HeyItsRen - Hello Poetry

You cry as the blade slides across your skin. Your heart aches, you feel lost, you feel alone, you‘re drowning. You can see everyone around you breathing. This feeling of pain, of sorrow, of self— hatred, its an agonizing pain. I know how you feel, I feel it too. My smile is fake, my heart is gone, I feel like there‘s nothing left. I'm tired of feeling this way, I know you are too. But I'm holding on, Im staying strong, I need you to listen when I say, you can make it through this. Please don't cry you may be broken but you‘re still alive. Just keep moving on, put down that knife. Hide the bottle live your life. You are worth something, I am too. I'm here to help.. don't push me away don't be afraid sooner or later your scars will fade. Life will get better, this is just the beginning. So lift your head up and look at the sky.. reach for the stars don't say goodbye.

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Oct 1, 2015

Oct 1, 2015 at 9:38 AM UTC

Reach for the stars ✨

You cry as the blade slides across your skin. Your heart aches, you feel lost, you feel alone, you‘re drowning. You can see everyone around you breathing. This feeling of pain, of sorrow, of self— hatred, its an agonizing pain. I know how you feel, I feel it too. My smile is fake, my heart is gone, I feel like there‘s nothing left. I'm tired of feeling this way, I know you are too. But I'm holding on, Im staying strong, I need you to listen when I say, you can make it through this. Please don't cry you may be broken but you‘re still alive. Just keep moving on, put down that knife. Hide the bottle live your life. You are worth something, I am too. I'm here to help.. don't push me away don't be afraid sooner or later your scars will fade. Life will get better, this is just the beginning. So lift your head up and look at the sky.. reach for the stars don't say goodbye.

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As the seasons change, the leaves fall. They slowly become a memory of that beautiful spring we had together. I stand alone now, looking at the sunset.. So much time has passed by without you. Every second i'm wondering.. "where are you now?" You're probably off on Broadway, dancing and singing your way through life.. Or maybe you've even become an Author, expressing your thoughts in the most wonderful way you ever could. If you're wondering about me, I'm still stuck in this town.. Searching for answers.. Trying to find my own path. When did we fall apart? Can you tell me that? Maybe it was when the first leaf broke it's way off from its fragile branch at the beginning of fall.. Or was it when you told me you had found someone new? What happened to all those times when I said "I love you" or when you told me "I want to marry you"? I didn't know loving someone meant falling apart.. Now I'm left here wondering.. Where are you now?

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Sep 30, 2015

Sep 30, 2015 at 12:17 AM UTC

Where are you now?

As the seasons change, the leaves fall. They slowly become a memory of that beautiful spring we had together. I stand alone now, looking at the sunset.. So much time has passed by without you. Every second i'm wondering.. "where are you now?" You're probably off on Broadway, dancing and singing your way through life.. Or maybe you've even become an Author, expressing your thoughts in the most wonderful way you ever could. If you're wondering about me, I'm still stuck in this town.. Searching for answers.. Trying to find my own path. When did we fall apart? Can you tell me that? Maybe it was when the first leaf broke it's way off from its fragile branch at the beginning of fall.. Or was it when you told me you had found someone new? What happened to all those times when I said "I love you" or when you told me "I want to marry you"? I didn't know loving someone meant falling apart.. Now I'm left here wondering.. Where are you now?

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1 pill 2 pills 3 pills 4 pills How many more till I can't feel? Maybe 5? Possibly 10? Who knows.. 1 cut 2 cuts 3 cuts 4 cuts How long till I drift away? After 5 cuts? Maybe 6? Probably 10 but who knows? Who knows the pain? Who knows the self hatred? Who knows what it feels like to want to die? I know, but why haven't I let go? I can't let go of my hopes, my dreams, my family. I can't leave them behind to deal with the pain.. I can't let them feel the way I do. I've tried getting help, the pills don't work. Hours of therapy and where am I? I'm still stuck here.. Drowning in my sorrows Feeling sorry for myself.. How long till I get better? Who knows..

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Sep 28, 2015

Sep 28, 2015 at 9:56 PM UTC

Who knows?

1 pill 2 pills 3 pills 4 pills How many more till I can't feel? Maybe 5? Possibly 10? Who knows.. 1 cut 2 cuts 3 cuts 4 cuts How long till I drift away? After 5 cuts? Maybe 6? Probably 10 but who knows? Who knows the pain? Who knows the self hatred? Who knows what it feels like to want to die? I know, but why haven't I let go? I can't let go of my hopes, my dreams, my family. I can't leave them behind to deal with the pain.. I can't let them feel the way I do. I've tried getting help, the pills don't work. Hours of therapy and where am I? I'm still stuck here.. Drowning in my sorrows Feeling sorry for myself.. How long till I get better? Who knows..

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Hand in hand you walk with me. I wonder if i'm enough. Enough to make you stay, enough to make you smile. I put everything I have into keeping this alive. I'm not losing you. I long for your beautiful smile and your witty remarks. I long for the feeling of warmth and comfort in your arms. I long for your lips on mine. What I long for the most is feeling cared for Show me you care Show me you want me just show me how you feel. I'm oblivious to other's feelings I need to be told how you feel. Just let me in.

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Aug 6, 2014

Aug 6, 2014 at 2:12 AM UTC

Let me in

Hand in hand you walk with me. I wonder if i'm enough. Enough to make you stay, enough to make you smile. I put everything I have into keeping this alive. I'm not losing you. I long for your beautiful smile and your witty remarks. I long for the feeling of warmth and comfort in your arms. I long for your lips on mine. What I long for the most is feeling cared for Show me you care Show me you want me just show me how you feel. I'm oblivious to other's feelings I need to be told how you feel. Just let me in.

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Love, scary and beautiful painful yet pleasing so many emotions im yours for the keeping. So confusing and so unreal By your side my wounds start to heal. I love your kisses I love your touch sometimes I think I care a little too much. My heart is yours and yours is mine this poem is coming to an ending but our love will conquer time.

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Aug 4, 2014

Aug 4, 2014 at 1:44 AM UTC

Love

Love, scary and beautiful painful yet pleasing so many emotions im yours for the keeping. So confusing and so unreal By your side my wounds start to heal. I love your kisses I love your touch sometimes I think I care a little too much. My heart is yours and yours is mine this poem is coming to an ending but our love will conquer time.

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Welcome to this magical place The one down the rabbit hole.. Where little girls drink wine and pop pills Every ounce of innocence is lost in this place. Welcome to this magical land Of all these beautiful creatures And some deadly foes Welcome darling For you will see This magical place isn't what it's made out to be.. It's dreadful and dreary Its mentally hysteric There's Rabbits on crack A queen with a fetish for chopping off heads And a guy named the hatter who tells a riddle of a raven.. A raven you say? And Why is it like a writing desk? For no one has an idea, the mans gone mad. The best people are apparently.. Only in this magical land.

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Jun 6, 2014

Jun 6, 2014 at 2:04 AM UTC

Wonderland

Welcome to this magical place The one down the rabbit hole.. Where little girls drink wine and pop pills Every ounce of innocence is lost in this place. Welcome to this magical land Of all these beautiful creatures And some deadly foes Welcome darling For you will see This magical place isn't what it's made out to be.. It's dreadful and dreary Its mentally hysteric There's Rabbits on crack A queen with a fetish for chopping off heads And a guy named the hatter who tells a riddle of a raven.. A raven you say? And Why is it like a writing desk? For no one has an idea, the mans gone mad. The best people are apparently.. Only in this magical land.

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