I want to call you but you don't want to talk to me. Which is understandable, considering every time our hearts collide it seems to leave us shattered.
But for some inexplicable reason I can't pull my mind far enough from you to fill the holes your bullets left in my heart. And the worst part is I'm not even angry, because I left scars on you when you intercepted the wounds that were intended for myself.
It's almost like we loved too hard that we forgot to let the other person breathe but we were scared that loosening the grip would lead to loneliness. And we are so hurt that its being projected onto the other person because its much easier to accept that you drove us apart instead of me.
I knew the words that spilled from my mouth were acid to your skin and they speak more about my insecurities than your downfalls. I drove a transport truck full of all the work we put into us straight into a wall but I tried and couldn't find the breaks.
The saddest part is that I can't even remember why I was angry, I think I was mostly scared of losing you. And I did that day.
Jun 23, 2017
Jun 23, 2017 at 7:22 PM UTC
For every time I've crossed your mind
Know you've crossed mine twice
Jun 23, 2017
Jun 23, 2017 at 7:08 PM UTC
I don't know why I always need a ******* chase
Why I can't be satisfied with someone who just loves me and actually treats me well
It just makes me so angry
And I run far far away
If you're reading this and think you can fix that, you can't
If you're reading this and willing to try, please don't
Please just stay far far away
All you're doing is giving me ammo
I will destroy anything left on purpose
Why?
I wish I knew
Apr 24, 2017
Apr 24, 2017 at 1:01 AM UTC
The girl who cried wolf
Its her favourite game
She begged them for freedom
But she wanted to stay
In a world she created
One bound by self harm
And her demands had coaxed her
With silky smooth charm
So she laughed in their face
threw her meds down the drain
The girl who cried wolf
Is how she'll be remembered
Apr 24, 2017
Apr 24, 2017 at 12:57 AM UTC
This is wine poetry
No edits and no drafts
My mind is going 100 miles a minute
So quick its only dark
So dark its only nothing
Apr 24, 2017
Apr 24, 2017 at 12:51 AM UTC
The harder you will me home
The further I'll go
And if you want me at all
You'll have to know
That I'm sorry for this
That I brought you here
Because I guess even this is part of my charade
So when you tell me you love me
And that it will all be okay
Remember I only ever let you see the parts of me I wanted to show you
And I am so good at making it seem like you know more than you do
Because you never really ******* knew anything about me at all
I knew what I was doing
Its what I do best
Apr 24, 2017
Apr 24, 2017 at 12:50 AM UTC
She glitters beneath the light
Skin so fair
It glows at night
Coaxes you with charm
A puppet show
Causes no harm
Whispers like the trees
Barely there
She's on her knees
A piece of art
She's laughing
Quickest way to steal a heart
Fun and games
A carnival
She no longer wants to play
She is winter wind
Cold and there
Then gone again
Sep 15, 2015
Sep 15, 2015 at 11:30 PM UTC
Why is this generation filled with such angst?
Bathing in anxiety and sadness as if we are truly alone
Using ***** to drown our sorrows
Drugs to numb the pain
Maybe we just want to feel something
In a world that has turned to screens for solace
We are not alone
You are not alone
Sep 15, 2015
Sep 15, 2015 at 11:19 PM UTC
Emotions crash into me like waves
And I struggle to keep my head above the water
I have never loved someone so fiercely
I have never missed someone so much
I never had a clue until you kissed me that night in August
But I melted in a way only your lips could induce
They say you don't get over your first love
Seeing you again has proved that true
Sep 3, 2015
Sep 3, 2015 at 12:07 AM UTC
I made it clear that I had a habit of leaving hearts in pieces.
You didn't believe me.
It may have sounded cliche at the time, but at least you know now that I'm not a liar, too.
I pray to God that you're doing okay, because the last time I saw you, your eyes were black holes that led to nothing but despair.
But for some reason I can't just pick up the phone and ask.
So wherever you are right now,
I hope get my message.
I hope you're doing okay.
Jul 16, 2015
Jul 16, 2015 at 12:46 AM UTC