There's something in me that feels so hollow.
When i got home i used to be so amused because i can't help to tell how's my day to you. How it started really boring because i couldn't get the seat in bus and how my mom was blaming me for things that my sister did.
But now, when i got home, i just sit in my bed rewind all those things we used to do, searching where did i do wrong?
It get worse day by day.
I never stopped hoping that one day you will knocking at my door saying you're sorry for everything you did and you miss me.
And tonight, i gazing at my door hoping you will show up with that sad smile face you had.
I know you hated me for making things looks so major than it has to be. But i really not ready for this situation,you left me without a single warning. So now i'm in hurry to get a help. So sorry
I found you look really calm, are all we had is too heavy for you? So you've already let it all go?
do you remember the stories i told you? The one that i have to stand still in bus like for 2 hours because of the traffic jam? I told you that i'm so weary that day, but hey, i didn't know the day without speaking to you is more exhausting than that.
But i have to let go,life is moving forward.
Before you walk away, i just want to say, thankyou for stopping by.
May 1, 2017
May 1, 2017 at 10:54 PM UTC
Is lust comes naturally after love or love that naturally comes after lust?
What if love and lust are two different things that can never become one?
What if someone just want the 'i'm here for you' without 'come on baby, just for once'?
What if someone just want the moan without any 'do you got home safely'?
What if lust and love literally is the same thing?
Or there's smooth line between them?
But it so smooth even you can't feel the line that separated them.
All i can say that the similarity between love and lust is that they have the same taste.
They both taste so good.
But when love and lust really come together i want to call it lost.
LOve and luST.
Nov 7, 2016
Nov 7, 2016 at 9:44 PM UTC
"Babe,do you know how much i love you?" He asked.
"Not as much as i do" she smiled.
Nov 5, 2016
Nov 5, 2016 at 12:37 PM UTC
Did you ever feel guilty at night for hurting me?
Oct 11, 2016
Oct 11, 2016 at 12:07 PM UTC
I heard my pillow say something
"Did he do that again?
I nodded
"And you forgive him that easy?"
"It's easier to forgive than to let him go" i said.
"Well, i know he's a toxic but sometime we crave drugs in case we want to be high. And I feel like i'm flying when im with him."
Oct 10, 2016
Oct 10, 2016 at 9:44 PM UTC
I wrote a many paragraph for you,
Yet there's no words can describe how much i love you.
I sing a many song for you,
Yet there's no melodies can touch your deepest heart.
I cry so many time for you,
Yet there's no tears would melted your cold heart.
Oct 6, 2016
Oct 6, 2016 at 10:25 PM UTC
Unfortunately im the type of girl who's going complicated your life.
Because i can be so selfish and depress you at the same time.
I won't tell you what's wrong but get angry so easily if you have no idea what is happening.
I will cry over things that not even worth a word.
I swear,i will stay being mute if you're not trying to bring my mood back. There's no excuse if you don't even know the reason is.
I will say 'its okay' and smile even though it's killing me inside.
I will feel the pain i get until i kind of used to it.
I just dont wanna fake anything around you.
Maybe this is sound insane,but i refuse to be with you unless you realize that staying together is hard no matter what.
I refuse to be with you unless you're stubborn as **** -- stubborn enough to stick around me no matter how worse things get.
I refuse to be with you unless you refuse to accept that we're not tottaly worth it.
Oct 5, 2016
Oct 5, 2016 at 12:20 PM UTC