I’m scared to give you my heart,
To let the walls come down.
Afraid everything will crumble beneath me,
And I’ll be left for dead.
Forced to drag myself back
Through broken glass,
Bleeding from wounds
Cut deep into my heart.
I know I can survive,
Bring myself out of the dark.
But I don’t want to.
I’ve done it so many times—
Wanting to be loved,
Only to become an afterthought.
And that’s why
I’m terrified to let you in.
1h ago
Jun 3, 2026 at 11:19 PM UTC
I’m going through the house
Pulling your stuff into piles
Realizing how little you had
And how much space you took up
So much weight left behind
for someone so empty
I let you take over everything
It all revolved around you
If you didn’t like it, it had to go
But if I like it, it didn’t matter
You took pieces of me
That I’ll never get back
And gave them away
To people who wanted more
Now the house feels empty
And for the first time
I don’t feel empty
May 18
May 18, 2026 at 9:25 PM UTC
I don’t have to bury myself anymore
To fill the room with someone else
To wait around
Only to ask for permission to do
Something that I want to do
I can break these walls down
And decorate how I want
I can rebuild
What was once destroyed
I can keep moving forward
Instead of sitting in place
It will take time though
This I am aware of
Because if I want to
Acquire what I desire
I must take one step at a time
And rebuild from the ground up
Build a castle
And protect what is mine
May 15
May 15, 2026 at 11:55 AM UTC
“You’re Mine”
That’s what you said
As you forced me to look at you
Fear
That’s what I felt
How do I move on from that
I told you that you couldn’t control me
And it was like you got more upset
You said you knew you couldn’t
But your eyes said you wanted to
You kept saying you knew you hurt me
And I said everything just keeps piling up
I’m overwhelmed
I keep telling you this
I say I need help
And you lay down
Calling me a narcissist
When all I wanted was to be loved
That’s all I’ve wanted
To be loved
May 9
May 9, 2026 at 11:41 PM UTC
You came here
Shattered my mind
Broke up my barrier
And forcefully tore my walls down
Saying how sorry you were
Kissing my face over and over
While I froze in shock
You weren’t supposed to be here
I told you not to come
That I wanted to think
To build a plan
You just showed up
No warning
Like I was just going to give in
You acted like I was the problem
Saying I don’t know what you think about
And you don’t know what I think about
Said you’ve been thinking about the good times
And how we needed to think about the kids
In my head I was shouting “I am”
That’s why I needed to think
You acting like I don’t care about them
When they’re all I’m thinking about
How I’ve put them through all this
How hurt they are that you’re gone
They ask about you too
And every time I feel like breaking down
Until I remember
Everything you’ve done
and that I can’t break, because of them
I’m trying to build a new life
Breaking generational cycles
May 6
May 6, 2026 at 11:19 PM UTC
You won’t even look my way
And somehow that still hurts
I thought I’d be over it
Over you
But I can’t wrap my head around why
Why you did the things you did
Why you left
When all I asked for
Was help
Now I’m stuck carrying everything
While you just get to be
I’m fighting for air
In a room that keeps shrinking
Walls pressing closer
Every time I try to speak
I just wanted to talk
To figure it out
But you decided for me
That we were done
May 6
May 6, 2026 at 11:09 AM UTC
You’re gone now
And somehow
The air is lighter
But the tears still linger—
never falling out
I thought for sure
you’d beg to stay
Instead you just stood there,
a sad puppy dog
I slowed down
And now I sit
with my thoughts
in the dark
May 4
May 4, 2026 at 12:18 AM UTC
No I’m not fine
Just want to get away
I could really use some wine
But sober is the way I stay
I lay listening to music I hate
For no other reason
Than to try to find my fate
While I watch angels fall season after season
Yet I want to get up there
Not scared to crash down anymore
Because not many do care
Maybe I should just close the door
To my heart and mind
Nobody would try to come find me
Since there’s not much to find
May 3
May 3, 2026 at 1:56 PM UTC
You’ve been asking me questions
Things I just don’t understand
Pretending it feels like, checking in
You’ve never done it before so why now
Why do you pretend to act like you care
When you really don’t
At least that’s what I keep thinking
Because when I tell you something
You just say “okay”
I say I’m feeling down
And your reply is just “ok”
You never checked in before
Just went on about your day
Now I’m saying I’m done
Done choosing you over me
And suddenly
You seem to “care”
It doesn’t feel real
Your energy is still suffocating
Feels like I’m being pressed down
Holding me down
Face squashed into the floor
May 3
May 3, 2026 at 11:45 AM UTC
You haven’t talked
Said a single word
I’ve been gone the whole day
So what’s even the point
Just thinking brings me to tears
Don’t wanna go home
To the energy you carry with you
I feel so ******* empty
My head is killing me
On edge
This anxiety suffocating
Having to disassociate
Just to not think
Of how much pain I’m in
Brain keeps going empty
Every time I try to think
Of what to say to you
Apr 30
Apr 30, 2026 at 9:33 PM UTC