Our relationship is always a closed and locked up door
No matter how hard I try, our relationship stays like it's always been before
No matter what I do, no matter how easy or rough
For some ******* reason, it never seems to be enough
I try my hardest to make him proud
Yet he never seems to listen despite me screaming so loud
I wish he'd look my way and want to see me
I want things to be normal, a happy family
What must I do to get his love
Must I call for a miracle sent from above?
I already lost a mother and now I'm losing a father
All I ever wanted was to be treated like a daughter
Jan 18, 2025
Jan 18, 2025 at 1:12 PM UTC
I feel so alone, I feel nonstop confusion
Everyday I am spiraling, feeling like a nonstop delusion
I don’t know who I am anymore
There is a million different choices in life yet I can’t find the right door
I don’t know who I want to be
I want something that makes me feel like me
Do I want to be a teacher and educate our youth?
I feel forced into this position, no matter how hard I hide the truth
Do I want to be a writer and write stories that people will remember?
I love to write but it is not a dream that ignites like an ember
Do I want to be a photographer that takes photos people will cherish?
I feel like every photo I take is always doomed to perish
Do I want to design games that people will love to play
People tell me that my hobbies are only hobbies, no matter what I say
Do I want to teach English and help children learn to read and write?
I’m skilled at what I do yet I feel I fail when I try with all my might
I feel so alone and I don’t know what to do
I write out my feelings in some way to connect to you
I know nobody will read this but I have to get it out
People never seem to listen no matter how hard I shout
How do they expect me to choose when I am only 19
I have such a hard time, all I want is to be remembered and seen
Everyone else knows what they want to do
Yet I haven't a clue, I don’t know what is false and what is true
Jan 13, 2025
Jan 13, 2025 at 2:08 PM UTC
Every day is a performance, a never ending act
I always must perform or people will attack
I've become nothing more than a fake
I've no idea how much more I can take
They've forced me to hide who I love, who I am-deep down inside
When all I've ever wanted is to embrace myself with pride
They force me to wear a mask
Every day, a constant task
“Be yourself, be independent” they say
Yet when I do, they always turn away
It shouldn't be like this, it isn't ******* fair
But who am I kidding, they don't ever care
The only time they care is when there's another suicide on TV
I worry I'll share that fate, just another statistic to be
I don't know where to go or what to do
So I'm crying for help, a message to you
Jan 13, 2025
Jan 13, 2025 at 12:41 PM UTC
Look and observe as the leaves turn orange and red
The chill in the air, a feeling that feels with me with excitement and dread
Halloween is finally here!
Time to celebrate with happiness….and fear
Decorate and fill your jack-o-lanterns with light
To stop monsters from coming to give you a fright
Stop and listen to the werewolves howling at the moon
They're coming my friends, they'll be here real soon
Watch as the vampires hunt throughout the night
Better be careful for they have got quite the bite
Look, there goes a witch and a black cat flying on a broom!
Do not anger her or you will bring about your doom
Make sure to watch out as the zombies rise from the head
Stay away from them for they'd love nothing more than to feast on your head
No need to fear the ghosts, no need to run away
All the ghosts want is for someone to play
Halloween is here, fear is in the air
Monsters excited to give humans a scare
Make sure to have your Halloween cheer…for if you don't, you'll be sad
Because the boogeyman himself will hunt you down and make you wish you had
Oct 2, 2024
Oct 2, 2024 at 4:53 PM UTC
Dragonfly
Oh, Dragonfly
There you are, my dragonfly
Every day, it’s utter hell within in my head
Sometimes I hurt so much, I just wish I were dead
I don’t do much anymore, just hide and cry
People tell me it gets better, but it’s all just a lie
Filled with exhaustion, I look to the sky
I never got the chance to tell you goodbye
They tell me to be happy, that you’re in a better place
Next thing I know, the tears are streaming down my face
There is nothing I want more than your sweet, loving embrace
Nothing is right, nothing is the same
Life is now no more than a torturous game
I look up and there I see
A visitor who I know is here for me
There you are, soaring through the sky
A dragonfly that has come to say hi
I watch it’s wings buzz and is flies on by
There you are mom, I know it’s you
It may sound stupid but I know it’s true
Dragonfly
Oh, Dragonfly
There you are my dragonfly
Sep 11, 2024
Sep 11, 2024 at 7:21 PM UTC