How could I Let go
When If I take
a step I will leave
My prints behind
And you will follow me,
You will follow me until
I stumble and fall
And crack my head open
The blood slowly flowing
Out of my body
As I try to fight you
Punch you in the groin
Make you leave me alone
How could I stop
To smell the flowers
When if I wonder
You take me by surprise
Grabbing me by the neck
As I gasp for air
And I see nothing but darkness
Nothing but the things I
Did not do
Did not remember
Did not achieve
How could I get rest
When if I dream
You take advantage of me
And paint the thoughts
And images in my head
Black, black as a crow
And it exhausts me a big deal
And as I try to wake up
You shut my eyelids,
Pin me down
And make me watch.
Jan 18, 2021
Jan 18, 2021 at 3:03 PM UTC
A cup of coffee so hot it
burns my tongue.
I like it, gives a kick
An opened book on Freud
laid out on the table so I’d seem
More cultured, educated
A joint in my hand as
I inhale the smoke with
the petrichor sneaking in from outside
A sense of calmness in this
chaotic world
somehow soothes me
Jan 18, 2021
Jan 18, 2021 at 3:02 PM UTC
A big house
is a lovely house,
a rich house,
a warm house.
A beautiful woman
is a cherished woman,
a clean woman,
a noble woman.
Both radiate:
her skin glows,
its columns shine
and the windows, oh so clean.
Try and look inside
you can't
Can you?
take a peek.
As though its windows are clean
and her smile is inviting,
you can only gaze at the exterior
for when you get through the gate, the skin
The interior
is not
so
glamorous.
Jan 14, 2021
Jan 14, 2021 at 7:33 AM UTC
A confetti
Ones may say
Even when the sun is down
She can light up the day
Clear like water
Beautiful like the sky
living in utter
Dreamlike delight
Yet when reality comes
Dark clouds creep in
And weakness in her bones
Wind blows
Confetti goes
And emptiness comes to life
And, somehow
That loved and loving girl
Can love anyone but
Herself
Aug 16, 2020
Aug 16, 2020 at 4:41 PM UTC
To The smell
To The drill
To The simplicity
I adapt
Quickly, No thought
It Fills up my veins
With warmth
State of longing
But For what?
For Those few seconds
Of difference, change
The Crisp wiff of air
And Clean, white sheets
Strange, but oddly comforting
Aug 2, 2020
Aug 2, 2020 at 5:45 PM UTC
I gave All of my vulnerability away
For you, to you
Exposed the dirt of my soul
Not understood.
Kept on
Waiting for hope,
in despair.
Apr 23, 2020
Apr 23, 2020 at 7:05 AM UTC
Seated in a car with the windows slightly down
my father was hidden behind a mask, you could hardly see his face
we drove past the bright rapeseed fields
and I smiled as the smell of cows gently carresed my skin
like it always used to, spring evening
Sweet despair was in the air
came as quickly as the sun set down
will fade away when the first rays hit
but far away will still be felt
like it always does, spring evening
Years go by and my mind gets tired
life did look different those 10 years back but my dads voice sounded the same
as today, a warmth of the fireplace
like I used to feel, spring evening
Seems like a good time, to cease it
make it a happy ending, peaceful sky
could never feel this close to being a child, a child again
like I never thought I could, spring evening
Apr 21, 2020
Apr 21, 2020 at 4:41 AM UTC
I held my breath
for a second, The clouds stoppedrunning as if there was a small hole in time, Just for me to rest my
mind, Just for Me to stop The pulse,
Just for Me to
feel alive
The grass turned greener and
Prettier, so much prettier
Like that lawn where she
lives , with her dog running
around in circles
and when I was holding
my breath, I saw it all
Like it was an ending of a movie
Those exhilarating several minutes Where
You can’t even blink
Yet I did, close my eyes
And when I opened them I saw
The sky , it’s depth and width
With the clouds rushing somewhere again
Jan 29, 2020
Jan 29, 2020 at 5:46 PM UTC
I held my breath
for a second, The clouds stopped
running as if there was a small hole in time, Just for me to rest my
mind, Just for Me to stop The pulse,
Just for Me to
feel alive
Jan 20, 2020
Jan 20, 2020 at 6:03 PM UTC
It struck me like lightning
Dangerously hard and out of nowhere
As though I felt it in the air
Yet didn't want to realise how
I'm burning inside and out
Yes, you set me on fire
Made my ice cap melt so fast
I'm drowning
How is it possible that
with one stare I'm in flames
and no fire extinguisher shall help me?
And so here I stand
a tree
burning from the inside
out of love from you
Dec 10, 2019
Dec 10, 2019 at 4:37 AM UTC