Your love rains down
from the shower head.
Sharp needles of fire
dousing cold feet.
It feels like daggers,
and wouldn't be so,
if I hadn't lingered for so long,
in my frigid hesitancy.
Feb 16, 2016
Feb 16, 2016 at 6:20 PM UTC
You cry as the blade slides across your
skin.
Your heart aches, you feel lost, you feel
alone, you‘re drowning.
You can see everyone around you
breathing.
This feeling of pain, of sorrow, of self—
hatred, its an agonizing pain.
I know how you feel, I feel it too.
My smile is fake, my heart is gone, I feel
like there‘s nothing left.
I'm tired of feeling this way, I know you
are too.
But I'm holding on, Im staying strong, I
need you to listen when I say, you can
make it through this.
Please don't cry
you may be broken but you‘re still
alive.
Just keep moving on, put down that
knife.
Hide the bottle live your life. You are
worth something, I am too.
I'm here to help.. don't push me away
don't be afraid sooner or later your
scars will fade.
Life will get better, this is just the
beginning.
So lift your head up and look at the
sky.. reach for the stars don't say
goodbye.
Oct 1, 2015
Oct 1, 2015 at 9:38 AM UTC
I constructed a piano, out of dead leaves and pine needles
Frail it was, pitiful it looked
But I played it without shame, as most as I could
To create sounds, to my desolate landscape
And for a moment
Break away, the chains of the lonely sin
Sep 30, 2015
Sep 30, 2015 at 12:22 AM UTC
As the seasons change, the leaves fall.
They slowly become a memory of that beautiful spring we had together.
I stand alone now, looking at the sunset..
So much time has passed by without you.
Every second i'm wondering.. "where are you now?"
You're probably off on Broadway, dancing and singing your way through life.. Or maybe you've even become an Author, expressing your thoughts in the most wonderful way you ever could.
If you're wondering about me, I'm still stuck in this town..
Searching for answers..
Trying to find my own path.
When did we fall apart? Can you tell me that?
Maybe it was when the first leaf broke it's way off from its fragile branch at the beginning of fall.. Or was it when you told me you had found someone new?
What happened to all those times when I said "I love you" or when you told me "I want to marry you"?
I didn't know loving someone meant falling apart..
Now I'm left here wondering..
Where are you now?
Sep 30, 2015
Sep 30, 2015 at 12:17 AM UTC
1 pill
2 pills
3 pills
4 pills
How many more till I can't feel?
Maybe 5?
Possibly 10?
Who knows..
1 cut
2 cuts
3 cuts
4 cuts
How long till I drift away?
After 5 cuts?
Maybe 6?
Probably 10
but who knows?
Who knows the pain?
Who knows the self hatred?
Who knows what it feels like to want to die?
I know, but why haven't I let go?
I can't let go of my hopes, my dreams, my family.
I can't leave them behind to deal with the pain..
I can't let them feel the way I do.
I've tried getting help, the pills don't work.
Hours of therapy and where am I?
I'm still stuck here..
Drowning in my sorrows
Feeling sorry for myself..
How long till I get better?
Who knows..
Sep 28, 2015
Sep 28, 2015 at 9:56 PM UTC
I'm not exactly broken, just a little torn..
See i'm just as perfect as a rose thorn
I'm not exactly in love but I love you
And I know a fraction of you,
Loves too
It's just this Life thing, gets in the way
Of everything I want to, convey
So if you'll listen,
Here's a list of, reasons why
I'm willing to give my book,
A rewrite..
Some days, i'll get it wrong
And i'll come on way too strong..
Everyone's a fool, with words
Though my actions may be weak
I'll now listen when you speak
Everyone's a child, until 18..
And when your 18th birthday comes
You'll spend it with that someone..
In my eyes, everyone resembles an Ed Sheeran song..
So you'll always be my favourite 'Photograph',
Whenever I look back..
Everybody feels your warmth..
...Someday we'll meet again
With new loves and new best friends
Life can't help it, if our souls were meant to part..
But i'll hold on 'til the end
And learn to make amends..
Every now and then,
We'll have to break a heart.
Sep 28, 2015
Sep 28, 2015 at 4:43 PM UTC
Your true love is someone who you won't be able to live without.
Well ever since you've been gone, I can't really say that I've been living.
Sep 28, 2015
Sep 28, 2015 at 4:43 PM UTC
Unconditional
I have my heart on my sleeve.
But you've got it on a leash.
The rhythms playing in my untamed soul.
You strum them out,
So beautiful,
The echoes.
*I live to see the light each day.
Unknown to me though,*
You are my light.
You illuminate my way.
Unconditional.
Now I know.
The love I have for you is real
Unconditional.
That love, that love which I feel.
Sep 28, 2015
Sep 28, 2015 at 4:41 PM UTC
You could illuminate as bright as the North Star
but you're settling for a shine as insignificant as
a street light in a crowded city.
Sep 28, 2015
Sep 28, 2015 at 4:40 PM UTC