Effaced - Hello Poetry

all i wanna ******* do is cry and scream and hurt myself everyone else i want to be ******* okay.

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Apr 26, 2016

Apr 26, 2016 at 7:21 PM UTC

all i wanna ******* do is cry and scream and hurt myself everyone else i want to be ******* okay.

im worse than before. at this point i dont even talk about it anymore. i have a feeling that ill get so bad that ill finally have the guts to end it all. i talked to two adults who were supposed to be able to help me, all they did was make excuses for him. oh well, not like i expected them to really be able to help. now i can say i reached out... now its definitely their fault, they cant say i was selfish and didnt reach out.

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Apr 20, 2016

Apr 20, 2016 at 5:02 PM UTC

Untitled

im worse than before. at this point i dont even talk about it anymore. i have a feeling that ill get so bad that ill finally have the guts to end it all. i talked to two adults who were supposed to be able to help me, all they did was make excuses for him. oh well, not like i expected them to really be able to help. now i can say i reached out... now its definitely their fault, they cant say i was selfish and didnt reach out.

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ill never be the same. im ruined. im not nice, or pretty, or considerate. i do not love my father nor my step mother. i am not and never will be bubbly and i will never be someone that everyone wants to be around. i am not and never will be special, or worthy of love. i will never love wholeheartedly again. and no one will ever love me.

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Apr 17, 2016

Apr 17, 2016 at 8:23 PM UTC

never

ill never be the same. im ruined. im not nice, or pretty, or considerate. i do not love my father nor my step mother. i am not and never will be bubbly and i will never be someone that everyone wants to be around. i am not and never will be special, or worthy of love. i will never love wholeheartedly again. and no one will ever love me.

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i don't get to live life right now. right now i have to keep all emotions in the back of my mind right now i don't get to kiss the girl i want to kiss right now i don't get to love who i want to love right now i don't get to freely express myself right now, even though i live in America i don't live in the land of the free. i live in a house full of judgmental Christians i live in a house that is most definitely not my home i live in a house that makes me not want to live at all

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Apr 14, 2016

Apr 14, 2016 at 4:35 PM UTC

Untitled

i don't get to live life right now. right now i have to keep all emotions in the back of my mind right now i don't get to kiss the girl i want to kiss right now i don't get to love who i want to love right now i don't get to freely express myself right now, even though i live in America i don't live in the land of the free. i live in a house full of judgmental Christians i live in a house that is most definitely not my home i live in a house that makes me not want to live at all

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i keep my head down and my mouth shut and when some looks my way, i smile, wave, walk like i have life and act loud and happy

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Apr 13, 2016

Apr 13, 2016 at 7:37 PM UTC

Untitled

i keep my head down and my mouth shut and when some looks my way, i smile, wave, walk like i have life and act loud and happy

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there was a mother somewhere today who held her child for the very first time there was a mother somewhere today who gave birth to a stillborn child there was a mother somewhere today who made the hard decision of abortion there was a mother somewhere today who was allowed to use a stethoscope to listen to her childs last heartbeats as the doctors unplugged him there was a mother somewhere today whos child came out to them there was a mother somewhere today

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Apr 7, 2016

Apr 7, 2016 at 4:48 PM UTC

there was a mother somewhere today

there was a mother somewhere today who held her child for the very first time there was a mother somewhere today who gave birth to a stillborn child there was a mother somewhere today who made the hard decision of abortion there was a mother somewhere today who was allowed to use a stethoscope to listen to her childs last heartbeats as the doctors unplugged him there was a mother somewhere today whos child came out to them there was a mother somewhere today

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ready to do it, very worried about granddaddy and my baby girl

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Mar 7, 2016

Mar 7, 2016 at 5:02 PM UTC

Untitled

ready to do it, very worried about granddaddy and my baby girl

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"You didn't love her! You just didn't want to be alone. Or maybe, maybe she was good for your ego. Or, or maybe she made you feel better about your miserable life, but you didn't love her, because you don't destroy the person that you love!" you never loved me.

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Mar 4, 2016

Mar 4, 2016 at 6:25 PM UTC

what greys anatomy taught me

"You didn't love her! You just didn't want to be alone. Or maybe, maybe she was good for your ego. Or, or maybe she made you feel better about your miserable life, but you didn't love her, because you don't destroy the person that you love!" you never loved me.

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im stuck. between hating you and hating myself for loving you. im stuck. between wanting to live and wanting to die. im stuck. between a family religion and my own identity. im stuck. someone, please, help me...

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Mar 4, 2016

Mar 4, 2016 at 6:20 PM UTC

Untitled

im stuck. between hating you and hating myself for loving you. im stuck. between wanting to live and wanting to die. im stuck. between a family religion and my own identity. im stuck. someone, please, help me...

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your name is everywhere and i ******* hate it. i hate you. i hate what you've done to me. you convinced me you loved me, and then you left. and i see you everywhere now, and every time i think of you, suicide comes into mind. are you proud of what you've done?

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Mar 3, 2016

Mar 3, 2016 at 9:54 AM UTC

**** you

your name is everywhere and i ******* hate it. i hate you. i hate what you've done to me. you convinced me you loved me, and then you left. and i see you everywhere now, and every time i think of you, suicide comes into mind. are you proud of what you've done?

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