Take this mason jar and rose
Think about this instead of your foes
Remember now, it was not you he chose
Surprising, how your rants seem to flow
But there’s no point
Just watch the rose grow
Remember when you told me
even the darkest rose
can be found in heaven
Well, today I hold this rose
Just staring at each unique fold
Wondering if this is the day I
let it go
Instead I watch it grow.
Dec 7, 2020
Dec 7, 2020 at 5:29 AM UTC
I lost a friend
In the land of broken dreams
We can’t lie
And say we didn’t try
But today I stride in alone
To the land of the forgotten
Hoping to make it out alive
In one piece, to the other side
It may take an hour or year
but we have one last chance
To mend our souls
And lives
And our GCSEs
But if we fail
Then we failed together
We may not be friends
But we gave it ago
And I regret nothing
I had fun.
I enjoyed the hidden pain
All the laughs and jokes
And the nasty remarks.
We were different
And that’s what made it special
We were special
And no one can change that
Till next time,
Good bye my ‘good friend’
I’ll see you in English and science
And lunch and break.
Because we can’t be avoided.
Yesterday we stood together and
Today I stand alone
Onto my next journey
I turn back to the past before stepping to the future
While you watch me from the distance
Wondering where did it all go wrong,
Nov 22, 2020
Nov 22, 2020 at 2:47 PM UTC
I’m happy.
No one in my life
To destroy what I have built
I’m happy.
Living in the midst
Of a deadly pandemic
I’m happy,
knowing I’m no longer
with you
Sep 21, 2020
Sep 21, 2020 at 4:38 PM UTC
The first person to find out
The first person I was scared of
The first person I had ever loved
The first person to have ever
break my heart
Dear friend, my first true love,
You will always be in my heart.
I could never forget you. No matter how hard I tried.
Sep 6, 2020
Sep 6, 2020 at 8:00 PM UTC
The next few hours can determine
ones chance of survival.
Of stability in their lives as an adult.
Good luck in your GCSEs my dear friends! It’s not your fault exams got cancelled.
Aug 20, 2020
Aug 20, 2020 at 1:15 AM UTC
I never had an option
I let people do as they pleased,
acted as if nothing affects me
And it didn’t.
Nothing they could say could make me
Any sadder or depressed as I have been in the past.
This wasn’t the case for you.
After all this time of trying
so ******* hard to protect you
from the lies and abuse,
you do the same to me
when you know exactly how that felt.
It was draining you for months and months and months.
And then you go back to her
Saying that your friends again
“it wasn’t her fault, it was mine”
When will you understand that
repeating the phrase doesn’t make it true?
You’re tangling yourself in a web
It should never have been my job
To make sure you survive
But without me you were suffocating
And I had no choice
Now that I’m gone, who will save you
We all know it won’t be yourself
Aug 17, 2020
Aug 17, 2020 at 8:23 PM UTC
Slowly suffocating in ink
Thinking this will somehow make
living life any easier
Thinking and thinking
And eating and eating
Cake at 2 o’clock in the morning
Trying to forget
Cloud over my head
Pouring out blood,
sweat and tears
from the days of
Helping you survive
Head held up high
in desperation
Praying and praying
that I don’t drown
Slowly suffocating
And restricting any other love
for my mind, body and soul
Putting you first was the
Utmost worse decision I have
ever made in my life.
Because years later
I’m still drowning in my own sorrows
from back in those days
When I loved you.
Aug 16, 2020
Aug 16, 2020 at 6:37 PM UTC
But you control him
I watch and I stare and you continue
No matter how hard I tried
You always find a way to hurt the people I love and cherish the most
You preyed on the vulnerable
And didn’t think to stop.
You did say he was gullible
And so you dragged him around like a living puppet
You could feed him to lions
and he wouldn’t mind
But I do. Stop it.
Why do you feel the need
to use him?
Aug 10, 2020
Aug 10, 2020 at 7:49 AM UTC