Because of my darkness I shine.
Because of my scars I am beautiful.
Apr 1, 2019
Apr 1, 2019 at 7:09 PM UTC
I restarted my medication recently because I hit the worst depression episode of my life. It got so bad that I had planned out, with cold, hard rationale, how I was going to **** myself.
The medication is helping somewhat. But it's also making me feel numb. I don't feel positive emotions anymore, if I feel anything it's the depression. I feel like an empty husk floating through life.
I don't want to live like this, I don't want to take the medication if this is how it's going to make me feel. However, I can't fight this alone. I don't know what to do.
Apr 1, 2019
Apr 1, 2019 at 7:07 PM UTC
Wish I could disappear
Been in the worst major depressive episode of my life this past month. I am triggered easily and I have so much anger and frustration and sadness I don’t know where to channel it all. I’ve lost 15 pounds according to my scale. Wondering if maybe I’ll just eventually shrivel up to nothing and disappear. What a relief it would be. #Depression #Suicide
Apr 1, 2019
Apr 1, 2019 at 7:05 PM UTC
My depression get the best of me
Long nights I don’t rest or sleep
Jaw tight as I compress my teeth
Digest the devil pressin me
Repress the stress that rest in me
Death don’t ever pester me
Life brings on all the pressure see
I can’t even measure the little pleasures
why can’t I just Rest In Peace
I strive to never take my life
Hear voices from a gun and knife
Fake light for when my dark nights strike
But **** the light, give me a ladder
I’d rather fight and climb back to the surface
Search through all my pain for purpose
Learn to deal with the hurt and worthless
Help others in similar circumstances
Gives them chances in advance
To never glance on suicidal’s dance
#f ;ghter
Apr 1, 2019
Apr 1, 2019 at 7:02 PM UTC
Living with mental illness makes almost every single day a battle. Will we wake up and handle our stress or will our brains completely derail and make us want to give up? Will today be a good day or will we fall closer to rock bottom again?
We KNOW we have everything to live for (kids, family, friends, great jobs, etc.) and we ARE grateful for those amazing fortunes...but something always haunts us. We are always fighting to stay on top and to control how our emotions flow out. There is always a fear, however small and maybe even subconscious, that today could be the day that breaks us or that we fall back down from however far we've climbed. Its a constant, conscious effort to survive, let alone thrive. Some days are easier than others. Treatment and/or therapy helps, but we're never "cured". The demon can be tamed but never exorcised. This is us.
We are mothers, fathers, friends, coworkers, siblings, sons, daughters. We smile through pain. We cling to the smallest hopes and continue to climb.
So show some compassion. Give hugs and high fives when you're having a good day. Check on your friends who may be slipping. Help them up. Show them you care, don't just tell them. You could be the light in someone's darkness that brings them back to life. #Depression #Anxiety #Suicide #MentalHealth #CheckInWithMe
Apr 1, 2019
Apr 1, 2019 at 7:02 PM UTC
The kids these days are cutting
They smile but feel nothing
The teens these days are starving
Their invisible wounds are scarring
They all are filled with self-hate
Because they feel like a waste of space
They lie awake all night crying
They say they're fine but are lying
Each day they feel like hiding
Because each night they dream about dying
They all fear they're seeking attention
Fighting a battle they dare not mention
But the parents never wonder
And the teachers never question
That maybe all the kids these days
Are suffering from depression
Apr 1, 2019
Apr 1, 2019 at 7:01 PM UTC
She's a strong
Cup of black coffee
In a world
That's drunk
On cheap wine
And fake love
Mar 31, 2019
Mar 31, 2019 at 8:29 PM UTC
I like you
You hate me
I love books
You hate them
I hate school
You love it
I love to drive
You hate it
I love to travel
You hate it
I guess what I'm trying to say is Opposites attract
Mar 31, 2019
Mar 31, 2019 at 8:28 PM UTC
I just want to Let each of you to know this too.
That each and Everyone of You has Blessed Me.
I want to Thank each of You for Blessing Me too.
Everyone of You has been an encouragement to Me.
I just want Each of You to know that as well My Friend.
For each of You are by Far More Special than You know.
Each and Everyone of You are Truly an Blessing to others.
Whether You May know it or not You are an Huge Blessing.
You Shall One Day see all of the lives that You have touch here.
Mar 19, 2019
Mar 19, 2019 at 11:41 PM UTC