Dying_roses - Hello Poetry

I keep going just for my friends and my dad and grandma. It's getting harder so stay alive because i just want to cut my sides and swallow a bunch of pills and never wake up again, im not happy with myself. Please just let me end it why must life be so cruel to those who smile the brightest. I know that i haven't be a good daughter even though i want to be a boy. im just hoping to survive until saturday.

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May 22, 2019

May 22, 2019 at 10:42 PM UTC

Dying_roses

I keep going, even though i want to die

I keep going just for my friends and my dad and grandma. It's getting harder so stay alive because i just want to cut my sides and swallow a bunch of pills and never wake up again, im not happy with myself. Please just let me end it why must life be so cruel to those who smile the brightest. I know that i haven't be a good daughter even though i want to be a boy. im just hoping to survive until saturday.

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Sometimes my friends parents annoy me. Like how one of my friends dad is homophobic so I'm uncomfortable to be around him. Sometimes I think my own teachers are homophobic or trans-phobic. Even some of the students at my school are homophobic but I'm glad my parents and my friends are understanding and excepting of who I choose to be I used to be scared that my family would hate me for being transgender and homosexual.

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Mar 27, 2018

Mar 27, 2018 at 11:14 AM UTC

Dying_roses

Understanding

Sometimes my friends parents annoy me. Like how one of my friends dad is homophobic so I'm uncomfortable to be around him. Sometimes I think my own teachers are homophobic or trans-phobic. Even some of the students at my school are homophobic but I'm glad my parents and my friends are understanding and excepting of who I choose to be I used to be scared that my family would hate me for being transgender and homosexual.

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I feel invisible at school. I only feel visible at home. My family and friends see me only. I’m just very lonely in my head. I guess i’m just a divisible person.

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Jan 2, 2018

Jan 2, 2018 at 2:40 PM UTC

Dying_roses

Invisible

I feel invisible at school. I only feel visible at home. My family and friends see me only. I’m just very lonely in my head. I guess i’m just a divisible person.

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My emotions tend to set off a commotion in my house. My parents wonder if there is something wrong I tell them I remembered a sad song. My emotions are like a roller coaster in my life. My emotions cause me to always feel older than i actually am. My emotions cause me to lie awake at night I will then fight with myself. My emotions will send me into a panic so then i feel like a maniac.

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Jan 2, 2018

Jan 2, 2018 at 2:39 PM UTC

Dying_roses

Emotions

My emotions tend to set off a commotion in my house. My parents wonder if there is something wrong I tell them I remembered a sad song. My emotions are like a roller coaster in my life. My emotions cause me to always feel older than i actually am. My emotions cause me to lie awake at night I will then fight with myself. My emotions will send me into a panic so then i feel like a maniac.

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At night At home All alone when sound carries and words echo through walls tears are falling wrist are bleeding the feeling of loneliness is true reality is fleeting and what's left is pain Heart ache Sorrow Guilt Things you want pushed down They all erupt in a loud cry Sound rushes everywhere and the silence is broken. Silence is gone no longer a thing no longer of importance when your'e all alone and no one is home sounds echo through the house. ~ Jayde Flores

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Dec 8, 2017

Dec 8, 2017 at 11:58 AM UTC

Dying_roses

Sound echos.

At night At home All alone when sound carries and words echo through walls tears are falling wrist are bleeding the feeling of loneliness is true reality is fleeting and what's left is pain Heart ache Sorrow Guilt Things you want pushed down They all erupt in a loud cry Sound rushes everywhere and the silence is broken. Silence is gone no longer a thing no longer of importance when your'e all alone and no one is home sounds echo through the house. ~ Jayde Flores

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Nighttime is a fun time. I’m as quiet as a mime. It is fun because i can let my mind take flight. Nighttime is when i can let all of my worries go. Nighttime is where i go to escape all of my fears. Nighttime is where i let all of my tears flow down my face. Nighttime is when my mind fights for my sanity. Nighttime is where insanity runs in my dreams. Nighttime is where I think of cream colors. Nighttime is where if wake up screaming inside. Nighttime is when my sadness escapes. NIghttime is when I slip into madness. Nighttime is when feel like i’m older than i really am. Nighttime i when i’m an emotional roller coaster. Nighttime is when I think of my mistakes. Nighttime is when it takes me all my strength to stay happy.

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Oct 5, 2017

Oct 5, 2017 at 1:16 PM UTC

Dying_roses

Goodnight

Nighttime is a fun time. I’m as quiet as a mime. It is fun because i can let my mind take flight. Nighttime is when i can let all of my worries go. Nighttime is where i go to escape all of my fears. Nighttime is where i let all of my tears flow down my face. Nighttime is when my mind fights for my sanity. Nighttime is where insanity runs in my dreams. Nighttime is where I think of cream colors. Nighttime is where if wake up screaming inside. Nighttime is when my sadness escapes. NIghttime is when I slip into madness. Nighttime is when feel like i’m older than i really am. Nighttime i when i’m an emotional roller coaster. Nighttime is when I think of my mistakes. Nighttime is when it takes me all my strength to stay happy.

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All Of my Fears and Tears staining The ground beneath My feet. I stand with a A scarred mind you will find A scared little girl with a scarred Arm. So this is who people that really Know really see me. The days I live for Are just for my family and friends. For Them not to cry over me. I’m slowly Losing myself to my mind it’s Energy consuming For me.

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Oct 5, 2017

Oct 5, 2017 at 9:32 AM UTC

Dying_roses

Tears and fears

All Of my Fears and Tears staining The ground beneath My feet. I stand with a A scarred mind you will find A scared little girl with a scarred Arm. So this is who people that really Know really see me. The days I live for Are just for my family and friends. For Them not to cry over me. I’m slowly Losing myself to my mind it’s Energy consuming For me.

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