Friendwithherpen - Hello Poetry

I sort of had given up on love before I met you And when you walked into my life thousand of lights and butterflies were awoken in me I wanted everything you had to offer I had never been so ready to love Well except for that one time that one crush that almost crushed me First time we met I felt a chemistry I tried to fight it because my history with this kind of chemistry was a big capital (F) I was so off when I fell so hard and it failed me Nonetheless I surrendered to new beginnings To accepting love and what you had to offer It was quick I left my rationality at the door because it always get the best of me I opened my heart fully and embraced you I wanted this so bad Felt it in my bones and I trusted you Your love In the short period we were together You made me feel safe and seen That’s all a lady like me wants from her lover To feel seen I wanted you to be the Oboma to my Michelle The peanut butter to my jelly The yin to my yan Father of my future children That was first for me Maybe I got too ahead of myself What was I thinking? Clearly not because I followed my heart completely Was I wrong to?

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Nov 9, 2021

Nov 9, 2021 at 8:16 PM UTC

Friendwithherpen

Most wanted

I sort of had given up on love before I met you And when you walked into my life thousand of lights and butterflies were awoken in me I wanted everything you had to offer I had never been so ready to love Well except for that one time that one crush that almost crushed me First time we met I felt a chemistry I tried to fight it because my history with this kind of chemistry was a big capital (F) I was so off when I fell so hard and it failed me Nonetheless I surrendered to new beginnings To accepting love and what you had to offer It was quick I left my rationality at the door because it always get the best of me I opened my heart fully and embraced you I wanted this so bad Felt it in my bones and I trusted you Your love In the short period we were together You made me feel safe and seen That’s all a lady like me wants from her lover To feel seen I wanted you to be the Oboma to my Michelle The peanut butter to my jelly The yin to my yan Father of my future children That was first for me Maybe I got too ahead of myself What was I thinking? Clearly not because I followed my heart completely Was I wrong to?

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As far as I know Words have always landed heavy on my tongue as a child there were Some things I couldn’t Enunciate well Like soap in my native language Though English was my first first Language I lost it very early on I must say picking it back up Learning to relearn this language That is spoken in many places Wasn’t as easy As finessing my safina (soap)pronunciation In manikaka (Mandingo) It’s not about saying the words But how it is spoken How I struggle with that English is my primary language And yet I get asked which Language I think in Native speakers tries to over simplify things Break down so I could better understand them I mean I don’t know every big grammar that exists in the English dictionary But golly gee you don’t have to ask me If I know what the words mean after each sentence But you know I can never quite get it right When I am told that I have accent speaking My own native language Words My tongue Why does it feel like nothing seems to fit perfectly Words, languages Is this the price I have to pay for being multi lingual

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Apr 6, 2021

Apr 6, 2021 at 9:10 AM UTC

Friendwithherpen

Words on my tongue

As far as I know Words have always landed heavy on my tongue as a child there were Some things I couldn’t Enunciate well Like soap in my native language Though English was my first first Language I lost it very early on I must say picking it back up Learning to relearn this language That is spoken in many places Wasn’t as easy As finessing my safina (soap)pronunciation In manikaka (Mandingo) It’s not about saying the words But how it is spoken How I struggle with that English is my primary language And yet I get asked which Language I think in Native speakers tries to over simplify things Break down so I could better understand them I mean I don’t know every big grammar that exists in the English dictionary But golly gee you don’t have to ask me If I know what the words mean after each sentence But you know I can never quite get it right When I am told that I have accent speaking My own native language Words My tongue Why does it feel like nothing seems to fit perfectly Words, languages Is this the price I have to pay for being multi lingual

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There’s a virus that has been spreading rapidly It is not contagious but very deadly once contaminated The moment you realize that when affiliated by it you become another statistic Another victim and you are just that one out many you battle it alone because it is an affliction that cannot be cured so you learn to live with it It eats up from inside out and no one really understands How you feel There’s an ancient epidemic One of the many symptoms are shame.silence and guilt You fight it alone because it’s has become so normalize in our society You do not fight at all because you know there’s nothing to fight for You become numb and detach yourself Becoming shallow to reality To your reality Dreaming of alternate universe Wishing for Days that differ from your current Existence and You wish to perish from the face of the earth There’s an epidemic It has been use as a weapon in war and love and it has spread wide and far It has always been someone’s reality And the people respond As they have always done well with Shame Blame Questions Pointing fingers Instead of comfort and justice There’s is an ancient epidemic And It’s no longer acceptable to maintain it secret

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Mar 20, 2021

Mar 20, 2021 at 5:25 PM UTC

Friendwithherpen

Epidemic

There’s a virus that has been spreading rapidly It is not contagious but very deadly once contaminated The moment you realize that when affiliated by it you become another statistic Another victim and you are just that one out many you battle it alone because it is an affliction that cannot be cured so you learn to live with it It eats up from inside out and no one really understands How you feel There’s an ancient epidemic One of the many symptoms are shame.silence and guilt You fight it alone because it’s has become so normalize in our society You do not fight at all because you know there’s nothing to fight for You become numb and detach yourself Becoming shallow to reality To your reality Dreaming of alternate universe Wishing for Days that differ from your current Existence and You wish to perish from the face of the earth There’s an epidemic It has been use as a weapon in war and love and it has spread wide and far It has always been someone’s reality And the people respond As they have always done well with Shame Blame Questions Pointing fingers Instead of comfort and justice There’s is an ancient epidemic And It’s no longer acceptable to maintain it secret

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Skipping town And jazzing blues Finding summer Blissful nights and palpable vibes Flying blues catching fever Tumbling magic and smiling moon A night of memory A time of wonders What a lovely way to fly

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Mar 2, 2021

Mar 2, 2021 at 3:41 AM UTC

Friendwithherpen

Last one

Skipping town And jazzing blues Finding summer Blissful nights and palpable vibes Flying blues catching fever Tumbling magic and smiling moon A night of memory A time of wonders What a lovely way to fly

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I know I ain’t the prettiest girl on the block I ain’t the smartest nor the sexist But I stand out I know I’m unique and kind I guess that don’t matter to you huh Shiiit, it all good I ain’t mad at you

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Feb 23, 2021

Feb 23, 2021 at 3:15 AM UTC

Friendwithherpen

Untitled

I know I ain’t the prettiest girl on the block I ain’t the smartest nor the sexist But I stand out I know I’m unique and kind I guess that don’t matter to you huh Shiiit, it all good I ain’t mad at you

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I ******* hate you like I really hate you I’m here thinking about you writing about you dreaming about you talking about you thinking about you and you don’t even know I exist you don’t even know my name you don’t even know how your silence makes me feel but that doesn’t even matter because you don’t know that I exist and I hate you so much for that I hate you because I hate that I feel this strongly about you I hate you because I can’t help myself feeling the way I feel about you So yeah I hate you I ******* hate you and if I could rewind back time Then I wish that I had never met you but you know what’s the saddest thing about all this is that I am actually glad that I met you because you made me feel things that I never thought I would feel for anyone so for that thank you but nevertheless **** you

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Feb 2, 2021

Feb 2, 2021 at 1:35 AM UTC

Friendwithherpen

I hate you

I ******* hate you like I really hate you I’m here thinking about you writing about you dreaming about you talking about you thinking about you and you don’t even know I exist you don’t even know my name you don’t even know how your silence makes me feel but that doesn’t even matter because you don’t know that I exist and I hate you so much for that I hate you because I hate that I feel this strongly about you I hate you because I can’t help myself feeling the way I feel about you So yeah I hate you I ******* hate you and if I could rewind back time Then I wish that I had never met you but you know what’s the saddest thing about all this is that I am actually glad that I met you because you made me feel things that I never thought I would feel for anyone so for that thank you but nevertheless **** you

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I like you No like I really like you like you I mean you’re the one I like The one that I really want But I guess that’s simply not enough I like you but not enough You like me but won’t admit it So it’s just not enough the like alone is not enough

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Jan 27, 2021

Jan 27, 2021 at 5:29 AM UTC

Friendwithherpen

Not enough

I like you No like I really like you like you I mean you’re the one I like The one that I really want But I guess that’s simply not enough I like you but not enough You like me but won’t admit it So it’s just not enough the like alone is not enough

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For me today was supposed to be like Any other day Friday the 13th Perhaps payday Last two classes then Begins the weekends Today is just any other day Traffic Cold weather In the wind city and then I remembered you How can I have forgotten about you Forgotten that it’s your birthday Today is not like every other day Today is your day And how could I forget that The 13th that marks the celebration of your life And I every year treated it like a national holiday but today felt different.

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Nov 13, 2020

Nov 13, 2020 at 9:55 AM UTC

Friendwithherpen

The 13th

For me today was supposed to be like Any other day Friday the 13th Perhaps payday Last two classes then Begins the weekends Today is just any other day Traffic Cold weather In the wind city and then I remembered you How can I have forgotten about you Forgotten that it’s your birthday Today is not like every other day Today is your day And how could I forget that The 13th that marks the celebration of your life And I every year treated it like a national holiday but today felt different.

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I see you when you don’t see me I cheer for you when you don’t know I’m there I crush on you when you don’t even notice me I guess you can say that I am just stupid Or that rejection suits me well But the thing is I can’t just put my heart on an airplane mode I can’t pretend that my feelings weren’t real Trust me when I say this I’d give anything to erase this hopeless feelings I have developed for you Know that it wouldn’t be out of spit but out of respect for myself.

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Oct 5, 2020

Oct 5, 2020 at 10:32 AM UTC

Friendwithherpen

Just you

I see you when you don’t see me I cheer for you when you don’t know I’m there I crush on you when you don’t even notice me I guess you can say that I am just stupid Or that rejection suits me well But the thing is I can’t just put my heart on an airplane mode I can’t pretend that my feelings weren’t real Trust me when I say this I’d give anything to erase this hopeless feelings I have developed for you Know that it wouldn’t be out of spit but out of respect for myself.

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Have you ever seen a bird trapped in a nest of yards? It feet’s tangled up with threads Lot and lot of them Then the bird tries to walk when it can fly The bird struggles to walk forgetting that it has wings You see this bird lost and you want to free this bird But it runs from you because it doesn’t trust you I mean, why would it? You may wonder how the bird got trapped in the first place Has it forgotten how to fly? Why walk like a chicken when it can fly. When it can see everything from above. Why not slip away and move on?

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Jun 11, 2020

Jun 11, 2020 at 10:14 PM UTC

Friendwithherpen

A dream

Have you ever seen a bird trapped in a nest of yards? It feet’s tangled up with threads Lot and lot of them Then the bird tries to walk when it can fly The bird struggles to walk forgetting that it has wings You see this bird lost and you want to free this bird But it runs from you because it doesn’t trust you I mean, why would it? You may wonder how the bird got trapped in the first place Has it forgotten how to fly? Why walk like a chicken when it can fly. When it can see everything from above. Why not slip away and move on?

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