Red eye
Feelin lean up
Ready to sleep
There's a 1000
Things on my mind
Blockin my dreams
Im tryin to smoke
More to keep up
And get me some rest
But responsibility
piles
Up till it sits on
Your chest
I dont know about these lot
But im looking for steps
I aint workin for peanuts
So im lookin ahead
On my back
You see deepcuts
Dagger entrenched
But im a soldier
Keep breathin
And be at your best
See mana been under
Siege while peaking and
There's times i feel
Beat up
By the deeds and the depth
Things that should
Never been done
Start moving ahead
While you're just trying
To keep up
Each reason and check
Feeling like youre in the
Deep end
But your feet are on deck
Is a magical feeling
Till youre cheated instead
And everything youre
Doing is to be in a place
Where you can be
Yourself
But you're losing your
Head.
Jul 10, 2018
Jul 10, 2018 at 10:05 PM UTC
I dont know what ive done
Was it right or Was it wrong?
Had me feeling so right
Now its wrong now youre gone
Cut my feelings off quick
While u were still hanging on
I'm scared that youll be done With us
When i realise the cost
I ******* miss u already
My ride or die forever
Just saying that word
Made you smile for the better
So i never let it off
Never gave u assurance
Not even hypothetical
To make you feel like i noticed
Ive been sabotaging us since
I knew you were too good for me
I know that im no good for u
And with me you'll be ruined - see
I tried to tell u from the start
But never had the courage.
Because i loved you like my baby
But now i put you through this.
This is not fair on you
Its terrible to do it
3 years of memories
Every second spent with you
I blew it.
Every holiday that passes
Is gonna tear me up inside
My emotions in a box
Kept locked up with chains of iron
When i feel the sadness bubble
I try to put it
to the side
Cause the only thing u wanted
Was to make me happy
Right?
The only thing you wanted
Was for me to try but i was too busy
Trying to prove a point
Or add heat to the fight
The only thing you wanted
Is our families be fine
When my mum went hard on you
And you still kept on a smile
No weight or obstacle could
Test you anytime
So I put on extra pressure
Because I didn't use my eyes
And shouted when you broke down
And left you when you cried.
Because im unworthy of your
Love, and it's killing me inside.
Now there's tears till my neck
While im thinking of you
And im thinking this through
Turning back to you has the simplest of truths:
Ill do the same thing
Out of interest for you
Because
I know you dont deserve a
Synthetic fool.
Though; Anything i could do
To savour a moment with you
I would do in a second
To see you enter the room.
Jul 10, 2018
Jul 10, 2018 at 8:55 AM UTC
See i know you been
creepin
I know you been
creeping
But
What can i do
I owe that to you
Cause i have been
creepijng
While u have been
sleeping
what were u to do
What were u to do
It aint your fault
I dont judge you
I dont love you
Like i should
You know it
I know it
But we cant let go
So what can we do
Stuck together
Like glue
But its so wrong
Yes its so wrong
I am so sorry
I am so
so sorry
For everything i did to you
Everything im doing
Everyday what I'm pursuing
What i do with my movement's
All the chicks that im cool with
All the **** that im choosing
It aint fair on you
But what can i do
But apologize
So
Its cool you been creepin
And soon youll be leaving
But if that makes you stronger
Then that makes us even
Then i can move on
And i can start breathin
Cause i feel so guilty.
Yes i feel so guilty.
The feeling could **** me
Underneath it aint healing
Jul 10, 2018
Jul 10, 2018 at 8:55 AM UTC