I have a beautiful boy
And a body I don’t recognise
I’m marked with lines like a map
That shows my journey
It was a one way trip
There is no going back
I have a beautiful boy
And a body I don’t recognise
That has gone through some resizing
But that’s hardly surprising
He needed the room to dance like he does
To grow and kick and move
I have a beautiful boy
And a body I don’t recognise
It’s aged and got tired
But that’s okay
I wouldn’t have it any other way
It’s worked very hard
to make those lashes
Those curls, that smile
That laugh
Nov 15, 2022
Nov 15, 2022 at 2:53 AM UTC
Take my pills
Make it a habit
Remember to eat
Make it habit
Light the candles
Make it a habit
Do it again
And again
And again
Pills are a tool
Eating is my fuel
Candles burn like
The Fire in my belly
That can burn out
But I can relight
Every single night
Nov 29, 2019
Nov 29, 2019 at 10:44 AM UTC
I want to be a bear in a cave
Not for long
Just til I get strong
I want to lick my wounds
No big deal
Its just until I heal
I want to be left alone
Please don’t moan
I will come home
Just leave me in my cave
Let me be alone to feel
Everything I need to heal
It won’t be long
Until I get strong
and
When the time is right
I will come out
Nov 29, 2019
Nov 29, 2019 at 10:00 AM UTC
I wish I could have stopped you
Making this mistake
But now it’s too late
And this is our fate
All I can do it wait
And
Only Time will tell
If we can get through this hell
Nov 27, 2019
Nov 27, 2019 at 5:52 PM UTC
I miss the trust I had for you
I miss living with no doubt
Now Theres nothing but doubt
As I try to work it all out
I miss seeing our future so clearly
And now it’s nothing but blurry
I miss feeling safe
But This is what I have to face
As you knocked us out of place
Nov 27, 2019
Nov 27, 2019 at 3:56 PM UTC
I didn’t think you were capable of any of this
And now I know you are capable of all of this
Nov 27, 2019
Nov 27, 2019 at 3:32 PM UTC
I miss the rush of wind on my face
As I’m floating on a boat
In the middle of the sea
This is where I want to be
Looking out to sea
When looking becomes a stare
Wind in my hair
At the top of a cliff
Standing as a close As I dare
Looking out to sea
Wind on my face
Being in the sea
Waves crashing over me
Wind in my face
Looking out to sea
Me, Just being with me
Nov 22, 2019
Nov 22, 2019 at 7:17 PM UTC
I wish we could start a new
Pretend we haven’t met yet
Start with, how are you?
I wish I could turn the clocks back
Do it all another way
I wish I hadn’t leant on you
With all that weight
You were bound to break
And now you bolt
It’s all my fault
I just wish you would have talked
Before you had walked
Even though I don’t really know
It seems you want me to let you go
I just wish you could tell me so
Face me
Disgrace me
Tell me what you feel
So that both of us can heal
Nov 22, 2019
Nov 22, 2019 at 6:40 PM UTC
Lonely is the leaving the radio on
So it doesn’t feel so empty coming home
Nov 22, 2019
Nov 22, 2019 at 6:32 PM UTC
I hate my brain
Especially on days
It causes my eyes to rain
As they release all the pain
Oh I miss the bliss
Of that tender kiss
Stop
Allow no room
For these thoughts
To loom
Stop
Nov 22, 2019
Nov 22, 2019 at 6:31 PM UTC