The past is my poetry
and my foolishness, my fuel
I loved with hope
I loved with joy
I loved with all my heart
I played an open hand
and lost.
I stood up again.
and lost again
to the simple smile
a smile so beautiful
so innocent
and yet so dreadfully deceiving
sparking a sense of hope
for hopeless love.
But I was a fool
Walking into a cave of cruelty
stuck in a prison of pain
And I didn't run
I waited.
Smiling and hoping for love
blinded by hope
blinded by "love"
my mind froze
while the seasons passed
The way I loved you
was unhealthy
corrupting the very core
of my character
it melted my loving heart
leaving only a puddle of tears
I still love you. I do.
but the way I love you
has changed.
I no longer hope.
Instead, I walk
with my head held high
granting my heart
to those who deserve it.
Jun 16, 2016
Jun 16, 2016 at 5:48 PM UTC
One I love, and one loves me.
I would give the one all my time.
But the second one I refuse to see.
Love is not fair and Love does not care.
But I wish it really was...I wish it really did.
Feb 27, 2016
Feb 27, 2016 at 7:33 PM UTC
Please little heart
in my chest
You don't you have to
please him
for the rest of your life
He is no god
He is no angel
He is just a mortal man
But still he touch my heart
like no one ever could
oh please little heart forget him
for the sake of both of us.
Feb 24, 2016
Feb 24, 2016 at 3:10 PM UTC
It's night and I am to wonder
What is this sinister madness?
shocking me like thunder
an unexplainable sadness!
Sadness from sheering silence
Erasing all hope and guidance.
I wonder. But find no reasons
Why this sadness is needed
and like spiritual dry seasons
Wither the joy I once seeded
Drained and bleak, but why?
Sadness and silence, no reply.
Time passes days and weeks
I am still with no explanation
And when the sun finally peaks
I feel this relieved sensation
But why did the sadness go?
why did it come? I don't know.
Feb 20, 2016
Feb 20, 2016 at 1:05 AM UTC
In public I act independent
No need for care or attention
But in privacy I pray for your love...
Feb 19, 2016
Feb 19, 2016 at 10:28 PM UTC
Take my fragile heart
Keep it safe I beg you.
Don't tear it apart.
But love it with care.
It will grow.
I promise.
It will give cover.
From the baking sun.
And the fruits.
Will we enjoy together.
Feb 18, 2016
Feb 18, 2016 at 9:12 AM UTC
Your first night without her
is always the hardest.
You turn to find the place she used to lay,
the outline of her body in your sheets,
yet somehow all you find now is emptiness.
To deal with heartbreak
you must cry.
You must cry into your pillow
or weep at the moon.
You must scream until
the pain has left your chest
right in the place
where love used to be.
You must run barefoot
into the woods
and find a field
full of life and lay in the middle of it.
You must feel your body so connected
to the earth
and the nature around you
and you must feel.
To deal with heartbreak
you must feel the broken pieces
of your heart
but not let it damage you.
Feb 18, 2016
Feb 18, 2016 at 7:25 AM UTC
I cannot give you love.
I can only give you kindness.
I am sorry.
You love me.
But I do not love you.
I am sorry.
I feel pain.
But so do you.
A pain much greater than mine.
I am sorry.
I like you, I really do.
But I can only give you
what my heart has to offer.
And that is kindness.
A kindness I know is slowly killing you.
I am sorry, I don't know what else to do.
You are addicted.
Addicted to me.
I am sorry.
I want to cure your addiction.
But I cannot come near you.
I am sorry.
"Let us stay friends."
A wish for me.
A nightmare for you.
I am sorry.
You lost hope.
I lost a friend
I am sorry. Goodbye...
Feb 16, 2016
Feb 16, 2016 at 11:05 AM UTC
I saw everyone eating love
So I thought I should give it a try.
But the taste was bitter sweet...
Feb 16, 2016
Feb 16, 2016 at 7:06 AM UTC
Your beauty match a cherry blossom tree
No a garden!
The love that grow inside of me.
The start of spring!
Getting warmer, getting brighter.
Makes my head feel lighter.
It must be love.
Feb 13, 2016
Feb 13, 2016 at 8:12 PM UTC