Why do we all have to live up to standards of society?
No ones the same,
We’re all different,
Hiding behind a mask to fit in,
Looking through a window to hope someone understands us
May 29, 2020
May 29, 2020 at 4:01 AM UTC
It’s been a while since over written
The words are there
Circulating my brain
Pushing it down
Making it hard to think
But still I choose to keep it in
Why?
I don’t know I guess I’m stubborn that way
May 29, 2020
May 29, 2020 at 3:59 AM UTC
I had a dream last night,
Of us,
It seemed so endless,
Endless cuddles,
Naps,
Grey's Anatomy,
And then I woke up and it was all over
Mar 5, 2020
Mar 5, 2020 at 9:57 PM UTC
Not just a word,
But a title,
One you were supposed to have in my life,
But instead you constantly choose everyone over me,
You’ve tried turning my brother,
The one person in this world I can share anything to,
Without judgement,
Against me,
You’ve endlessly tried turning everyone I love against me,
My mom,
My brothers,
My friends,
And only few have listened,
And left,
You wonder why I don’t speak to you,
Why when asked I say I don’t have a father,
When confronted by my youngest brother about not wanting you in my life,
As his father was never in his,
I simply say,
He has never been a father to me,
He hasn’t been the one picking me up after some bully has knocked me down,
Because you have been the one knocking me down,
He has never cheered me on,
Instead you use my victories and twist them inside me to make me feel defeated,
He never defended me against those who wish me harm,
Instead you welcome them back into your home.
A father?
Someone who loves you for who you are,
Someone who cheers you on,
Someone who only wants what’s best for you?
Yea I never had one of those
Mar 4, 2020
Mar 4, 2020 at 10:08 PM UTC
Sometimes words start to flood my head,
Words that constantly point me in the wrong direction,
Words that want me to feel pain,
Those are the words that kept me from blocking him for so long,
The ones that told me he was a good person,
The ones that stoped me from knowing the truth.
That be only wants pain,
He only wants drama,
He’ll hurt anyone I care for,
That he’s toxic
I wish I could just make those word disappear,
Make them go away forever,
But I can’t,
And there must be a reason why
Feb 18, 2020
Feb 18, 2020 at 1:19 AM UTC
i've been having this same nightmare since I was 7, I know what caused it but I don't know how to stop it, its so horrifying, I have found ways to live with it but then my brain makes it worse, and I don't know what to do about it at this point, I had it the other night and it was so bad because now I have more people who I deeply care about in my life and brain used it against me, I'm unable to stop it so what do I do? do I just have them and somehow push it off as if it's nothing, because it's not nothing, it's definitely something but it's so unexplainable I don't even know what to do, how do I tell people about it without sounding insane?
Feb 6, 2020
Feb 6, 2020 at 8:03 PM UTC
the school system is so ******* irritating,
i've been doing all this work for years to be where Im at now,
and because of 0.1 credit i may not be able to graduate this year
0.1 credit,
that's ******** just let me write a ******* paper or something,
it not even half of a credit,
it may all get fixed tomarrow
but if not
im literally ******
Feb 6, 2020
Feb 6, 2020 at 7:53 PM UTC
Here I lay,
Night after night,
unable to fall asleep,
The only thing on my mind is you,
Your smile,
Words said in the past,
Laughs had in the past,
Laughs we will have in the future,
Words that can now be shared in a future,
All of it consumes me at night,
Taking away the sleep I desperately need,
But it’s ok,
Because you are much much a better picture then the darkness that haunts my dreams,
There’s been less and less of it since you saved me that day,
When your words brought me back from the edge,
The day that snapped me out of years of depression,
The day that has then lead me to gain love for myself,
Are there days of doubt?
Yes, some days I see the little scared child I used to be,
Yes, some days I hate my body,
Yes, some days the horrible things haunt me,
Unable to find happiness,
The horrors that have constantly haunted me,
Are now a shallow thought of the day,
Because now you are my deep thought of night,
Thank you for that day,
Thank you for being there to save me when I couldn’t save myself
Feb 6, 2020
Feb 6, 2020 at 12:48 AM UTC
all these months i have liked you
and now you like me too
I'm just so scared I'm gonna do something to mess this up
and not only lose my boyfriend but my friend,
who was there for me when i had no one
Jan 29, 2020
Jan 29, 2020 at 1:40 AM UTC