My life is full
Of hollow wood
And 4 strings
My ukelele
Is a better cure for depression
Than any drug
You've taught me to sing
You've taught me to laugh
You've taught me to be alone
And not to be lonely
You hear all of my bad thoughts
And hide them away from me
Where they stay
Forever trapped as I play
Every scratch
Every dent
Every broken string
Every note off key
Has changed me
And fixed me
And restrung me
And painted me
Until I'm like new
Sep 27, 2015
Sep 27, 2015 at 6:33 PM UTC
Please
Take care of yourself
My old friend
Although we are separated by roads
and pavements
and rivers
and towns
I still care.
I need to know
That you are looking out for you
Instead of me
And starting your life
Over again
Without me.
I let you go
And I don't regret it
Summer is over
And autumn is near
Our time is over
But your time is here
But I'll never forget
The love
We pretended
Was real
Take Care
Of yourself
Because
I can't.
Sep 27, 2015
Sep 27, 2015 at 6:13 PM UTC
12 Months
Spent trying to make you love me
For me.
The way I loved you,
For you.
12 Months.
You ignored me, and left me alone.
By myself.
The way I wouldn't,
Leave you be.
8 Months.
You've apologised for treating me,
So badly.
When I showed you the good
In yourself.
8 Months
Is 8 Months too late.
For me to forgive
The harsh words,
You threw at me
20 Months
Of hurt and heart ache
On both sides
So just leave me alone,
before I can admit
to you
and myself
That I still need to know you're ok.
Sep 27, 2015
Sep 27, 2015 at 6:01 PM UTC
'Frozen' is a perfect picture,
of the childhood I lived.
To have an older sister,
who will not take or give.
Shut the door in my face
when I wanted to play,
Locked in her room
telling me to go away.
She was not scared of magic,
or ice that could hurt me.
She never opened up,
like Elsa in the movie.
I wish I could help,
go and find her in the snow.
I would go anywhere for her
no matter how old I grow.
I want to build the snowman,
I want to save the day,
But true love can't conquer
when I'm pushed away.
She remains locked up,
with a spirit so mean
She will always remain
My sister: The Ice Queen
Okay, Bye
Jan 20, 2015
Jan 20, 2015 at 1:37 PM UTC
If this is love,
Love is not enough.
I want to love you
But your skin is too tough
But if this is all love is,
Love is not enough.
I want more for you.
You've been knocked-down before,
I'm willing to pick you,
Right up off the floor
You won't let me in,
and you won't let me out
We have a connection
You might be better without
Because love may not exist,
But if you don't let love in
If you continue to resist,
You won't let it begin.
And we will both waste our years
Wondering
Why love felt so similar to fear
Jan 14, 2015
Jan 14, 2015 at 7:08 PM UTC
Love does not exist,
not for me.
I can see, why some think it does,
but all good apples go bad.
Pick a place, I'd be there,
Near or far, I don't care
You pick the wine, and we share
Cheers to us
May you find a love forever,
I hope she's kinder than me.
We're a long way from summer,
In some ways we're still there,
I etched our names in a pub one day
and left our lust to wander round there
We'll never stop fighting,
But leaving's not an option now,
I can't remember the last time you stayed
Love does not exist
Jan 14, 2015
Jan 14, 2015 at 6:42 PM UTC
I missed out on that young love
the love that is new and exciting,
growing up in the world full of hope
Thinking you'll be together forever
I was always thinking how I'd be on my own
At such a young age. Love never appealed to me
It's too late for young love
I'm old and haunted, by a feeling I never felt
This heart beating in my chest, goes unused
Stay together forever, school sweet-hearts
I believe in you,
I believe in your love
Jan 14, 2015
Jan 14, 2015 at 6:19 PM UTC
I like the way
you say care
and laugh at my jokes
and stroke my hair
You touch my body
call me your amor
and tell me I'm pretty
when I answer the door
But then.
Your phone starts beeping
I'm no longer yours
Your hands wrapped around it
Yours eyes on the floor
Transfixed by its beauty
It's body you touch
You laugh and you answer
You smile far too much
It sits on the table
Between you and me
A small metal barrier,
which past you can't see
When it goes off again
and you reach for that phone
You let go of my hand
Absorbed on your own
I get up, I leave
I'm not second best
To texting and cheating, and lying and tweeting
You inconsiderate idiot, your life's a mess
Jun 29, 2014
Jun 29, 2014 at 9:24 AM UTC
Spring time, spend some time
Turning over new leaves
With your footsteps
As you leave
Making my heart drift through the sky
And land on the grass.
As if you needed more to do
Leave me be
Come the Autumn, leaves turn red to brown.
Those leaves have fallen away
The wasted years spent alone in your room
Working for paper
Days we could have spent
Falling in love
Kicking up leaves
Jun 23, 2014
Jun 23, 2014 at 8:34 PM UTC
I don't know how you feel
But I know I like to hear the trains passing
As I lie in bed
I like to think you could love me
Raw and exposed
Like I've never been before
I can dream
And fall asleep knowing you won't leave me in the night
And get on the train I love
And I'll listen as you leave
Jun 23, 2014
Jun 23, 2014 at 7:52 PM UTC