Your effervescent eyes striking
A bowling ball hitting pins
Staring into I know
Must end this before it begins
You think want to be absorbed
My life and my routine
Trust me
If aware of what that entails
Wouldn't be so keen
And brushed dust right off my skin
Helped me once more stand
Am grateful you let me lean on your frame
Supported with a steady hand
But knew somehow I'd do you wrong
For me you are too good
Always those who give the most
That do not get treated how they should
So memorized the details
Stored safely in my head
Differences between history
And the limbo I found in your bed
As I lost my way I learned
All love will bring certain pain
So it is safer for both of us
To just steer clear of the rain
Happiness only lasts for so long
Until it's abruptly cut short
I'd rather decide to go seperate ways now
Then wait til we have belongings to sort
As I drift further from you
One cowardly inch at a time
My attraction steadily decreases
Yours proportionately climbs
I miss experiencing fireworks
Butterflies
Flame lit in the dark
Those sensations vanished when love did
Yet I am still holding out for that spark
Apr 23, 2021
Apr 23, 2021 at 1:30 AM UTC
you had made this bed too quickly,
not realizing the sheets weren't fitted
and the blankets were tangled around our limbs.
you were so used to lying in it,
you didn't know how to be honest.
don't reach for me with hands
stained from the ink you used to rewrite your stories.
don't speak to me with words
that should have rotted out your teeth.
don't look at me with eyes
that I once saw my happiness in.
I will not play nice.
I will not worship
the storm that destroyed my home.
in the future,
my life will be so full of love,
you won't be able to look beyond it.
I hope it leaves you blind,
so you will never see the person I'll become
without you.
Jul 4, 2016
Jul 4, 2016 at 1:31 AM UTC
ghosts
no, they're not white
or like anything
you think they are
and yet,
you see them all the time
in restaurants
on buses
walking down the street
shells of people
alive
but not really
moving in circles
day after day
those vacant stares
slack jaws
unshaven faces
mismatched socks
still don't think you know a ghost?
then you very well may be one.
Oct 19, 2015
Oct 19, 2015 at 3:08 AM UTC
My clenched fists beat against your chest as I screamed in the night.
You snuffed my thrash, clutched my hands in your own and hugged me tight.
I cried out in agony, angst of life unfair
You stood strong, held me, ran your fingers through my hair
White knuckles still balled up, nails cutting into my palm
Your loving whispers to me soothing my torn heart calm
With my hands firmly pressed close, still between us embraced
You laid pen in my hand for words not to be erased
A treasure among all the loving gifts you give me
Realization of self, found freedom,
MY poetry
Oct 12, 2015
Oct 12, 2015 at 12:51 AM UTC
Which am I to blame?
Odds stacked against me; I feel so small.
Air is vacuumed from my lungs with sharp utensils.
My health.
My tissue.
Seared out for research!
Their research.
Their slogans.
They're endless.
I would scream.
But air is scarce and hard to keep.
I would fight.
But exhaustion is overwhelming and the pain debilitating
I would cry.
But... thats my water.
I've been so chronically dehydrated.
Odds stacked against me; I feel so small.
Which am I to blame?
Genetics or esposure?
Sep 27, 2015
Sep 27, 2015 at 5:47 AM UTC
Symptoms tucked away
She lectures me on love and choices
Little does she know,
My questions have nothing to do with love...
Just choices.
Sep 21, 2015
Sep 21, 2015 at 1:39 AM UTC
if
i had things
go my way, then
right now, you and i
we'd be screaming through the
mountain air, hanging upside down
on a cord made of bravery and love, we'd
dance
under the
naked moonlight,
waterfalls calling out
in the distance; i'd have
my hands around your neck and
legs tight around your waist as we paused
between the slipping rocks to steal each other's
breath away.
if
i had
things go my way,
baby, we'd take on the world
together; with a sky full of secrets
watching over us as we make memories
(and love)
all over this world.
Jul 29, 2015
Jul 29, 2015 at 10:51 PM UTC
I wish to cancel my subscription please
this simply isn't working for me.
Pill regiments and appointments
I stand firm yet am frightened.
Cancerous lesions wreak havoc.
Completely unexpected.
An endless myriad of questions,
Vague answers in poker face expressions.
Once healthy cells are disfigured.
Now thick walls with spiked exterior
Latching to its next cellular host to fall.
Aftermath exponential...
Sharp, shooting pain and exhaustion,
Observe my internal destruction.
I wish to cancel my subscription please
This simply doesn't work for me
Jul 23, 2015
Jul 23, 2015 at 11:43 AM UTC
**SKY BLACK AS TAR AND TWICE AS THICK GOD I KNOW YOURE NOT SUPPOSED TO WISH DEATH BUT THE WORLD WOULD BE BETTER OFF I ******* SWEAR OH!!!!!!MY GOD I KNOW SCREAMING DOESNT MAKE GOOD POETRY BUT I WANT TO TEAR MY HOME TO PIECES TEAR MY FINGERNAILS FROM THEIR BEDS CURSES CAST OUT WILL COME HOME TO ROOST BUT I WOULD SACRIFICE ANYTHING TO SEE YOU DEAD!!!!!!!DECAPITATION ISNT PRETTY LIKE THE PAINTINGS HUMAN HEADS DONT POP OFF AS CLEAN AS BARBIES BUT ILL SAW THROUGH YOUR CERVICAL VERTEBRAE AND THE LAST WORD ON YOUR LIPS WILL BE A GURGLE!!!!WITH YOUR BONES UNDER MY BED I WILL SLEEP PEACEFUL FOR THE FIRST TIME IN YEARS YOU ARE POISON EATING THROUGH THE HANDS OF MY FRIENDS YOU ARE THE DEVIL QUOTING SCRIPTURE IN THE EARS OF CHILDREN!!!!!TRIGGER DISCIPLINE KEEP YOUR FINGER FROM THE KILLING STROKE TILL YOURE READY TO COMMIT ARE YOU SURE? ARE YOU SURE? ARE YOU ******* SURE ARE YOU READY TO SHARE YOUR BED WITH A CURSE KEEP YOUR FINGER OFF THE ******* TRIGGER BEFORE YOU SHOOT YOURSELF IN THE FOOT WHAT THE FUCK!!!!YOU TOLD ME YOU WERENT CRUEL!!!!YOU TOLD ME YOU WERE SAFE I ******* BELIEVED YOU AS IF I DESERVED SAFETY AS IF I COULD TRUST YOU BUT YOURE ******* EMPTY!!!!WEARING MY FACE TO COVER THE ******* HOLE IN YOURS WEARING MY SMILE YOU USED ME YOU USED ME AND YOURE WEARING MY ******* SMILE!!!LIAR!LIAR!LIAR!LIAR!LIAR! LIAR!LIAR!LIAR!LIAR!LIAR!LIAR!LIAR!LIAR!LIAR!LIAR!LIAR!LIAR!LIAR!LIAR!LIAR!LIAR!**
Jul 23, 2015
Jul 23, 2015 at 4:39 AM UTC
cervical cancer
ovarian cyst
open your mouth
here's my fist
stomach ulcer
an inflammation disease
got pneumonia
from just a sneeze
inflamed pelvis
stomach cancer
shut the **** up
you don't know the answer
heart attack
blood clots
watch me as
my insides rot
my brain thinks
I've had every disease
but its funny
i've never had any of these
Jul 23, 2015
Jul 23, 2015 at 4:37 AM UTC