getting told I'm annoying,
And I ****
It sticks,
but I cover,
and I hide,
don't let them see,
Be the girl they want me to be.
But I still mess up.
I can't be loud,
But can't be quiet either.
I
Can't
Be
Me.
I have to pretend,
To
Be
Someone
I'm
Not.
Change myself for them.
Act differently,
Be different,
While I suppress my old self.
Who wants to stay,
But,
I can't
Be
Me.
Apr 28
Apr 28, 2026 at 9:30 AM UTC
Words have power?
My 2 words have more power,
than yours?
Your hundreds of thousands of words.
2 simple joking words,
"shut up"
Have more power than all your rumors,
That almost ruined my life.
Luckily, I found people who care,
Unlike you.
To pull me out,
And show me,
How they care,
Like you should.
But that's fine, I don't need you at all.
Words have power?
So mine matter more than yours?
Your large quantity of words,
Under my 2 words.
What for?
A joke is a joke, but yours wasn't funny.
Causes me to lose valuable people to myself,
Who doesn't care or talk to me anymore?
And now you think I can let you back in.
I put on a mask,
Act like that's fine.
Yeah, you can come back into my life,
After you fix what went wrong, make it right.
Randomly start talking to me like I'm your best friend,
Your 2 faced.
And I can see,
That no matter what,
You'll always be the same.
That ***** you always were.
Words have power?
Little amounts of what I say,
Over your thousands of words.
It doesn't make sense.
How can that work?
Math doesn't work like that,
Our town doesn't work like that,
Our state doesn't work like that,
Our country doesn't work like that,
Earth doesn't work like that,
The universe doesn't work like that.
So, make that make sense.
Words have power?
My 2 words have more power,
than yours?
Your hundreds of thousands of words.
2 simple joking words,
"shut up"
Have more power than all your rumors,
That almost ruined my life.
Apr 2
Apr 2, 2026 at 12:58 PM UTC
The pile of homework,
Because I left early,
took a day off,
to save my mental health.
Now it came back,
Worse than ever,
More stress on me,
More **** on my to-do list.
Mar 18
Mar 18, 2026 at 10:00 AM UTC
Make sure everyone else is okay,
Before I put myself in check.
I isolate myself,
So their cruelty slowly pains away.
Make sure everyone is okay,
Adding their problems to mine.
More worried for them,
Than me.
Why do I always have to please people?
Act like I’m fine as I slowly be crushed from pain.
Apply so much pressure to be the best,
So I can be loved by the ones who used to call me a friend.
Make sure all their problems,
Bullies,
Issues,
Are okay before I go fix my own.
Fix others,
Stitch them up,
While I’m bleeding out.
Bleeding out,
While I tape the wounds,
To make sure they're okay,
And their problems are taken care of.
Make sure everyone’s okay,
As I slowly fade away,
One outburst,
And they notice,
They think that's normal, though.
But it’s all the thoughts that are bottled up inside of me,
pouring,
exploding,
Out of that bottle.
It’s shattered.
Make sure everyone else is okay,
Before I put myself in check.
I isolate myself,
So their cruelty slowly pains away.
Mar 10
Mar 10, 2026 at 10:31 AM UTC
I’m your personal doormat,
Sitting there doing my best,
Waiting to be addressed.
Guess your way of addressing was to walk all over me.
I’m waiting to be free,
From your cruelness.
We're going into a duel,
From you being cruel.
I’m trying to win,
Hoping I can grin
It’s been within my skin,
But unable to rise.
I’m your personal doormat,
Waiting to be free,
So I can flee,
To be my own,
To be myself.
I ask myself,
Do I blame myself?
No, I shouldn’t,
I wouldn’t have been in this situation,
I wouldn’t have,
If I weren’t your personal doormat.
If I weren’t your personal doormat,
I wouldn’t act like such a brat,
Swinging that bat,
During our combat.
I’ll need a hard hat,
For all the pain you’ve given me.
I’m your personal doormat,
For you to walk all over,
While pain carries over,
Until I take over.
Feb 27
Feb 27, 2026 at 1:34 PM UTC
Try my best, but it’s only seen as the worst.
Try “100%” even though I’m going 200%.
Always seen as an overachiever,
I’m looked over,
Overseen by people passing.
I can’t be seen for what's right,
People only see what's wrong
What's the worst?
What's the worst that could happen?
Be a bad example,
Even though I’m the one to lead.
Can’t be overseen,
Can’t be overlooked because I’m too loud,
Can’t be missed,
My voice booms over everyone,
Always cheering for others, but don’t get that back.
Feel less than them,
Never with someone else,
Always alone and grinding alone,
Trying to be the best,
Trying to get far.
Only to be told it’s what's expected of me.
How it's meant to be.
How I’m just “better” than them.
But none of the hard work is seen,
Through the tough times and good ones,
I will always just be the overachiever,
My flaws are the only things noticed.
I try my best, but it’s only seen as the worst.
Feb 26
Feb 26, 2026 at 10:51 AM UTC
Acting like it’s fine,
Head pounding,
Millions of thoughts,
Swarming me.
Don’t want to do much,
But do it so I can succeed.
Succeeding is hard,
Takes a mental toll,
Takes too much time.
Always precived to succeed,
Always seen as an overachiever.
Wait,
What if that's not me,
It’s anxiety controlling and taking over,
Making me feel out of my body.
Controlling to make me succeed,
Wait,
It can be me,
Causing myself to panic,
Applying pressure,
Forcing myself to succeed.
Nov 21, 2025
Nov 21, 2025 at 6:36 AM UTC
It’s like forgiveness,
Just worse.
Never existing,
Far from the remedies.
Trapped in a small room,
No one can imagine.
Not to be seen,
I’m not to be heard.
I’m being packed,
Far from the remedies.
No one cares.
I’m a ghost,
Stuck in your shadows.
Invisible to the outside.
Far from the remedies.
Stuck in a corner,
Always being a performer.
Putting on my best show,
No one will know,
I’m trying to glow.
Your giving your final judgement,
While I’m giving the dance.
Just give me a chance,
To help me enhance.
I want to be a star,
I try to make it far.
But I’m held back,
By my many scars.
I'm traveling far,
Far from the remedies.
Find a partner, they say,
As I drown in my guilt,
And begin to melt.
I’m trying to glow,
No one will know,
I’m dancing in the shadows,
Far from the remedies.
Oct 26, 2025
Oct 26, 2025 at 5:23 PM UTC