Sometimes I pretend
that my anxiety is a little mean man on my shoulder
Sometimes when he talks
I try to tune him out by thinking of my threes
three things I can hear
three things I can see
three things I can touch
Sometimes it works
but when it doesn't
the little mean man destroys me
Feb 28, 2019
Feb 28, 2019 at 9:23 AM UTC
I drew a picture of you
I painted blue.
It had two faces
The first was filled with grace
The second with disgrace
A mouth filled with lies
Fear in your eyes
A brain thinking it was wise but really full of why's
Anything that goes through your ears disappears
A heart with the wrong kind cheers when it should be filled with tears.
I drew a picture a of you
I thought I drew it well too.
Feb 28, 2019
Feb 28, 2019 at 9:19 AM UTC
hello,
have you been
well?
i guess not,
for your attention
in my poem
could tell
sorry if this nurse
took so long
in finding
the perfect words
to cure
your soul
first,
strip your clothes
and
stand at the mirror
gaze at the
creature with
the foggy figure
there's
a sinkhole
in those eyes
and a temporary
stitch whenever
you would
smile
the collarbone
which hides,
suffocates from the
blanket of skin
with
sickening lies
it penetrated
and
corrupted your mind
ignored the
fact and just
romanticized
the beast
will **** you,
please
don't find
it ****
the chaos is screaming
later on
you'll be
empty
i know how
a reflection
cries
you lost yourself
you lost you
it's like
having a stray cat
beneath your
tissues
a wandering stranger
sails from
the memories
of truth
overflowing blood
choaked
your dilemmas
too
it mimicked the
fire of hell
in those
shoes
the greatest harm
you'll ever
cause you
but why a
nurse
and not a
doctor?
listen here,
you are your
fighter
the cure and the pain,
which decision
will define?
all i can
say is,
save yourself
from death,
because
it hasn't
deseved you yet
go ahead
and fight your
way to life
Feb 19, 2019
Feb 19, 2019 at 10:03 AM UTC
They said,
"*The most beautiful art is
looking into someone's eyes
when they talk about the
things they love.*"
And I said,
"Or looking at someone you love.
Or maybe, just maybe,
by looking at the mirror
is the most beautiful art
anyone should appreciate."
Feb 19, 2019
Feb 19, 2019 at 9:59 AM UTC
Will you wait for me?
As I stand on the edge of sand
with water caressing between my toes
Back and forth, back and forth
There is a lull in the wind
Everything stops,
My thoughts don’t exist, no reality
Back and forth, back and forth
comes again
I look up at the sun
I am not the light of the world
But you shine on me.
Will you wait for me?
Feb 19, 2019
Feb 19, 2019 at 9:55 AM UTC
Woe is me,
I see Grammy getting older as she sleeps all day.
My mom stressed more than ever because she works all day.
Daddy is getting out prison in a few days.
My uncle letting me see my baby cousin again so we play.
But even that doesn't brush the pain away.
Because I still have pain from the last time.
It’s always going to be there for the rest of my lifetime.
I guess I can but it aside in meantime.
So maybe it should be woe betide you.
Because we both know that's true.
Feb 19, 2019
Feb 19, 2019 at 9:51 AM UTC
Why do I have to go through this?
Why can't my life just be full of bliss?
These questions go through my head everyday.
I just want to break away,
Break away from my life,
I'm sick of being the one who always has to pay the price.
Right now I don't even if I'm a person because I feel more like a toxin, A killer, A mistake ... All I do ache.
So just in case I get hurt again maybe I just should become plastic fake.
Feb 19, 2019
Feb 19, 2019 at 9:48 AM UTC
I hate you.
It's those 3 words always in my mind,
Words not known for being very kind.
But I can't help it! I'm so easily annoyed... Like when my Internet doesn't work on my stupid android.
I just don't understand people, I mean we're so evil.
But only if I knew what it is about you, what makes me want to scream ***** you!
It could be the way you walk or the words that come out when you talk.
Maybe your style or your creepy,
I don't know, but I can say this...
I hate you.
Feb 19, 2019
Feb 19, 2019 at 9:44 AM UTC
I once had a twisted spine,
But my curved back is now aligned.
With bolted screws and titanium rods,
I was lucky enough to beat the odds.
I went through not 1, but 2 surgeries.
At the best hospital in the world Children's Mercy.
I couldn't have imagined what I would have done,
If I didn't go to your hospital which I say is #1.
For what they do for kids like me,
Who have a curve of 44 degrees.
Thank you,
because my back wouldn't even have 1 *****
They told me your a survivor Ms. Zaiser.
I said I wouldn't have been if it wasn't for people like you doing things that most people wouldn't even do out of the blue.
Words can't describe how lucky am I
Even though the pain was so bad I had tears in my eyes as I cried.
Asking why can't I just say goodbye and die!
But on June 9th, 2013 is when my recovery was finally over,
I knew I would never again have uneven shoulders.
Feb 19, 2019
Feb 19, 2019 at 9:43 AM UTC