I fear doing something wrong
Speaking the wrong way
Dressing the wrong way
Acting the wrong way
My lungs fill with rocks
Heat runs through my body
My heart beats too fast
My limbs shake
I fear being in trouble
Talking when I shouldn’t
Doing things when I shouldn’t
Speaking when I shouldn’t
My lungs fill with rocks
Heat runs through my body
My heart beats too fast
My limbs shake
I fear being wrong
Answering incorrectly
Acting incorrectly
Doing incorrectly
My lungs fill with rocks
Heat runs through my body
My heart beats too fast
My limbs shake
I fear judgement
Speaking oddly
Dressing oddly
Acting oddly
My lungs fill with rocks
Heat runs through my body
My heart beats too fast
My limbs shake
I fear commitment
Loving someone forever
Working a job forever
Taking care of a child forever
My lungs fill with rocks
Heat runs through my body
My heart beats too fast
My limbs shake
I fear independance
Feeding myself alone
Doing my taxes alone
Living completely alone
My lungs fill with rocks
Heat runs through my body
My heart beats too fast
My limbs shake
I fear ignorance
Coming off as stupid
Acting like I’m stupid
Speaking like I’m stupid
My lungs fill with rocks
Heat runs through my body
My heart beats too fast
My limbs shake
I fear other people
Their anger towards me
Their judgement towards me
Their love for me
My lungs fill with rocks
Heat runs through my body
My heart beats too fast
My limbs shake
Mar 7, 2018
Mar 7, 2018 at 9:46 PM UTC
I question the reliability of forever
When someone says
“I’ll love you forever”
Then stops loving you
Your faith in love begins to wane
If your heart is broken enough times
You don’t have enough of it
To believe in forever
Mar 3, 2018
Mar 3, 2018 at 10:57 PM UTC
The pain ripped through my body
Tearing apart my muscles
Electricity shot through my arms
Sending sparks down my veins
My heart pounded against its cage
Each thump threatening to break free
My stomach boiled in its own acid
Sizzling as the bile rose in my throat
Hot tears rolled down my cheeks
Searing my skin as they trailed
One word drummed through my mind
Never
Each time it hammered my skull shook
Never
The hopeless finality of Never
It screamed in a skull splitting screech
Never
would I be happy
Never
would I be myself
Never
would I be free.
Feb 27, 2018
Feb 27, 2018 at 8:30 PM UTC
Is my heart mistaken?
They tell me it isn’t right
How will I get into heaven?
Without losing a part of me
I won’t get into heaven
Maybe I don’t want heaven
Feb 26, 2018
Feb 26, 2018 at 7:59 PM UTC
Is anybody out there?
I'm screaming but no one seems to hear
When words are spoken into darkness do they lose their power?
Dec 31, 2017
Dec 31, 2017 at 2:38 AM UTC
These red lines cover my paper skin
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Like a pen dragged
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Over
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And Over
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And Over
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These red lines slice through my paper skin
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My pen breaks
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Red bleeds
_______________________________________________________________
Covering the page
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Every night
_______________________________________________________________
Over
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And Over
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And Over......
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Dec 19, 2014
Dec 19, 2014 at 7:45 PM UTC
Some times I wake up missin' you
Some times I wake up glad your gone
Either way its still gonna hurt
Like a knife to the back
Like glass to my gut
Its all gonna hurt
Either way it still hurts
Like a hole in my chest
Like blood on my arms
You still feel the pain
Either way it still hurts
Dec 7, 2014
Dec 7, 2014 at 12:57 PM UTC
I like someone I shouldn't
The one person I can't have
To me food is the enemy
It makes me fat it takes away my bones
I wish I could say I don't get nervous
But my hand is constantly tapping
Giving me away
I dress more like the opposite gender than my own
I'm more other than either side
I know one day I'll get it but right now its hard
Dec 4, 2014
Dec 4, 2014 at 7:19 AM UTC
I see my reflection
I hate what I see
I punch the glass
My knuckles bleed
I'm shattered
Pick up a piece
Slit my wrist
I bleed, I bleed, I bleed, I bleed, I bleed, I bleed, I blee........
Dec 1, 2014
Dec 1, 2014 at 6:11 PM UTC