I've loved and I've lusted
Desire clouding my judgement
Mind craving deep connection
Body craving his ********
Give into sin now or later
They say love makes the sensation greater
I don't have time to find out
I need to feel you right now.
Jan 11, 2017
Jan 11, 2017 at 8:59 PM UTC
Focusing on outer beauty
Watching YouTube tutorials for hours on end Trying to learn how to contour so u can fit in
Going out to buy a waist trainer
So you can get thin
Using snapchat filters to have lighter skin
You don't need a fatter *** darling
You need to read better books
Try to improve your mind
Instead of your looks
Physical appearance will only get you so far
Without all the superficial
Do you even know who you are?
Underneath the facade can you even recognize yourself?
What's the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word wealth?
Do you think of money or jewels or fancy new whips?
Or an abundance of knowledge and maintaining meaningful relationships?
I refuse to ever be the pretty girl with no purpose
Cause at the end of the day, outer beauty is worthless. Being pretty is cool, but I'd rather be smart bc bad ******* are everywhere
It's my mind that sets me Apart.
Jan 10, 2017
Jan 10, 2017 at 4:00 AM UTC
Maybe time heals all wounds;
its what they always say,
but your heart is ******* up,
you're just not okay.
Maybe you're hurt. You're hopeless.
Try to let the right one in the door,
but every time you're more careful,
is an even deeper cut than before.
Maybe it's a game of conquest,
you just use and discard.
You wanna make it good.
You gotta make it hard.
Maybe every warm body
is just another empty shell
no matter how many
you're alone in your hell
Maybe was your true love
now she's just an ex
You try to get over it,
with some mindless ***
Maybe it helps the ego
but the heart yearns for more
but it hurts like hell
it shakes you to the core.
Maybe next time, things will be different.
you'll learn from your errors
one step forward
away from altruistic terrors
Maybe you'll find someone
Someone who will take care of you.
When you're feeling happy,
or when you're feeling blue
Maybe
Jan 4, 2017
Jan 4, 2017 at 2:36 PM UTC
If I die today don't say you'll miss me.
I've been dead inside for years yet somehow you couldn't tell when you kissed me
If I die tomorrow please don't cry
All I've wanted for years was to be able to die..
physically
To finally be free of my thoughts & my misery
To be able to see once & for all if being here served a purpose
Does god really exist? Or was living by all those rules simply worthless.
When I'm gone please don't pretend you care
Because when I was alive, you were never there
All I ever wanted was to appreciated & understood
But all you ever saw in me was the bad, not the good
Now I'm gone & you wanna talk about how you loved me.
Yet When I was alive you put everything above me.
Basically what I'm saying is don't wait til its too late, because feeling so alone can lead to self hate.
Self hate to self harm
Self harm to killing myself
When if you'd taken the time to ACTUALLY care, it could've done a world of help.
Dec 30, 2016
Dec 30, 2016 at 1:36 PM UTC