i wish i could open my front door and meet you again for the first time. we’d be a little bit kinder and a little more understanding. the light you see me in wouldn’t be amongst the clouds. i’d believe the things you say and you’d say the things you feel. we’d move the fence that guards our heart
to the house on the corner. when we unlock the front door, we’d know it’s the one. there our kids would grow up and the dogs would roam free. i’d fall asleep nestled in your arms and awake to reality and to a you i’ve already known.
Nov 9, 2022
Nov 9, 2022 at 3:35 PM UTC
everyone said it was a hard pill to swallow
so i held it at the back of my throat
contemplating
would i become better or worse for this
white wine
followed closely behind
making sure the pill found its way
to my bloodstream
they never told me
i would have to do this
again
and
again
until my body became numb
to the side effects
and even in the aftermath
after the side effects dissipated
i was told
to keep going
each gulp
becoming a reminder
of what never was
and what couldn't be
Apr 29, 2022
Apr 29, 2022 at 9:05 PM UTC
he
was
a closed
book
as my pages
moved
with
the wind
Apr 19, 2022
Apr 19, 2022 at 9:12 AM UTC
raindrops danced
on top of the pavement
as I searched for a reason
to continue on
drenched in misery
i begged
to feel just a small mist
of what life had to offer
instead
this downpour
continued filling the gutters
and drains of my soul
and still
these raindrops danced
enjoying a brief moment
of bliss
before falling
to form puddles in my mind
Apr 14, 2022
Apr 14, 2022 at 8:07 PM UTC
i'm not a poet
or a magnificent creature
i am but one of many
with knowledge to learn
i string words together
with the meaning you’ve assigned them
i write and rewrite
until i see myself on paper
my palms become stained with ink
as i sort through the jungle of my thoughts
no, i'm not a poet
just an inhabitant of earth
i am but one of many
with knowledge to learn
Apr 6, 2022
Apr 6, 2022 at 11:15 AM UTC
when i'm alone with my thoughts
it's a scary place to be
so i keep myself busy
going here, going there
impulsive decisions leading me everywhere
but i must still recharge
in an introvert's paradise
knowing every time
those thoughts will return
it's a catch-22
i cannot escape
i must either choose
a racing heart or
a slow beat towards death
Apr 6, 2022
Apr 6, 2022 at 10:18 AM UTC
moths fluttered
inside of me
swarming
into the caves
of my soul
nestling into every crevice
they burrowed
deeper
and deeper
until met with a dead end
of no return
mother’s laid their eggs
upon realization
there was no choice
but to make me
their home
i lay idle
as they build
their cocoons
in the space
where my lungs
used to rest
Mar 25, 2022
Mar 25, 2022 at 4:50 PM UTC
god it hurts
to be filled with so much love
when you don’t know how to show it
in my head I can say it effortlessly
but I freeze as you’re standing in front of me
Mar 22, 2022
Mar 22, 2022 at 8:55 AM UTC
one of the most painful journeys
takes you to a destination you never intended to visit
you spend days engulfed in pictures and daydreams of bright colors and future memories
until one day you look up to a view so paralyzingly dull, not even your hope could see you through
Mar 17, 2022
Mar 17, 2022 at 8:32 PM UTC
i found the most solace
in the mornings
as the sun covered the sky
and the evenings
as the hours of daylight dwindled
these two moments
slowly became
my only
reliable constant
the only thing
to accompany
the darkness
that engulfed me
Dec 12, 2021
Dec 12, 2021 at 8:25 AM UTC