Because of my darkness I shine.
Because of my scars I am beautiful.
Apr 1, 2019
Apr 1, 2019 at 7:09 PM UTC
I restarted my medication recently because I hit the worst depression episode of my life. It got so bad that I had planned out, with cold, hard rationale, how I was going to **** myself.
The medication is helping somewhat. But it's also making me feel numb. I don't feel positive emotions anymore, if I feel anything it's the depression. I feel like an empty husk floating through life.
I don't want to live like this, I don't want to take the medication if this is how it's going to make me feel. However, I can't fight this alone. I don't know what to do.
Apr 1, 2019
Apr 1, 2019 at 7:07 PM UTC
Wish I could disappear
Been in the worst major depressive episode of my life this past month. I am triggered easily and I have so much anger and frustration and sadness I don’t know where to channel it all. I’ve lost 15 pounds according to my scale. Wondering if maybe I’ll just eventually shrivel up to nothing and disappear. What a relief it would be. #Depression #Suicide
Apr 1, 2019
Apr 1, 2019 at 7:05 PM UTC
My depression get the best of me
Long nights I don’t rest or sleep
Jaw tight as I compress my teeth
Digest the devil pressin me
Repress the stress that rest in me
Death don’t ever pester me
Life brings on all the pressure see
I can’t even measure the little pleasures
why can’t I just Rest In Peace
I strive to never take my life
Hear voices from a gun and knife
Fake light for when my dark nights strike
But **** the light, give me a ladder
I’d rather fight and climb back to the surface
Search through all my pain for purpose
Learn to deal with the hurt and worthless
Help others in similar circumstances
Gives them chances in advance
To never glance on suicidal’s dance
#f ;ghter
Apr 1, 2019
Apr 1, 2019 at 7:02 PM UTC
Living with mental illness makes almost every single day a battle. Will we wake up and handle our stress or will our brains completely derail and make us want to give up? Will today be a good day or will we fall closer to rock bottom again?
We KNOW we have everything to live for (kids, family, friends, great jobs, etc.) and we ARE grateful for those amazing fortunes...but something always haunts us. We are always fighting to stay on top and to control how our emotions flow out. There is always a fear, however small and maybe even subconscious, that today could be the day that breaks us or that we fall back down from however far we've climbed. Its a constant, conscious effort to survive, let alone thrive. Some days are easier than others. Treatment and/or therapy helps, but we're never "cured". The demon can be tamed but never exorcised. This is us.
We are mothers, fathers, friends, coworkers, siblings, sons, daughters. We smile through pain. We cling to the smallest hopes and continue to climb.
So show some compassion. Give hugs and high fives when you're having a good day. Check on your friends who may be slipping. Help them up. Show them you care, don't just tell them. You could be the light in someone's darkness that brings them back to life. #Depression #Anxiety #Suicide #MentalHealth #CheckInWithMe
Apr 1, 2019
Apr 1, 2019 at 7:02 PM UTC
The kids these days are cutting
They smile but feel nothing
The teens these days are starving
Their invisible wounds are scarring
They all are filled with self-hate
Because they feel like a waste of space
They lie awake all night crying
They say they're fine but are lying
Each day they feel like hiding
Because each night they dream about dying
They all fear they're seeking attention
Fighting a battle they dare not mention
But the parents never wonder
And the teachers never question
That maybe all the kids these days
Are suffering from depression
Apr 1, 2019
Apr 1, 2019 at 7:01 PM UTC
I saw the pain in her eyes
she was hurt and broken
no one cared did they
They snickered
They judged
They talked
They bashed
Until that one day
That one day
After 4 years of abuse
She was found dead
Hung
She had killed herself
( Comment if this has happened to someone you know or you?
Mar 5, 2019
Mar 5, 2019 at 6:10 PM UTC
I loved her...
Her hair
Her eyes
Her body
Everything
She was special
She was unique
I wanted to tell her
But she was one of my best friends
I told Erin and chloe and everyone else
I hope she reads this I hope she knows
That I love her very dearly
Mar 4, 2019
Mar 4, 2019 at 6:32 PM UTC
I was looking at old pics of ours.
The memories we shared
The way we used to share our life
That way in which you cared
I want those days back in our lives
Without you I can't suffice
Coz I miss you my old best friend
Please come back to me
Mar 4, 2019
Mar 4, 2019 at 5:41 PM UTC
I'm in love with a girl.
She is so beautiful and so amazing
But she is also one of my good friends
It's hard to see her everyday
Knowing that I love her.
I hope she see's this I want her to know she make me happy she makes me who I am
Mar 4, 2019
Mar 4, 2019 at 1:22 AM UTC