On the edge of it all
Looking down at everything
The air feels thinner
I'm really on solid ground
But I can feel myself about to fall
Like standing on the side of a skyscraper
my back against a wall
Why can't I just be laying down
looking up at the sky?
A night sky, watching fireflies
Realizing how they ignite the fire
in my eyes
I can feel the pain before it comes
It's such a sad trait
Don't want to be consumed by hate
I just want let it go
Things are a little different
Change is inevitable
But if I'm able to take a breath at a time
Maybe I'll overcome
May 24, 2016
May 24, 2016 at 4:25 AM UTC
I'm swimming just like the sea
I'm not as fast as the current cause I much more faster
I'm much more faster
I'm going with the flow of the wind
It goes on till the morning after
the morning after
I'm counting all my blessings from the broken jar
that kept all my sins
I'm trying to forget the level of fear that I'm feeling
within
I hide the truth from you so I know I'm your favorite
liar
Feeding your heart's desires
There is no fate for what we make
I can't agree that I am the same
You feel like you don't belong, another endless
problem
A shoe box filled with all our issues but we can't
find the time to solve them
Why can't we tell our friends the things that
can't be changed?
Why can't the tears from the past be wiped off
from your face?
And even while I'm home I'm trying to figure
out where I am
So I lay in my room knowing my hearts in your
pocket while your lockets in my hand
I'm crying from the words that I'm trying to
say
Every word is a tear of a thousand regrets that I
have to repay
I know this now, that to be with you
will **** us both
I can't undo the things I've felt
The world we know leaves us in flames
I will not let you watch me as I burn
So go on now, with your locket around your
neck and my heart in your pocket
There is no fate for what we make
I can't agree that I am the same
You feel like you don't belong, another endless
problem
A shoe box filled with all our issues but we can't
find the time to solve them
Don't ever look back, just see the truth even
through my lies
I'm crying with my words but screaming with
my eyes
Feeding your hearts desires
I close my eyes to rest as I become part of the
fire
Jan 7, 2015
Jan 7, 2015 at 11:24 PM UTC
Every morning is a struggle
feeling miserable
unbearable
That is until I turn things on
hot and heavy
The feeling of excitement
A smile under my face
I'm so aroused
It gets hotter
It gets more steamy
The ****** it's done
My day can start
All thanks to my love who
makes me whole
My coffee.
Dec 14, 2014
Dec 14, 2014 at 2:11 AM UTC
Laying on my bed
The other side is cold
Waiting for her to lay with me
The touch of her hands
The smell of her hair
Doesn't have to be intimate
But it is anyway
I have yet to still find a 'her'
Until then
The struggle is real
Dec 13, 2014
Dec 13, 2014 at 11:32 PM UTC
I had every reason to pack up all
my stuff
And just leave
Cause every morning I felt like
I was never good enough
It's just me
I never really had it
figured out
But **** no one really knew
what I was about
Just the black sheep that couldn't
fit in with the crowd
Couldn't really deal with the
anger and pain at once
I need to stop thinking of myself
in the back seat with cuffs
Cause I see myself as the one with
the 9mm in his hand
No way out, a clean slate not a sense
of hope or second chance
I feel myself laying in the bottom
of mud
Why me?
When everyone on the streets
is making money selling drugs
No one took the time to catch me
when I fell
Should've known better, I'm already
living in hell
All I ever see is people crying
tears of red
People **** each other everyday
I don't need that thought process
in my head
Jenny was a sweetie but she
let herself go
The whole time she was sticking
needles I didn't even know
What the f***
She had me, she was never
all alone
A single mom, she was pregnant on
the floor
I knew I had the right feeling
but I wasn't at the door
It's hard to see all the people
from my school
All my friends doing nothing
really nothing they can do
No school or work, nothing given
life is so cruel
Can I really blame life?
Is it ignorance or a right?
If I can go back in time I'd
give it everything I had
Give it all I got with the level
that I'm at
Without the second guess and
sacrificing everything I have
Could've been a brighter light
Instead I'm sitting with my dad
whiskey on the rocks
Same thing every night lecturing me
about the life I almost had.
Dec 2, 2013
Dec 2, 2013 at 3:10 PM UTC
I've never had a reason to keep this up
But I've got a reason to say I've had enough
How could I ever be the right guy
The one who knows what the greatest love feels like
I'm counting all the sins that I have done
Looking in the mirror, the animal I've become
I'm looking forward, no reason to look back
Running out of time, trying to fill up all these gaps
Tell me now, how could I ever break your heart
Like a double-edge sword, the words you say are razor sharp
Come clean now and I swear I'll go away
Cause I can't believe every single little word you say
I'm jumping high but I keep on falling low
I'm screaming loud with nothing left to show
Standing still, but I'm running out so wild
I'm looking back to all the things that make you smile
Who would have thought what we had would never get so old
I grew up poor, but I cherished your heart like gold
I'm done crawling on my hands and knees for you
You ran away before I had a chance to say, "I do."
No!
I'm sick and tired of feeling all alone
Going through the nights walking on my own
Searching for you, a place to call my home
Reaching high running from my all time low
Burning bright, but I guess it goes to show
Who I am, the only sorrow that I know
Can't you see what you do to me?
I still love you, but I'm just so blind to see
It's all too much for me to know
That I can't find the strength to let you go
In my mind, going crazy from all these things
Playing my guitar, my fingers bleeding from these strings
So much anger that makes us feel confused
Blame it all on me even though I have no excuse
My love plagued you, but you know it's not a bad disease
I feel you running back, there's something that you believe
Well here I am, come sweep me off my feet
Cause you know you're the only one who still believes in me
I'm counting all the days when you'll come back
Even though we're happy, we'll still be wearing black
It's a color that we both just seem to love
So much of you that keeps me standing up
I'm head banging to the music that you sing
My hands are better everytime I play these strings
We are who we are, learn from our mistakes
I'm better now, I'm stronger, nothing left to break
I'm proud to say I have a heart to call my own
For every gal out there that should never feel alone
I have her heart that I can call my home
I'm flying high and I'm looking down below
You have to believe in the love that you still know
Cause there's no reason for you to let it go
Feb 18, 2011
Feb 18, 2011 at 12:18 PM UTC
In a sense I've seen the darkest light
Wipe away the sorrows in my eyes
Give me back my lungs to breathe
The path I chose that I can't see
I am the harbinger of my demise
The sounding sadness of her cries
I'm counting crows that fly away
They hurt the ones that I can't save
My senses fail, I feel no more
My body washes to the shore
I wake up to this world alone
Cause it's my fault, I'm on my own
The wind that's blowing through my hair
I'm running fast to see a face
Bring me a soul for once to save
Escape away from this dying place
Is this Hell or am I just scared?
That's when you said you don't hate me
The things you said that could break me
The things you've said that's all to hear
Bringing out my deepest fears
Rip away our darkest paths
The hope we keep and have to grab
Here I am, the sufferer
I never could get enough of her
She saved me once, she will this time
The choice to bring her back with my own eyes
She is my savior and I'm her will
I will not make the choice to shoot to ****
Return the world the way it was
Ignore the pain that hurts, I know it does
Our wrists that show no painful scars
The rising strength that shows us who we are
And I know that we will stand again
The ones beside me that I call my greatest friends
The pride that glows right through our hands
The heart I have that shows me who I am
Feb 15, 2011
Feb 15, 2011 at 8:38 PM UTC
So tell me as a hero what's worth saving
Rebuild our lives together and what's worth breaking
The green stripes on my arm that I present
But the violence I'm against that I resent
My head up high and my gun held close
The sorrow and sadness that I seem to overdose
No drugs can save me from this dream
A nightmare in time where I'm not free
Give me the life that I once had
Saving broken lives, the sickness now it makes me sad
Running in the sands that are colored red
My fallen brothers I remember in my head
Send them back home covered in our colors
The hardest thing to do, to tell their mothers
Fight for them our bravest sons
The greatest honor they have that's still to come
Do you understand?
Keep count of every bullet that you shoot
Every single hand grenade that I threw
Warriors of time yet so far from home
Packed as one no warrior that is left alone
Give them the right, you know they're just like us
As human beings all together in God we trust
Take away their pride, you are the enemy
All they have to say before they leave is, "Remember me."
Together as one, the right to fight with pride
The hopes and dreams to comeback to our wives
No time to give up, no time to pacify
We are the brothers with so much left to sacrifice
In God we trust
Just keep on running with me now
Our guns up high, no fear, just scream and shout
With our honor we know we can survive
Our colors waving when our hearts are burning bright
Redefine the warriors that fight for you
Take back the negativity and the things you do
We are the ones that wear the stripes
The things we do and say that change our lives
The battles we fight that show us who we are
When we come home all that's left are these painful scars
Keep us together now in our greatest liberty
Keep in mind of our brothers that keep us forever free
Feb 7, 2011
Feb 7, 2011 at 2:25 PM UTC
The seperate ways of pathes we choose from
The coexistence of different worlds to come
From above I keep falling endlessly
To the cries that I hear screaming silently
Bleeding out all my stronger darkest fears
Even though the symphonies of your voice that I can hear
As we search for our hearts and souls as they seemed to have
disappeared
But all I need to find is you when I can feel you walking
near
But even though you still feel so far away
Inanother world, right up above where I can't stay
Just bring our worlds together so we can feel
Everything we have inside us that makes us real
Keep me swimming in open water
And give us back our sons and daughters
Anihilate the aching pain
Wipe away all of our cries in vein
And now on thousand souls I see
By my side they keep guiding me
Mypath to you where I know I can walk
Nothing in my way so I break right through the rocks
I keep climbing high, you keep falling low
You've got the angels beside you that won't let go
As they hold on they bring you right to me
Our different worlds together that we know can be
Feb 7, 2011
Feb 7, 2011 at 2:11 PM UTC
This is the end of the line that we have drawn
Pick up the lost dreams that keep us moving on
And now I'm listening to the music that I know
To rise again, escaping from the bottom down below
These broken dreams that we just can't forget
These falling leaves that I can see in my head
No songs are sung, not even broken words
But I know that I will try to save you first
As we begin to lose our only faith
We forget the way out to our greatest escape
And I'm calling out to you as you can hear me sing
You are the spirit that is my only being
Rise from the ashes once again
Relive the journey that can never end
Keep on running towards the sky
As we keep falling on through the night
I will catch you in these arms
The hope and will we can't disregard
These paper wings that will keep us flying
The lost smiles gone that keep you crying
But I know that soon it will all change
The indescribable feeling of something strange
The way it feels inside, but we know it's good
The somethings we don't do, but we know we should
The circles we run in, we repeat in time
The power that you feel to bring me to life
An overwhelming greatness shining in our eyes
To the top we must go in the rising tide
Oh, oh, oh, ohh...
Cause we know, cause we feel everything we have as one
We give and we share everything that we've become
Relive the life in circles, the journey once again
Give our hearts out, and the faith that we can send
I'm calling out to the love that I once knew
Reaching for the capabilities I know I can find in you
We move together and nothing to hold back
We bring the light so the somethings never fade to black
But nothing should ever be left unsaid
Express the smiles of your face that I keep inside my head
So keep calling to me, I'll keep calling to you
Keep your hands up, everything I know I can do
From this cycle that I keep running to
These broken walls I keep running through
The strength that we have that keeps us on the move
So bring me to life, you know it's something you can..
do.
Feb 3, 2011
Feb 3, 2011 at 11:44 PM UTC