Day by day the rules has changed..
When the words false it's mean nothing..
The mission always same..
But the ways are different..
This is not mission impossible..
This is mission unpredictable..
How could the mission changes the rules..
Everyone didn't understand..
The way we look are different..
We have our eyes to be understood..
We have glasses to fill it full..
We have our opinion..
The mission didn't change..
But our mind are changes..
Let happens will be happened..
With all the happiness in the past..
With all the sorrow in the present..
With all the kindness in the future..
We are didn't change..
Our minds take the control..
The way we look..
The way we see..
The way we think..
The way we feel..
Hope everything gonna be alright in the end..
Mar 13, 2020
Mar 13, 2020 at 10:46 PM UTC
They love with passion..
They love just by seeing it..
They feel grateful only by seeing it..
They like to talk about everything the love one do..
There is no desire to touch it..
There is no desire to have it..
They only watched when the love one was having a hard time..
They are pray from them..
They criticize what it does..
They love it..
Feb 16, 2020
Feb 16, 2020 at 2:51 AM UTC
He doesn't love me..
I beg every time..
He never come..
He doesn't love me..
I need him right now..
He never come..
He doesn't love me..
Someone come to me..
He is not angry..
He doesn't love me..
I trying everything..
He just watching..
He doesn't love me..
I lose of hope..
He do nothing..
He doesn't love me..
He doesn't love me..
He doesn't love me..
I deserve to love..
I can find my love..
I will find my love..
Until someone give me his love..
I deserve it..
I deserve that..
I deserve to love..
I deserve to get love from someone..
The real love..
Feb 1, 2020
Feb 1, 2020 at 1:25 AM UTC
Not easy become independent woman..
You will handle all of problem..
Going to some where alone..
Even though for medicine..
But you can do whatever want to do..
You can going every where you want to go..
You can take all the things with responsibility..
Sometimes enjoying staycation..
Sometimes going around the world..
Sometimes eating so much..
Sometimes playing around with car..
Sometimes having fun with no limit..
But
Sometimes you must handle big problem by yourself..
Sometimes you need to go to medicine alone..
Sometimes you need driving alone even though you are ill..
Sometimes you are crying alone..
This is the taste of being independent woman..
Jan 17, 2020
Jan 17, 2020 at 9:22 AM UTC
...
It's pain enough..
Hopefully I still control my pain limit..
So it's not pain enough..
...
The pain will be felt if we feel it..
So forget the pain..
...
Jan 16, 2020
Jan 16, 2020 at 4:52 PM UTC
I know that I am alone..
You know that I am alone..
That's why I need you to be here..
Hold my hand and lend me your back..
It's enough..
I need to be calm and not have a lot of thoughts..
or it will get worse..
Until the day that I really need someone beside me..
That day I will not allow anyone to accompany me except you..
You are really mean, if you not come..
Jan 16, 2020
Jan 16, 2020 at 2:42 PM UTC
I don't know what is the meaning of no more time in my dream..
I just realized this morning..
I must be strong like before..
I am alone, so I need to cheer me up by my self..
I am alone, so I need keep my own spirit..
I am alone, so I need to be strong..
I am alone, so I need keep my mind always positive thinking.
I just realized..
Maybe if this is my destiny..
Maybe if he said yes on the first meet, he can own me..
I just realized..
I can no longer waiting for empty room..
I need to take care of my mind..
I need to take care of my heart..
I need to take care of my body..
I need to take care everything by my self..
But if he said yes and want take the responsibility, maybe he can own me..
He must understand what kind of effort to protect me..
If he said yes on the first meet..
Maybe I must leave all my things before..
If he said yes on the first meet..
Maybe I must give up all my dreams before..
If he said yes on the first meet..
Maybe I must change my passion..
If he said yes on the first meet..
Maybe he can own me..
Even though I will hurt my self..
I don't care anymore..
I am tired....
You also don't care about me..
Jan 15, 2020
Jan 15, 2020 at 8:42 PM UTC
He said about love..
He know his woman getting sick..
But he didn't come to accompany her for treatment..
He said about love..
He let his woman sleep on the road..
But he didn't come to protect her..
He said about love..
He let his woman begging to other man..
But he didn't come to help her..
He said about love..
He let his woman crying every night..
But he didn't come to cheer her up..
He said about love..
He let his woman worrying everyday..
But he didn't come to let her know..
That he love her..
Or.......
Maybe he actually doesn't love...
Jan 15, 2020
Jan 15, 2020 at 8:39 AM UTC
Day by day I feel something weird..
Actually it's time to go..
But I won't do that..
I won't being alone in that place..
Very noisy and lots of questions..
I won't hear that word..
Maybe I have too many things on my mind..
My past and my future..
Complicated..
Honestly, I want going there..
But I won't going there by myself..
I need someone beside me..
Hold my hand and lend his back..
Jan 14, 2020
Jan 14, 2020 at 9:44 AM UTC
This morning I have no idea..
I don't know what kind of word that I want to write..
I don't have an inspiration..
I just know, that I want you to come..
Right here..
Right now..
Enough..
Jan 13, 2020
Jan 13, 2020 at 6:30 PM UTC