I dont know who I am
Or where Im going
And this is such a tight jam
I havent tried escaping
But as far as they can see
I got it figured out
And I know how
To go about this
All this change
I used to have a light of guidance
To help me move forward
That light has been lost
Just like me
I have hope that the answers will come to mo
I have fear to search for them
I shall only glance over
But not go digging
What if my next move destroys me
What if I never make a move again
I look to my left and I see
What my old self would do
I look to my right and I see
Impulsive decision making
I am not the old me
But I havent made a new me
When I look forward
Ahead
Where the future lies
I see nothing
Something is in the way
Could it just be me
The world
My emotions
Thoughts
I still have nothing figured out
No plans
No ideas
Just patience
And curiosity
No clear vision
No direction
Sep 11, 2015
Sep 11, 2015 at 6:16 PM UTC
I said I can do it
I was on a four month roll
I had it all
Then I joined the old group
And they had what I was deprived of
I thought I liked being away from it
But once I smelt it
I was back to it
Wanting it
Loving it
Inhale, exhale
Uphill, next hill
Pocket dragon me, blazer.
Aug 12, 2015
Aug 12, 2015 at 4:57 AM UTC
She acts like my friend
Until I mess up
Which is completely normal
I mess up sometimes
She doesn't get it
She overreacts
Doesn't talk to me
Doesn't want to work it out
Shes ruthless
Tries to keep me from happiness
Which is him
And them
And that
Shes wise
But not understanding
Shes nice
But not concerned
Shes funny
But doesn't joke around
Shes great
But believes that too much
Shes above
But not as much as she thinks
Shes amazing
But is shocking in all ways
Shes my mother
But she didn't choose me
Aug 12, 2015
Aug 12, 2015 at 4:51 AM UTC
I see greatness in him
I can imagine him moving mountains
Saving lives with his smile
He has power over me
At any point he could completely destroy me
I would be dead inside without him
Hes just what I need
All I need
All I have
It scares me
To think of all the possibilities
Good and bad
Change just isn't my thing
I miss him all day long
Every little thing reminds me of him
Every cute scene in a movie
Every couple I see
Ive never felt this way before
And I don't mind
Because I know that if I fall
He will be there to catch me
And lift me up as high as I can go
Aug 12, 2015
Aug 12, 2015 at 4:47 AM UTC
My mind is blank of things to type on this screen
I have no inspiration
No rhythm
I haven't lost it all
Not quite yet
Its just drifting
And its time to go searching
Aug 12, 2015
Aug 12, 2015 at 4:42 AM UTC
I've been questioning
Our love
I've lost what it means
I want to find the source
But you messed up
And I get it
Its hard to wait
But aren't I worth waiting for
Its a selfish thing
To break someone's heart
To scar them
And ruin their future in a way
By making them fearful
Of the fall
Because the crash they've had
Jul 18, 2015
Jul 18, 2015 at 2:10 PM UTC
I wake up each morning
Earlier than usual
So I could talk with you
About anything
We could talk for days
And end up covering just a few topics
You tell me about how things are going
I give you advice
I tell you about how things are flowing
You say that's nice
I asked you about
That one night
What if
And you think it was right
What actually happened
You ask me how I see us in the future
I say I see eternity
You hope that's where we're going
And I agree
Jul 11, 2015
Jul 11, 2015 at 1:03 PM UTC
i'm crossfaded
because i'm drunk on love
while his love is my drug
Jul 8, 2015
Jul 8, 2015 at 1:21 PM UTC
When I'm by his side
Lightening looks like sunshine
A frown looks easy to fix
Breakage looks like a game
Happiness is an easy goal
Tears are bound to stop
Problems have a resolution
Nothing is impossible with him
He gives me wings
He makes me better
We are infinite
Jul 8, 2015
Jul 8, 2015 at 12:57 PM UTC
By now
I'm in a different place
The place where I came from
And you're at the place where it all began
I think of you everyday
I can't stop imagining how it'll be
Once we're reunited
I miss you
I used to think that
I can't see myself without you
Well, here we are
Away from each other
I hope you don't ever forget about us
All those crazy things we've done
How strong we were when we were together
How much we made each other smile
It's the best thing I've ever had
And we haven't said goodbye
But see you later
We haven't seen an ending
But a pause
Jul 6, 2015
Jul 6, 2015 at 1:32 PM UTC