HelplesslyMe
Hai There. / I'm Sammy. I'm 15 years old, and love to read and write poetry/ songs. / I mostly write poems about depression and anxiety because lately I've been having them or about my boyfriend. / I'm currently in a long lasting relationship of 2 years, and 3 months. / So I talk about him a lot. Haha and about how we don't go to the same school and stuff. So Yea. / Well that's me:) / I hope you enjoy my poems. :)
Rain.
Rain surrounds me,
I feel it on my skin
I feel it in every breath
The stinging that I have felt for so long
No matter how hard I try it seems impossible to get away from
It's everywhere
when I get out of the rain
There is still water on me
I am currently still wet with the tears from the clouds
And sometimes the sun comes out
But it never seems to last long
it seems that the sunshine only lasts the mornings.
Before long the weather takes a turn and goes back to it's normal
Wet, Gloomy, and Miserable.
We can only pray that one day we will wake up with sunshine
And that sunshine will wipe away the gloominess of that day
For the entirety of that day.
maybe one day I will wake up and the rain will be gone
But for now all I see is rain.
I am surrounded by rain
And one can only pray for sunshine so long before, they give up
May 6, 2016
May 6, 2016 at 12:55 AM UTC
Trembling I can't help but remember sixth months prior
When our innocent romance blossomed into where we are now
I promised myself I'd wait until we had walked down the isle
But as my love grew stronger
I came to the realization
that our "Forever" had already began
So I decided that I didn't care what happened
as long as it was with you
Here we are now sixth months later
about to show our love in a different way
Scared doesn't cover the emotion I'm feeling
Excited, and blessed that I get to share my first time
With you
As the room fills with passion and I look into your eyes
I know that I have made the right choice
and not about what is about to happen
But that I chose you as my forever
I will share my love with out until the day that I die
And even though I didn't plan for this
I can't help but shed a tear of joy
because of the fact that I know I will be able to share moments
like this with you for the rest of my life
May 6, 2016
May 6, 2016 at 12:45 AM UTC
On the verge of
A nervous breakdown
Hyperventilating
Falling apart
Collapsing
Breaking
Dying
Tears
But
I'm still
Faking that
God **** smile
Sep 25, 2015
Sep 25, 2015 at 9:55 PM UTC
I can't promise things will always be perfect
But I promise that we're worth it.
I may not be able to give you everything
but I'll give you all I have and all that I am
I'll give you all the love inside of me
For I promise to always love you
Even if there is a time
where we have to say "Goodbye"
I will still be loving you till the day I die.
Because this love isn't something you can easily get over
We have something special
We have something not a lot of people do
We know it's real and true.
There is no person in this world that I want to grow old with
besides you.
I don't know where life will take me
let alone us
But I promise you
no matter what happens
I will spend this entire life time loving you
Even if the worst comes to worst
and we have to part.
I will always be deeply
and forever in love with you.
Apr 14, 2015
Apr 14, 2015 at 7:04 PM UTC
For so long we've been dating
Yet you continue again and again to save me.
2 long years and you still rescue me in times of pain
After losing my Grandma
You were there for me
And I know I've told you countless times before
How much you mean to me
And how thankful I am for the things you've helped me with
But you just make me so happy
It's impossible for me to be sad around you
You're so easy to talk to
And so gosh **** cute
You've become my bestest friend
You became my sunshine
when it was so rainy for so long in my world.
When everything seemed to be falling apart,
You saved me.
Mar 24, 2015
Mar 24, 2015 at 4:34 PM UTC
I wish I was more like me again.
I wish I could laugh and be happy again.
I wish there was more of a reason for my sadness
I wish I could not care what people think of me again.
I wish I didn't try so ******* hard to impress people
I wish I wasn't so **** insecure about myself.
I wish I could talk to people with out my anxiety getting in the way.
I wish I would have realized what was happening and what she did.
Why are other people the reason why I hate myself?
Why do I hate myself?
Why can't I just be happy?
I'm unhappy if I'm eating, and unhappy if I'm not.
I used to be happy.
I used to think I was pretty.
But the anxiety and the depression took over.
I hope to find myself again.
I'm scared and lost and I don't know what happened to me
This isn't me.
I wish I was more like me.
Mar 23, 2015
Mar 23, 2015 at 1:13 AM UTC
Now I don't know about you
But I do know that I love you
I know that I want to be with you for the rest of my life
I want to be your wife.
Baby please say forever
Forever please?
Because Forever may just be enough time with you
And I know I don't want to spend this life without you
You make me happy
and as happy as I can be
So baby will you please spend forever with me?
For to stand and face this world together
Nothing else would be better.
You complete me. <3
Mar 22, 2015
Mar 22, 2015 at 5:56 PM UTC
Your name spills out of my mouth
Like water falling into a stream
I see the look on there faces they seem to be saying
"Shut the hell up, Sammy."
But I can't stop
For your name is the most perfect
The things you say are so sweet I want to share them with everyone
I see the not listening but I go off in my own world
Were I only think and talk about you
Because you're my everything
And I can't help but talk about you
You're just perfect
And I love you.
And I know that no one cares
But I also know that I don't care that they don't care.
I will continue to talk about boyfriend.
For you are like an addiction to me
Mar 22, 2015
Mar 22, 2015 at 5:52 PM UTC
For a long while I forgot why I resented you
All I knew was that I did
I couldn't remember why
I just thought it was because you were literally insane
Well I for sure wasn't wrong about that
But guess what,
Now I remember
I remember what you did to me when I was 8, 9, 10 ,and 11
Sure maybe I was okay with it then
But I didn't know what was going on
And you did
You were 12, 13, 14, and 15
You knew exactly what you were doing to me
But we were both girls so no one saw any harm in it
I remember at first I thought it was normal
I thought all friends did that
But I was so freaking wrong
I thought you were just my best friend
But then I remembered
How you would force me to stay awake
So we could play "Truth or Dare"
But then I remembered
How you would threaten me
stupid empty threats like I won't be your friend anymore
But at such a young age I didn't want to lose a friend
You wonder why I hate you, why I resent you so much?
Because you did this to me
I hate you
You are the one person I hate most in this world
Maybe if you never did those things to me I wouldn't be so scared
So scared of everything
Maybe I wouldn't think like I do
Because I don't want to think like that
So I know I apologized for the rude things I have said to you
But then I remembered and realized how wrong it was
And now I will forever hate you
Don't talk to me
Don't ever talk to me
Gender has nothing to do with it being wrong or not
I bet if it never happened I would be normal
But no I'm not because of you
Mar 21, 2015
Mar 21, 2015 at 3:02 PM UTC
Baby you are my everything
Baby you are my super hero when life gets rough
Baby you are the only thing that makes me happy
Baby you are the one person I trust
Baby you are my best friend
Baby you are the person I want to love for the rest of my life
Baby you are my future
Baby you are my life
Baby you are the one who gives my life purpose
Baby you are the one I love
Baby you are the one I will absolutely always love
Baby you mean everything to me
Baby you're my whole world
Mar 21, 2015
Mar 21, 2015 at 2:47 PM UTC