It's been a long time
Since I've wandered through the fallen leaves
It's been a long time
Since I've smelt the pumpkin pie baking
It's been a long time
Since I've tasted the fall spices
It's been a long time
Since I was a little kid
It's been a long time
Since I could play in the cold
It's been a long time
Since I have seen fall
Oct 27, 2015
Oct 27, 2015 at 8:02 AM UTC
Will I ever stop being a failure?
Will there come a time that I do something right?
Cause right now...
I cant live like this.
Feeling this way...
Knowing how I am.
When all I seem to be is a child.
Unable to look after myself,
You shouldn't need to waste your time on me...
I waste enough of yours already.
Sorry I'm impossible to deal with...
I just hope I'm not too big a ***** up...
And you can still love me no different come morning.
Jun 8, 2015
Jun 8, 2015 at 5:07 PM UTC
My grandma committed suicide
When I was six
I'm sure it was my fault
Was I not good enough?
Did I not meet your standards?
What did I do wrong?
My best friend
For seven years
Left me last year
For an unknown reason
Was I not kind enough?
Was I just too weird?
What did I do wrong?
Someone said I am stupid
Lazy
And dumb
Am I really?
Am I mentally ill,
Do you think?
What did I do wrong?
I don't know what I did
But it must have been me
It's always me
What did I do wrong?
Jun 8, 2015
Jun 8, 2015 at 5:06 PM UTC
Am I okay?
I cry every night,
And can't breathe most days.
I sometimes want to die,
And feel buried by all the lies.
I have a broken heart,
And trust issues.
But also,
I smile at the little things,
And laugh for no reason.
I have hope in my heart,
And light in my eyes.
I am getting stronger,
And I will keep trying.
So:
Am I okay?
No.
Will I be okay?
Yes
May 29, 2015
May 29, 2015 at 1:40 PM UTC
IcySky:
If I ran away,
would you look for me?
If I cried,
would you dry my tears?
If I got hurt,
would you make it better?
If I died,
would you cry for me?
If I wasn't here,
would you miss me?
If I was gone,
would you care?
Would you even notice me?
Written Destruction:
If you ran away, I'll pack up too
If you cried, I'll cry with you
If you hurt, I'll make it work
If you die, I'll follow you
If you wasn't here, I'll drown in tearz
If you was gone, right will slowly turn to wrong
Would I even notice you? Tell me your joking, I seen you shine amongst a parade full of people
May 29, 2015
May 29, 2015 at 1:40 PM UTC
How is it possible...
To hate yourself as much as I do?
To look down at yourself,
And break out in tears because of what you see.
And there's nothing you can do about it,
But try to change,
And be somebody you aren't.
Try to be the same person,
With a different shell,
And be perfect.
How can you hate yourself to the point you want to get rid of yourself,
Or to the point that you cut and bruise,
And starve.
How can you hate yourself as much as I do?
How does one be happy?
May 26, 2015
May 26, 2015 at 8:03 PM UTC