I know it’s been a few years, 2 years and 6 months to be exact,
and I still miss you.
I think about you every other day.
If not, every day at least for a few seconds…
I still can’t believe we’re not together.
I know I’m to blame.
Even after I broke up with you,
you still made sure that I was okay.
That’s the type of person you are, genuine and caring.
I still think about how stupid I was to let you go.
You were the world to me and I was too dumb and young to see it.
Not to sound too cliche, but you were the one that got away.
I’ll never find anyone to replace you, and I don’t say that to sound dramatic or anything , but simply because your kind is a dying breed.
Sometimes I just sit and reminisce in our little arguments about who loved who more.
And I guess in the end we got our answer.
I reminisce in our drawing game battles and our movie dates.
I miss those.
Maybe I sound crazy, but I swear sometimes I can still hear your smile when you talk and your contagious laugh.
Sometimes I day dream and see you smiling right back at me.
Like you see me too.
I wonder if you ever think about me as much as I think about you.
I know it’s been over two years, but I still can’t get over you..
Aug 21, 2022
Aug 21, 2022 at 2:21 AM UTC
I never wanted to hurt her.
I knew I was her world,
But she deserves the universe.
And I hope somewhere out there
There’s one where I love her back.
Jul 23, 2022
Jul 23, 2022 at 12:25 AM UTC
I was never able to love her the way she wanted to be loved.
She’d look at me with those beautiful doe eyes and I’d just die inside because I knew I could never give her the slightest bit of love she embodied.
She deserves so much more than I can give her.
I only hope that one day someone will love her far beyond I ever could.
Jul 21, 2022
Jul 21, 2022 at 6:29 PM UTC
When I sit and think about you,
I have to face the harsh reality
that I’m grieving a person that doesn’t exist anymore…
This version of you isn’t in love with me.
You probably don’t think about me as much as I do of you.
I wonder if you ever sit and fantasize of what could be or if you’ve forgotten all about me.
I hope somewhere deep down you wish that your “one” could of been me, because god do I wish mine was you.
Jul 12, 2022
Jul 12, 2022 at 1:15 AM UTC
I never fully understood what it felt like to love someone who isn’t yours to love.
To miss someone who isn’t mine to miss.
To dream about someone who isn’t mine to dream about.
I sit here fantasizing about the future we could have
When you’re already committed to another one.
I drown out the judgement and the probable rejection
As I blindly love someone who probably doesn’t love me back.
Mar 12, 2022
Mar 12, 2022 at 6:38 PM UTC
Dimly, from a nearly forgotten perception as blurred as the substance itself,
Heartbreak.
His bare chest,
Freezing.
Her lips,
Numb.
The silence tied around them both…
Dec 17, 2021
Dec 17, 2021 at 11:42 PM UTC
I thought I loved you,
But I think I just loved the way you loved me...
Jun 2, 2021
Jun 2, 2021 at 11:09 PM UTC
Do you ever wanna lay there
Doing nothing
Not eating
Or drinking
Just lay there
Feeling your lungs slowly respirising
Your stomach beginning to grow hungry
Your lips starting to dehydrate
And your brain slowly stopping
You're just there
As your lungs begin to slowly start collapsing
Your stomach ***** and shriveled up
Your lips dry and thirsty
Your brain empty
There you are
Looking pale
Silently laying there
Not a word
Not a sound
There's nothing to interrupt your peace
To interrupt the silence
There's nothing at all
You're just laying there as your body slowly rots from the inside out
You're there
Gone
Nothing left but the stench of your absence
One fly, two fly, five
They're slowly attracted to beauty in your flesh
How does it feel wherever you are?
Are you in heaven or hell or is there nothing at all?
Is there beauty in the silence of it all?
I feel it
The desire to do nothing
To just lay there in the silence of your mind
To slowly disintegrate into the beauty you left behind
within the love you had poured out into the plants you used to water
I want to feel that peace in your soul without the stench
Without the bitterness and pain you left behind
I want to drown in the feeling of feeling nothing
Aug 23, 2020
Aug 23, 2020 at 12:32 PM UTC
I see the way you look at her.
The way she makes you smile.
It's all too good to watch it grow into something beautiful;
Something worth pursuing.
Am I a horrible person to wanna watch it crash and burn?
To see it rot from the inside out?
I never thought I could hate someone,
especially when I know nothing about them.
She seems sweet,
but I don't care.
I wish you never met her or that I never found out about her.
I'd rather be blinded by love than forced to watch my heart break.
Aug 15, 2020
Aug 15, 2020 at 10:34 PM UTC
You never said
"I don't love you anymore"-
You just decided to walk away
When it came to me or her
You chose her
You decided I wasn't good enough anymore
You came to the conclusion
That I just wasn't worth the fight
That I was no longer worth loving...
And in that moment
I believed I wasn't good enough
That I was no longer worth fighting for
I decided I didn't love me anymore either
Jul 27, 2020
Jul 27, 2020 at 2:27 AM UTC