A dream of you wakes me.
Depressing thoughts at 3 a.m.
Covers off then covers on,
Too cold then too warm.
I would take a nightmare.
Over this reminder:
That I am lost, unraveling,
Slipping from my mind,
Unable to trust my thoughts.
I thought I had forgotten your face,
A blur when I reached to remember it.
But last night it was clear-
so clear and so beautiful.
I had forgotten what it was like:
To have and to hold,
To love you completely,
To look into your eyes,
And fall in so deeply.
Reality shakes me.
It reaches out with a violent touch.
I try to shake it off,
To shake you off.
Has my mind grown so soft?
I reach for the ceiling,
Call your name to speak some truth.
Can you hear me?
My quiet voice calling out.
I thought I had forgotten your face,
But it returns from deep within my mind,
Not when I search for it,
But when I forget to search for it.
And I remember again,
What it was like.
Oct 3, 2025
Oct 3, 2025 at 8:45 AM UTC
Don’t you want to be — lonely?
Everyone’s doing it... now.
Humans in shells.
When love... no longer sells.
It’s the new craze —
Go on,
Try on these new chains.
It’s the new craze —
Dawn...
of a strange age.
Try some loneliness —
a quiet kind of pain.
Try some loneliness —
your own company...
in vain.
Don’t you want to be — lonely?
Everyone’s doing it now.
We can gather —
to be alone...
together.
It’s the new craze —
Setup in new chains.
It’s the new craze —
Dawn of a strange age.
Try some loneliness —
It’s colder
than it seems.
Try some loneliness —
It echoes
through your dreams.
Come on...
Be lonely.
Or you’ll be left behind.
Come on...
Be lonely.
Or you’ll be left behind.
Come on...
Be lonely.
Or you’ll be
left
behind.
Jul 23, 2025
Jul 23, 2025 at 6:11 AM UTC
When you're cold
Am I wrong
For hoping he keeps his jacket on
When you're sad
Am I shallow
For wishing he'd leave you to wallow
When you're tired
Is it spiteful
To hope that he pushes your dreams away
When you feel safe
How wrong am I
To hope that you'd catch someone else in his eye
When you speak
Am I so bad
For wishing he'd turn all your words into ash
When you go to bed
Would it sting
To hope that he can't make you feel a thing
I hope he lies, I hope he cheats
I hope he stumbles when he speaks
I know it's wrong to wish you pain
But sin keeps leaking from my brain
I'm sorry that I'm not sorry
For praying that you drift apart
Because I'm selfish, I'm so selfish
But I need you in my arms
I can't stand to let him make
You feel so loved and feel so safe
I hope that karma stays away
Because I've got nothing good to say
I'm sorry that I'm not sorry
For hoping that you drift apart
Jun 27, 2025
Jun 27, 2025 at 6:37 AM UTC
You looked so peaceful in your sleep,
When your dreams were the closest they’ll ever be.
Your fingers only grazed the seams
Of a world filled with endless possibility.
The birds still sing, the rivers still flow-
It seems that nothing stops for no one around here.
Your favourite flower sits on the sill;
It knows, somehow, that the sun is due, at any old time.
Although you left so many of us behind,
You left us with a view and it's a beautiful view.
But it would be better shared, with you.
Nevertheless, it's a beautiful view.
I'll meet you when I close my eyes.
You're not so clear there, but it's the closest that I can be.
I look for answers in the sky,
To questions that burn in the front row of my mind.
The sun still shines, the stars still glow-
It seems that nothing stops for no one, anywhere.
I play your favourite song on repeat;
I can almost hear you singing along, for old times’ sake.
Although you left so many of us behind,
You left us with a view and it's a beautiful view.
But it would be better shared, with you.
Nevertheless, it's a beautiful view.
May 28, 2025
May 28, 2025 at 7:06 AM UTC
I’ve almost forgotten
the colour of your eyes,
but I’m still over here.
Though I’ve crumbled into pieces
more than once,
I’m still over here, darling —
please,
reach out to me again.
I’ve almost forgotten
the way your laughter used to sound.
Still, I’m over here —
barely whole,
but waiting,
willing,
if you’d reach out to me again.
I’ve almost forgotten
the colour of your eyes,
but I’m still over here.
Though I’ve crumbled into pieces
more than once,
I’m still over here, darling —
please,
reach out to me again.
May 7, 2025
May 7, 2025 at 11:17 AM UTC
Would it make life easier, if I could read your mind?
Or would I fall down, beaten by the things I'd find?
Crawling memories and secrets behind wooden doors.
Locked away for good reasons, I'm sure.
May 7, 2025
May 7, 2025 at 11:10 AM UTC
Juliet woke with a hollowed chest,
Pale as moonlight, robbed of rest.
Her tears still warmed the empty bed,
No whispered words, no hand to wed.
Romeo stirred with a rising grin,
The morning air a breath of sin.
Freedom jingled in his coat,
Dreams half-truths that barely float.
They were too young, hearts unbound,
Jilted lovers in a jilted town.
What a shame, for he's wiser now—
But she is gone, she won’t come down.
Juliet rose with fire anew,
Shaking off the ghost she knew.
She walked alone beneath the sky,
Found hope within a stranger's eye.
Romeo woke with aching head,
The lies he told now softly bled.
He saw through passion, raw and stark—
Chased fool’s gold that missed the mark.
They were too young, hearts unbound,
Jilted lovers in a jilted town.
What a shame, for he's older now—
But she moved on, and broke their vow.
They were too young, they couldn’t stay,
Two broken hearts that lost their way.
In this town of sighs and longing frowns,
Jilted love still haunts the grounds.
May 7, 2025
May 7, 2025 at 9:34 AM UTC
When the seconds turn into days; turn into weeks, turn into years
I'm losing track of the time.
On the cusp of 22; feeling black and blue, from the fights with a million voices
I'm losing track of my mind.
When the muscles in my face; begin to ache, from all the happiness I fake
It's just a matter time.
On the cusp of giving up; Lost in a sea of bad luck, nothing seems to ever be changing
It's just a matter of my mind.
I've learned to live with my broken heart
I can't even tell if it's falling apart
I guess... I've gotten used to it
I guess... I've gotten used to it
Jun 30, 2023
Jun 30, 2023 at 6:38 AM UTC
Did you think... that he meant
All the things... that he said
Do they replay... in your head
?
Did you fall... for the lies
Pulled the wool... over your eyes
Did you believe... it all
?
Start the fire.
Let's cook the liar.
May 4, 2023
May 4, 2023 at 6:46 AM UTC
You reached out to me again
And I felt your touch
Like a gentle shower to a wilted rose
You looked at me again
And I felt complete
Like the final puzzle piece slotted into place
You embraced me again
And I felt a delightful glow
Like the clouds had finally parted
You kissed me again
And I felt my shoulders unburden
Like nothing could bring me down
When morning set in like our initials to bark
And final call had sounded
The flurry of soft moments formatted into dreams
Retreated back into their sanctuary
I wilted,
Appeared empty,
The clouds drew like curtains
And I hit the cold callous reality
Aug 12, 2022
Aug 12, 2022 at 10:14 AM UTC