Keeling at her feet (happiness),
Let her take me,
I release my pain.
Let it break me.
In spirals I swim,
Through the tide and dark.
I forgive myself, I swallow hate,
I open my heart.
Nothing to hide.
Nothing to hide.
Nothing to hide.
She is sat smiling on the other side.
‘i love you’ she says.
A golden hour becomes a life.
Just take it! Step outside!
I'll bear it all for you, my dear.
This is me! my heart!
I hope this love is only the start,
That it grows wild and far.
Taking my soul and ripping apart,
Tearing at the scars.
Ill build it back, brick by brick,
stand back and admire the view.
Ill build it brick by brick,
in the image of you.
Dec 16, 2025
Dec 16, 2025 at 5:13 PM UTC
There's romance in my delusions,
Madness by candle light.
Salsa dancing with confusion,
Seducing the night.
Feb 1, 2020
Feb 1, 2020 at 8:33 PM UTC
Heart's can be broken,
Having never felt loved.
Like snowflakes that melt,
Having never felt sun.
Jan 28, 2020
Jan 28, 2020 at 2:44 PM UTC
The platform is quiet when I arrive.
The walk home is long.
The road is busy with lights, but no faces.
I should have worn gloves.
Nearly there now.
Someone's home but nobody was waiting.
I pull a smile out my pocket and drop my keys,
Then I listen to words about the day.
My bed brings solitude,
While questions crawl behind my eyes.
Scraping inside my skull, they're familiar,
And I drift off on their backs.
Jan 28, 2020
Jan 28, 2020 at 2:30 PM UTC
My grief laps at the shores of my being,
I taste some aged sorrow.
Nostalgic on the nose,
The rich earth of my soul.
A quiet appreciation for the dark.
Jan 10, 2020
Jan 10, 2020 at 11:32 PM UTC
When the day becomes muffled through the wall,
I slowly lower my guard.
Shimmering memories preface the fall,
How distant you are.
I was vulnerable when you came,
With little worth and scared to love.
But your gentle soul made me the same,
Open arms and stars above.
Spectral thoughts assumed your form and danced away my grief.
Your empathic mind mirrored mine and challenged my beleifs.
Of course it was too perfect, too simple and pure.
As our chance came you pushed away.
Sick love with no cure.
And so our paths diverged and your beauty found by others.
Bitter Envy, pain and loss,
Secrets beneath the covers.
Still so present and close but held forcefully far,
I know you see my scars.
We both hold that weight, knowing what we could of been
and living what we are.
May 16, 2019
May 16, 2019 at 7:13 PM UTC
When its darker,
My heart fills with dread.
I feel safe surrounded by beautiful reflections, illuminating my world.
In the flick of a switch they disolve into inky black and Like a cat poised to attack,
It waits.
Round every corner, behind every door.
The floor creaks as i creep through the night.
I know theres no danger in the lack of light,
I'm safe.
Its not physical, the threat that waits.
Its something that cant be described,
my fears personified.
Staring at me through the dark night
Right into my blinded eyes.
No longer distracted by vision, my pain surrounds me.
Awake.
The things i didnt do.
The things i havent said.
The frantic face of sadness, desperate and cold.
I can't see it, but its formless gaze haunts my dreams.
I can feel its breath on my neck.
When its darker.
Dec 27, 2017
Dec 27, 2017 at 7:48 PM UTC
All outcomes exist,
In the sea of potential.
There must be an end to this,
When the empty space is full.
The hand of the actual sifts through its murky waters, projecting its favourites into the back of your head.
From your head to your hands, a thought drifts,
We choose to act upon it,
And through time we shift.
Once you choose you cant go back.
A fleeting decision is a fork in the track on which life races.
Death waits after each and every one.
But how many roads wait for me,
Theres no way to see them,
I keep breathing.
As long as my hearts beating,
I try not to fall off the one im on.
Dec 27, 2017
Dec 27, 2017 at 7:29 PM UTC
Ive done it again
Let imaginary love scare me away
At the end of the day it was early still,
And its my lack thereof that got you.
Truth is i wont let myself commit,
The little story in my head where im happy never plays out to the end.
I know you couldnt wait forever,
Keep letting me close with no notions of whats to come.
My silence fed your doubts about yourself, why doesnt he see me in his life outside of now?
Truth is i dont know,
My lonliness isnt aware of its transience.
My affection is camouflaged in lustful waves.
Im scared to let myself go.
Im scared to trap you in.
Thoughts that grow from a scarred heart are misshapen and tough.
I know if youd seen the real me,
It wouldnt have been enough.
Nov 29, 2017
Nov 29, 2017 at 7:02 AM UTC
There it stands, arachnid shadows creeping down, its veins flow hidden, causing the grass to breathe.
A distant storm closes in,
it swallows the horizon, accentuating my trivialty .
I rest in solitude.
I make my way up the hill.
I can see the wind through the things that it moves, its power still dormant, demanding my respect.
As i get closer i can sense a force above me,
A blue marble spins and glistens in orange light,
i try desperately not to fall off.
Its almost too much to bare as i stretch out my hands.
In that instant i realise my eyes have been closed.
I hesitate to open them,
The vast atmosphere is now an ambience moaning low.
A deep chant reverberates inside.
I can feel Herculean walls towering to an ornate roof, and statues of gold staring into me, piercing my skin.
Never blinking, never averting their gaze, i have to see.
The hairs on my neck stand up and I ****** my eyes wide.
A cold breeze drifts in from my garden as rain drips off the tin roof.
I get up from my chair wiping my tired eyes.
I look out at the old tree from years past, but i see it for the first time.
Nov 26, 2017
Nov 26, 2017 at 8:55 AM UTC