Kakkiedo - Hello Poetry

I gently weep to the sound of silence that surrounds me Where have you all gone? Why have you deserted me? The sticky flames roll down my cheeks as they start to bleed bright red pigment under my skin. I’m not okay. But that was yesterday Today I got up I swept my floor Polished the furniture Removed the spots of my tarnished yesterday from the silver of today. Today? What is today? Today is the day I said no more Sadness, anguish, depression, anxiety No more Pain, suffering, laziness, exhaustion Today I am new Tomorrow I am strong I am beautiful and wise My testimony shines through the tiny cracks of my bleeding heart Piece by piece I will mend my broken soul I may not be okay tomorrow, or even next week. But I know, one day, I can say: Today, I am okay.

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Nov 16, 2018

Nov 16, 2018 at 1:31 AM UTC

Tomorrow’s yesterday

I gently weep to the sound of silence that surrounds me Where have you all gone? Why have you deserted me? The sticky flames roll down my cheeks as they start to bleed bright red pigment under my skin. I’m not okay. But that was yesterday Today I got up I swept my floor Polished the furniture Removed the spots of my tarnished yesterday from the silver of today. Today? What is today? Today is the day I said no more Sadness, anguish, depression, anxiety No more Pain, suffering, laziness, exhaustion Today I am new Tomorrow I am strong I am beautiful and wise My testimony shines through the tiny cracks of my bleeding heart Piece by piece I will mend my broken soul I may not be okay tomorrow, or even next week. But I know, one day, I can say: Today, I am okay.

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Cigarette smokes fills my nostrils as my head rests on my pillow. Wet cheeks begin to warm as my anxiety intensifies. 2:30am No sleep Hungry but full Tired but overwhelmed with insomnia Mirrors surround me as I try and close my eyes but gently weep. The glare so vivid, I can still see the monsters watch me sleep. Oh wait, their inside my head. 4:27am Hands in my hair Legs won’t stay still Tongue is begging for a drink. I’m hopeless. When will the nightmares stop? Will I ever be able to dream without seeing a glimpse of my past? Where can I hide from my demons? Why do i let myself get this down? How do I make the loud quiet? I’m hopeless. 7:21am and finally fell asleep. The light shining through the window breathes warmth on my bare feet. Another day, another reminder that darkness will fall once again. My eyes will remain open until I am no more.

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Nov 16, 2018

Nov 16, 2018 at 1:28 AM UTC

Hopeless Nights

Cigarette smokes fills my nostrils as my head rests on my pillow. Wet cheeks begin to warm as my anxiety intensifies. 2:30am No sleep Hungry but full Tired but overwhelmed with insomnia Mirrors surround me as I try and close my eyes but gently weep. The glare so vivid, I can still see the monsters watch me sleep. Oh wait, their inside my head. 4:27am Hands in my hair Legs won’t stay still Tongue is begging for a drink. I’m hopeless. When will the nightmares stop? Will I ever be able to dream without seeing a glimpse of my past? Where can I hide from my demons? Why do i let myself get this down? How do I make the loud quiet? I’m hopeless. 7:21am and finally fell asleep. The light shining through the window breathes warmth on my bare feet. Another day, another reminder that darkness will fall once again. My eyes will remain open until I am no more.

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Sunshine falls upon your auburn hair As the sweat drips down your nose onto your shirt. The light dances upon your wet skin as the cool water touches your tongue. She looks at you with amazement in her eyes as if she’s found a prize. Her emerald eyes glisten with fascination as your muscles clench with every move. Her lips spread to call your name in hopes for a kiss. The heat is not what is burning her skin, it’s the fire in her eyes as she looks at you. Sunsets, storms, eclipses, and meteor showers are all phenomena’s of the world. But you weren’t an object. You were a feeling. An emotion. A physicality. She didn’t know her heart was an acrobat until you danced on the tightrope with it. Flight is something she use to fear but now craves it like an addict craves a fix. You were her high. Birds fly high in the sky but always come back down. Not a day has gone by where I have hit the ground since I have met you. A breath of fresh air I have taken. Breathed in something that was so intoxicating. Loved someone so deserving of love. Gone to sleep with the desire of dreaming of the day when you are the first face I see in the morning and last as I fall into oblivion.

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Jun 4, 2018

Jun 4, 2018 at 6:55 PM UTC

A Breath or Fresh Air

Sunshine falls upon your auburn hair As the sweat drips down your nose onto your shirt. The light dances upon your wet skin as the cool water touches your tongue. She looks at you with amazement in her eyes as if she’s found a prize. Her emerald eyes glisten with fascination as your muscles clench with every move. Her lips spread to call your name in hopes for a kiss. The heat is not what is burning her skin, it’s the fire in her eyes as she looks at you. Sunsets, storms, eclipses, and meteor showers are all phenomena’s of the world. But you weren’t an object. You were a feeling. An emotion. A physicality. She didn’t know her heart was an acrobat until you danced on the tightrope with it. Flight is something she use to fear but now craves it like an addict craves a fix. You were her high. Birds fly high in the sky but always come back down. Not a day has gone by where I have hit the ground since I have met you. A breath of fresh air I have taken. Breathed in something that was so intoxicating. Loved someone so deserving of love. Gone to sleep with the desire of dreaming of the day when you are the first face I see in the morning and last as I fall into oblivion.

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Seasons change and leaves had browned. Here i am sitting, hoping for a single sound. Flowers begin to wither away I thought it was just any other day. A year has passed I never knew that conversation would be the last. The yelling, the screaming. God, just give me some meaning! Im exhausted Lord, i need advice. Why was my mother to be a sacrifice. Lord i love you, but why so much pain? My eyes are full of vision, but what do i gain? Mother, father, are you there? I feel you everywhere. The smell of amber and vanilla i think of you. You are gone but still here too.

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Apr 29, 2018

Apr 29, 2018 at 10:11 PM UTC

Days Come and Gone

Seasons change and leaves had browned. Here i am sitting, hoping for a single sound. Flowers begin to wither away I thought it was just any other day. A year has passed I never knew that conversation would be the last. The yelling, the screaming. God, just give me some meaning! Im exhausted Lord, i need advice. Why was my mother to be a sacrifice. Lord i love you, but why so much pain? My eyes are full of vision, but what do i gain? Mother, father, are you there? I feel you everywhere. The smell of amber and vanilla i think of you. You are gone but still here too.

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Alone Tear stained pillow case Mascara chunks on my cheeks Just trying to feel safe. Alone Feet frozen in place Body shaking with panic Heart is shattering Alone Eyes red and puffy Ears are ringing with silence Nose runs yet stuffy Alone People all around Why does the room feel empty I am all alone

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Apr 29, 2018

Apr 29, 2018 at 10:09 PM UTC

Alone

Alone Tear stained pillow case Mascara chunks on my cheeks Just trying to feel safe. Alone Feet frozen in place Body shaking with panic Heart is shattering Alone Eyes red and puffy Ears are ringing with silence Nose runs yet stuffy Alone People all around Why does the room feel empty I am all alone

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I looked through the kaleidoscope only to see the nameless faces of those who once crossed my path. I dreamt of a face who i once knew so well, but so quickly turned into that of a memory. Those eyes of onyx and hair of sand took me by suprise as i only knew you by your voice. That glistening pearlescent smile blinded me as reflects of enamel danced with my heart. Only by a picture did i realize that i had entered into a rabbit hole in which couldn't be jumped out of. Only by a voice did i learn of the many ways that a girl can be loved. I sat underneath the decaying roof as i listened to your vocal chords sing with a deep tone that took my breath away. How did i know an innocence could be so ****** The birds crowed as i learned of my troubled future. The ants scattered as i would step on what was once their sanctuary. But who would've known a similar voice would spin me around only to leave me in a corner for you to pick me up. The golden sun rose only to set again. Her olive skin reflected that of her hardships. Her emerald eyes made those who met her grow full of envy. Prince Charming was to late, but was still desperately wanted. She wanted him to rescue her, but she would always wake up. His voice once again became a memory. Those faces that once danced within her eyes were now turning to ash. Those voices turned into that of a deafining silence. It was then she realized, the once so colorful kaleidoscope had shattered into pieces to small to be fixed. The dances of those faces she once knew so well began to disappear.

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Apr 29, 2018

Apr 29, 2018 at 10:08 PM UTC

The Dance of The Kaleidoscope

I looked through the kaleidoscope only to see the nameless faces of those who once crossed my path. I dreamt of a face who i once knew so well, but so quickly turned into that of a memory. Those eyes of onyx and hair of sand took me by suprise as i only knew you by your voice. That glistening pearlescent smile blinded me as reflects of enamel danced with my heart. Only by a picture did i realize that i had entered into a rabbit hole in which couldn't be jumped out of. Only by a voice did i learn of the many ways that a girl can be loved. I sat underneath the decaying roof as i listened to your vocal chords sing with a deep tone that took my breath away. How did i know an innocence could be so ****** The birds crowed as i learned of my troubled future. The ants scattered as i would step on what was once their sanctuary. But who would've known a similar voice would spin me around only to leave me in a corner for you to pick me up. The golden sun rose only to set again. Her olive skin reflected that of her hardships. Her emerald eyes made those who met her grow full of envy. Prince Charming was to late, but was still desperately wanted. She wanted him to rescue her, but she would always wake up. His voice once again became a memory. Those faces that once danced within her eyes were now turning to ash. Those voices turned into that of a deafining silence. It was then she realized, the once so colorful kaleidoscope had shattered into pieces to small to be fixed. The dances of those faces she once knew so well began to disappear.

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Leaves blow in the dusty wind Young hearts go sepearate ways A child is born and an elder has died. We call this the season of life. Trees blooming pink little fruits Bees pollinate to drink the nectar Grass blows in the mild chilly wind The drizzle of rain falls on my cheeks Red fills his cheeks as he kicks his little feet The lighting strikes one more tree Air is scorching his skin under his shirt Cold air blows upon her face Orange and yellow fill the streets The couple on the porch open the newspaper Bark on the tree begins to fall The sounds of trick or treat are in every ear. White flakes dance in the sky above them Warm cocoa fills their throats That last bit of warm air leaves their lungs All to be reborn once again.

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Apr 29, 2018

Apr 29, 2018 at 10:06 PM UTC

Seasons of Life

Leaves blow in the dusty wind Young hearts go sepearate ways A child is born and an elder has died. We call this the season of life. Trees blooming pink little fruits Bees pollinate to drink the nectar Grass blows in the mild chilly wind The drizzle of rain falls on my cheeks Red fills his cheeks as he kicks his little feet The lighting strikes one more tree Air is scorching his skin under his shirt Cold air blows upon her face Orange and yellow fill the streets The couple on the porch open the newspaper Bark on the tree begins to fall The sounds of trick or treat are in every ear. White flakes dance in the sky above them Warm cocoa fills their throats That last bit of warm air leaves their lungs All to be reborn once again.

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The touch that is so desired by me That i am finally able to see This is what i have been missing. Voices so clear but not so near Oh honey, you are so dear To my heart that didn't happen from the start But now it is. Thank you sparks. You see my love, My worth has not been a priority Within all of my relationships it was delegated seniority But why? My beauty and my grace Were never seen past a pretty face. But with you i feel safe. With you im home. No matter how near nor far My heart will follow you wherever you are What may be wanted may not be true, But i do know, no one is as good as you. You see here lover, you instilled a confidence inside To where never again do i want to hide When i was born to stand out In the middle of any crowd, and for that, i say thank you. Thank you lover.

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Mar 29, 2018

Mar 29, 2018 at 1:45 AM UTC

Sparks of A Lover

The touch that is so desired by me That i am finally able to see This is what i have been missing. Voices so clear but not so near Oh honey, you are so dear To my heart that didn't happen from the start But now it is. Thank you sparks. You see my love, My worth has not been a priority Within all of my relationships it was delegated seniority But why? My beauty and my grace Were never seen past a pretty face. But with you i feel safe. With you im home. No matter how near nor far My heart will follow you wherever you are What may be wanted may not be true, But i do know, no one is as good as you. You see here lover, you instilled a confidence inside To where never again do i want to hide When i was born to stand out In the middle of any crowd, and for that, i say thank you. Thank you lover.

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Good morning beautiful girl Are you ready to put me on? Hurry now we are at the break of dawn So wash your face And pick up the pace Let's finish this beauty race. Pounce Buff Blend Smear These are the words we love to hear. Little lady, pounce in your foundation We dont want to see any indiscretions. Buff out your contour we dont want to look to sharp Oh c'mon honey, this is only the start. Wet your brush its time to shine Apply that highlight so we can blind. Now its time to grab that golden shadow The one that reminds you of your mama. As she would tell you "blend baby girl". Finally, pick out the maroon lipstick she loved on you We all know she wouldn't want to see you blue. Braid your long dark locks of auburn hair Because she is with you everywhere. Just go look in the mirror. You'll see her face smiling back at you.

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Feb 21, 2018

Feb 21, 2018 at 10:31 AM UTC

My Mother's Face

Good morning beautiful girl Are you ready to put me on? Hurry now we are at the break of dawn So wash your face And pick up the pace Let's finish this beauty race. Pounce Buff Blend Smear These are the words we love to hear. Little lady, pounce in your foundation We dont want to see any indiscretions. Buff out your contour we dont want to look to sharp Oh c'mon honey, this is only the start. Wet your brush its time to shine Apply that highlight so we can blind. Now its time to grab that golden shadow The one that reminds you of your mama. As she would tell you "blend baby girl". Finally, pick out the maroon lipstick she loved on you We all know she wouldn't want to see you blue. Braid your long dark locks of auburn hair Because she is with you everywhere. Just go look in the mirror. You'll see her face smiling back at you.

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Oh no what have i done. All i wanted was to not have to bite my tongue But for some reason i still continue to do so. But why? Fear of hurting you? Fear of breaking your heart. All i know is im surrounded by crowd But all i wanna do is quiet the loud. Sometimes the noise is comforting Others the silence is deafning. The bruises on my heart are weak and naked I dont wanna let you go we are supposed to be forever. My brain is in shreds My heart is a mess But still, i love you. You dont understand and i dont expect you too But this pain i feel is too soon The loss of my mother The loss of my father Its is like i have forgotten all of who i am. I am a girl. I am a woman. I am a child. But i am not whole. The thought of losing you is a knife to the throat But why do i feel like im barely afloat. I mean cmon. We are young lovers wild and free. Then why is all the trouble with me. I dont know. I dont know. I repeat these three words as i plea, please stay with me. I cant lose you too. Your love is beautiful like that of a song And your warm touch gives me this feeling of being wanted. Thank you for loving me. I love you too.

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Feb 20, 2018

Feb 20, 2018 at 9:59 PM UTC

Pleas of a broken heart

Oh no what have i done. All i wanted was to not have to bite my tongue But for some reason i still continue to do so. But why? Fear of hurting you? Fear of breaking your heart. All i know is im surrounded by crowd But all i wanna do is quiet the loud. Sometimes the noise is comforting Others the silence is deafning. The bruises on my heart are weak and naked I dont wanna let you go we are supposed to be forever. My brain is in shreds My heart is a mess But still, i love you. You dont understand and i dont expect you too But this pain i feel is too soon The loss of my mother The loss of my father Its is like i have forgotten all of who i am. I am a girl. I am a woman. I am a child. But i am not whole. The thought of losing you is a knife to the throat But why do i feel like im barely afloat. I mean cmon. We are young lovers wild and free. Then why is all the trouble with me. I dont know. I dont know. I repeat these three words as i plea, please stay with me. I cant lose you too. Your love is beautiful like that of a song And your warm touch gives me this feeling of being wanted. Thank you for loving me. I love you too.

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