These words, straight from my tumultuous soul. Another one with a hagridden, asphyxiating heart. 1---*-2 purblind eyes as injudicious as always. Even though airy for a change turned bovine, storming, screaming, it wants me blind. Gelid weather left behind, duplicating my touch from brisk to biting, killing the lie within your skin that was never on display.
Now...
Meaningless memories smothering the limbic system. Willthis be all that remain? Lets hang it up.
Now...
There's just another withering fire, burning the secrets. Will this be all that remain? Lets stab it deep.
Now...
Like a pernicious disease, dreams of the promised, made me blind. Will this be all that remain? Lets tear them out.
Now...
Like a metastatic infection, the pretense makes my skin numb. Will this be all that remain? Lets cut it open.
Now I'm calling 26280 and still you put me straight through to voice mail. I've had enough. I beg of you, please loosen the grip so I can renovate my fragmented life.
Jul 24, 2017
Jul 24, 2017 at 1:35 AM UTC
I fought for you
I'm still fighting
You're not here
You're nowhere near
I'm uncomfortable
I'm scared
I know you safe
Know you're somewhere
Where my demons can't smile
But why are they joking around in my head?
I know you're safe
Nothing in your surroundings can hurt me
Can hurt us
But still my demons parry
All I want to hear is your voice
Saying those words
Meaning those words
To put the demons to rest
My best friend
My thoughts
Jul 23, 2017
Jul 23, 2017 at 5:47 PM UTC
Here I sit
Drunk once again
Fists open
Heart broken
Nothing to say
Nothing remains
Left with the scars
Nothing's right
Well there's nothing worth the fight
My new best friend
Regret
Jul 22, 2017
Jul 22, 2017 at 3:11 PM UTC
Sitting in this empty tub
It was meant for two
Not much words to say
Cause the drain is faster than the flow
So rather than saying words
I'll put it down on paper
Ever wondered what it feels like to drown?
Put yourself in my shallow shoes
Cause they don't fit anymore
There's music blasting
The water's flowing
The drain is pumping
Just like the water drains
I want to drown my thoughts
But the plug was put
I'm afraid i'll be drowning after this
So after everything I've said I'll pull the plug
Do you see me drowning?
Cause all along I've been afloat
Jul 20, 2017
Jul 20, 2017 at 3:44 PM UTC
I gave up on you
In an earthquake in the frame
Your open skin soaked in blood
On the bumpy fourth kind
If love is where you invest your life
And home is where your heart is
Where did that ******* duck
Where did he invest
You stupid ****
As if all the heart breaks didn't keep you satisfied
You had to leave me with this broken frame of the hero I dreamed of being
You left me wondering
Raging
Screaming
Crying
Mostly you left me dying
I just kept on trying
As you left me at the detour
With no beacon to guide my feet
You watched and stared as I entered
Entered the passenger seat
Left me to dwell on my own
Just to let you know I'm doing well
I'm okay
I'm good
I'm fine
I'm ninety nine shades of ********
No more color in these eyes
You might have tripped the main switch
Might have killed the supplier
Jul 12, 2017
Jul 12, 2017 at 8:05 PM UTC
Dear father. Beautiful mother.
Please allow me this opportunity to thank you, but caricature of my decisions needs to be put in place first.
As the days passed me by, long ravenous nights, restless and unaware. You helped me realize that the white lines turned into white lies, the dice I constantly rolled made me a sucker for the rule of threes.
You made me realize that this is not who I was made to be, and I can be a better man I know. I never needed to become a shell of the man I used to or intended to be.
The lines I drew was nothing more than a mark to build a wall, a barrier between myself and candidly company. I've replaced real words and genuine touch with a new best friend and she's called loneliness. I can feel her but touch so fake, I can hear her words but similar to the voice in my head.
So I want to thank you for allowing me to make my own mistakes but never vamoose my side. Just know that I've learned from my mistakes and trying my best to be a better man than yesterday, everyday.
You've raised me with love, clarity, and a soft touch and I need to thank you for that.
I hope you hear this.
I love you.
Jul 12, 2017
Jul 12, 2017 at 7:50 PM UTC
Take me away
Away from this cursed path
The path we walk as humans
Rushed by time
Consumed by hate
Chased by approval
Sleep walking
Seeking the useless
This path
Wonky and jejune
Nothing more than wanton
Not seeing the misanthrope it leads us to
Living according to a paradigm
Surrounded by air of melancholy
Rather lead me into the field
Give us an abditory
Make us feel
Feel the greatness of ataraxia
Cause at the end
As it stands
We are nothing more than a nation of sheep
Ruled by wolves
And owned by ******* pigs
Jul 12, 2017
Jul 12, 2017 at 7:31 PM UTC