Which am I to blame?
Odds stacked against me; I feel so small.
Air is vacuumed from my lungs with sharp utensils.
My health.
My tissue.
Seared out for research!
Their research.
Their slogans.
They're endless.
I would scream.
But air is scarce and hard to keep.
I would fight.
But exhaustion is overwhelming and the pain debilitating
I would cry.
But... thats my water.
I've been so chronically dehydrated.
Odds stacked against me; I feel so small.
Which am I to blame?
Genetics or esposure?
Sep 27, 2015
Sep 27, 2015 at 5:47 AM UTC
Symptoms tucked away
She lectures me on love and choices
Little does she know,
My questions have nothing to do with love...
Just choices.
Sep 21, 2015
Sep 21, 2015 at 1:39 AM UTC
I wish to cancel my subscription please
this simply isn't working for me.
Pill regiments and appointments
I stand firm yet am frightened.
Cancerous lesions wreak havoc.
Completely unexpected.
An endless myriad of questions,
Vague answers in poker face expressions.
Once healthy cells are disfigured.
Now thick walls with spiked exterior
Latching to its next cellular host to fall.
Aftermath exponential...
Sharp, shooting pain and exhaustion,
Observe my internal destruction.
I wish to cancel my subscription please
This simply doesn't work for me
Jul 23, 2015
Jul 23, 2015 at 11:43 AM UTC
You deserve reeses cups in the morning
and baseball adventure evenings.
You deserve light hearted conversations
and PDA.
Everyday.
You deserve honesty in every way,
and to be loved passionately.
You deserve to be reminded
how handsome and incredible you are.
Im sorry it took so long for me to see that.
Jul 1, 2015
Jul 1, 2015 at 7:09 PM UTC
I hope you find what you were looking for:
In grand conversations held in my absence
& all of her extravance.
I hope you find what you were looking for:
Who can offer you her support & honesty;
I know you didn't have that from me.
I hope you find what you were looking for.
Romance and adventure;
The stuff we failed at together.
I hope you find what you were looking for:
Personal growth & confidence
With belly deep laughter and happiness.
I hope you find what you were looking for.
Jun 18, 2015
Jun 18, 2015 at 2:21 AM UTC
Officially replaced.
4.0 version ready with sarcasm and wit
Honesty and nerd culture backing her smile
Self-assurance is such a beautiful tool to utilize
I wish I had known that then
I wish a lot of things though...
I'm sorry I was never like the lot of you
May 14, 2015
May 14, 2015 at 4:08 AM UTC
It's clear to see
in dull, daily repetition
Ive grown stir crazy
eyes only seeking expedition
Adventure awaits
on the horizon and in the sky
Yet I'm home in my cage
sighing as life ticks by
I used to believe
your presence was my anchor
but lately I've come to see
that I'm the common denominator
Apr 6, 2015
Apr 6, 2015 at 2:45 AM UTC
I wonder
when he says I would look beautiful
with darker hair
if hes thinking of
any of his previous lovers
Mar 24, 2015
Mar 24, 2015 at 12:38 AM UTC
Theres no redemption
For those who spit venom
At least I hope not
Theres no redemption
For malicious intent
At least I hope not
Theres no redemption
For the users and abusers
The liars and cheaters
The cruel and nefarious
The self righteous and smug
The condescending and judgemental
...At least I hope not
Mar 9, 2015
Mar 9, 2015 at 4:11 PM UTC
I am freeing myself of your cruel talks
no longer a captive to your opinions or flock
Finally independent of the chaos we spawned
But there is a twist in the truth of the surface beyond;
you are the catalyst for my actions somehow.
Like when i find *** appealing, its for the reassurance now.
i allowed you to desecrate my self-image
Never again. I'm transforming our wreckage.
But the irony in the truth is thereupon
youre what my motivation is based on.
only this time i find what you hated,
trump it for him, and trust me when i say, he loves what ive recreated.
Mar 7, 2015
Mar 7, 2015 at 1:23 AM UTC