I always feel sentimental when it rains,
So, on sad days like this I leave the house without an umbrella.
With my headphones in,
listening to our favourite songs,
I walk past your old house.
Or the cheap restaurant we always went to.
Just so I can let my heart feel close to you again.
I must be so pathetic.
but when the rain stops
You will exist only as another memory.
So, I embrace the droplets on my skin,
Even if I do catch a cold.
On sad days like this I cannot help but wonder
if it’s raining where you are,
if you think of me.
So, until the next time it rains, we walk our own paths.
Dec 1, 2018
Dec 1, 2018 at 10:22 AM UTC
like water
I poured myself into her until she was overflowing at the brim
like reinforced steel
I bridged my heart to hers and welded myself to her soul
like the sun
I filled myself with light to cover her darkness
like a blanket
I shielded her from the harsh world underneath the covers
like magnets
I orbited her aura until we inevitably collided
like a seed
I felt myself growing up from her
Then, like an idiot
I could tell she felt nothing.
Nov 27, 2018
Nov 27, 2018 at 3:12 PM UTC
It wasn’t supposed to be like this
Never had I imagined this
After I first saw you
Sitting in the corner of the coffee shop
Sipping tea with a hint of hazel
Matching the light in your eyes
I used to love that coffee shop
One we went back to many times
At least at first
You would order the same tea
With the same hint of hazel
And I would adore your acute audacity
Ordering tea in a coffee shop
I had friends who told me many things
They hadn’t been afraid to see the truth
Telling me we were moving too fast
Not really understanding where we were
But instead taking the present to define everything
Perhaps I should’ve listened
I had thought you were what they describe as ‘The One’
But your brilliance in my life
Blinded me of many things I should’ve paid heed to
Placing me on the edge of your storm
Instead of reaching the eye of it
As I should’ve
Maybe this is why the movies are fictional
They only exist in our lives until the end credits
Whereas I lived past them
And witnessed the reality
Beyond the list of directors, producers, and actors
Living in a cycle of after-credits
We went to that coffee shop one last time
And I looked
Looked for that same spark which I had latched on to
All those years back
But this time I truly saw you, past the light
This time you ordered coffee
Black, with no hint of hazel
Nov 24, 2018
Nov 24, 2018 at 10:50 AM UTC
I love the rain
you know that
it's about to pour down will you think of me?
When the smell of rain hits your nose,
will you remember that
that is my favorite smell?
When your shoe hits puddles
will you see my face in the reflection of the water?
I hope you think of me
Aug 23, 2018
Aug 23, 2018 at 5:52 PM UTC
I often wondered why people do drugs
To not feel?
But not feeling is the hardest thing to feel
Aug 10, 2018
Aug 10, 2018 at 5:12 PM UTC
I’m waiting for you to respond
And I am not skilled at being patient
When you reply I want to give you the cold shoulder
I want you to know that I am upset
That your silence was felt
And how it was agony for me
Aug 8, 2018
Aug 8, 2018 at 8:20 PM UTC
My hand hurts.
My fingers are going numb.
I guess its time
time to let you go
But will you please
Please choose to stay
Aug 8, 2018
Aug 8, 2018 at 6:23 PM UTC