it's your eyes
wider than a full moon
blown up big like a 90's cartoon
and the tears keep falling, falling
so much that i assume
in your body theres no room
thats why youre always bawling
Oct 26, 2023
Oct 26, 2023 at 2:02 PM UTC
ruby red lips like a renaissance girl
and tumbles of black, black curly hair
youre larger than life as i sit in my chair
and shrink under your devouring stare
You're my knight in shining armor
You're the beast I need to vanquish
[You're the source of my stress and all of my anguish]
the little princess you sought to ensnare
is a ruddy-faced ***** not a maiden fair
this pretense of intimacy and still im aware
who it is you're going home to.
Oct 2, 2023
Oct 2, 2023 at 2:05 PM UTC
i could cry an ocean’s worth of tears and collect them in a bowl
just to prove how deep my love would go
could reach deep into my throat and pull out my bleeding soul
my love
just name what i gotta do
to prove that ill be true
i think i could kiss you if i got high enough
and thats an issue, thats a danger to my self esteem
really, i insist you dont entertain me
i get so foolish when you let me daydream
[might just **** around and make a problem]
its anguish, the thought of ur hands at my throat
thoughts of you all seem so sweet
sitting beside you, our shoulders are brushing
sneaking glances i pray are discreet
[your lips, your hair, it all makes me stare]
you’re so pretty i think i could fall in love
and im so scared of what you think of me
that i cant meet your eyes, cant relax at all
cant stop chewing on my lips thinking what could be.
you make me want to lay my love in the sweaty palm of your hand
look what you've done to me *******
make me wanna bare it all because i know that you'd understand
my love
just name what i gotta do
to prove i could love you
Jul 25, 2023
Jul 25, 2023 at 5:16 AM UTC
I want to fold little bits of myself and put them away on a shelf
till all of me is condensed so soundly that I become impenetrable
and nothing can hurt me.
I want to curl up into a tight little ball atop my mattress
and have someone brush the tips of their fingers
against my forehead -momentarily-
but otherwise be left where i am alone
the fan is spinning
and nothing can hurt me.
I've closed the door of my linen closet,
left myself in the dark,
nestled away between the kitchen towels and cleaning rags,
with a sigh.
Yes, I can't stop sighing.
Don't let anything hurt me in here.
Don't let anything in.
Jun 19, 2023
Jun 19, 2023 at 2:05 AM UTC
as cynical as I am, my love,
my heart is but a girl's
your easy smile and your soft voice
makes something inside me unfurl
like the petals of a rosebud eager to bloom
and ****** you with its sweet perfume
i hate to admit it
but i know im quite vapid
[if you're kind to me]
then i'll fall rapid[ly]
gambling my heart like
i've nothing to lose
i pour out prose
for an unwitting muse
O Witty boy, my Odysseus
I've never known a love like this
I know, I know, you're not my man
But I'll take your love however I can
Jun 19, 2023
Jun 19, 2023 at 1:55 AM UTC
Everything that once was mine now somehow is his
I even changed my lip balm so I wouldn’t taste those kisses
The vanilla bean flavor just brings me back to when I was yours
I’m the only thing of mine you don’t want anymore, so
I don’t wanna belong to me, love, just you, only you
Won’t you tell me? What it is I have to do to
to get you off my mind (what’s mine is yours and yours is mine)
Cuz rn I fear my mind and heart is occupied
By just you, love, only only you
Jun 13, 2023
Jun 13, 2023 at 4:21 AM UTC
Love can leave your heart in a little less than a year
It can fade away like spring snowflakes and completely disappear
Or dry up and leave not a scab or a scar
Yes, it's incredible how quickly love will leave your heart
With absence comes apathy that grows the further you are
So I plant tulip bulbs and hope for a fresh start
I will not fold my hands and let it
be as it may
So I adjust my skirts and stroll off
to seek out the day
I won't wait for you to love me, I'll just
capture the sun
and fasten it's rays to my beaming heart
so I might shine my love on someone else
Against you my heart continues to harden
But my love shall blossom into a beautiful garden
with roots that reach down way past my toe tips
and admirers who come and water my tulips
Friends who stroke the petals but never pluck my flowers
who lay beside me and talk for hours and hours, basking
in the warmth of loving and being loved.
May 24, 2023
May 24, 2023 at 9:12 PM UTC
How derivative, how done before
To curse the day your mother bore you
You collapse and cry and beg no more
These Earthly trials are just not for you
If you won't step into my shoes
I'll make you walk in them till you're bleeding
If you can't feel what I am feeling
I'll make you regret all you've been seeding
I'll cut you up and **** you so you'll see
just exactly what you've done to me
[did god make You without a heart? did he make You in his image? or did you take that mantle yourself?
tell me, is it blasphemy to make Yourself greater than the divine? I hate you. I think I might really hate you. I wish I was dead.]
May 24, 2023
May 24, 2023 at 9:05 PM UTC
Tutti frutti you say I’m a cutie
So come over here and share your cooties
Come over here and share your cooties
There’s no need to be aloof or snooty
I’ll let you have your share of my cooties
Relax a little, I like you a lot
I’ll share with you all the love that I’ve got
It’s lot, you know, with this big ole heart
I’m a forward girl, a cherry ****
I’m a lot, I know, but make no mistake
All I ask is a little give and take
Lotta love given, boy, so replenish it
Give me back, all you've bit
chewed
and swallowed.
Can tell by your glances
there's no way to hide it
I act cutely cuz I know
it'll make you excited
pretty boy, pretty boy
hurry hurry hurry
come kiss me my lip gloss
tastes just like strawberries
Mar 7, 2023
Mar 7, 2023 at 11:38 PM UTC
i try to accept that i’ll walk around with this emptiness in me forever
maybe when you mishandled my soft clay body, you left holes within me that can’t be filled
ive never once grown up, have i?
im scared day in and day out, one wrong move
and my aged and hardened body will shatter
the hands that formed me were loving
soft caresses sculpted me into a beautiful being, the image of the divine
entrusted in the arms of children, my malleable body was abused
and mishandled
so i hardened into an ugly ugly thing
gentler, i beg, because im not as soft as i used to be
if you toss me around like that ill surely shatter under the weight of ur anger
i am not the image of my Father
but a reflection of the devils He left me in the care of
you are all i’ll ever be, aren’t you? i see you in me, you’re in me, more and more everyday and my insides collapse at the weight of your sins
and your father’s sins
and his father’s sins
weren’t you supposed to protect me? your hatred has warped my soul into an unsalvageable, unloveable thing, i know it too well
i once thought that my Father delighted in molding my soul in His image
that He gave me His hands, and His ability to create beautiful things
now i know these hands will only destroy
like you did to me
Feb 16, 2023
Feb 16, 2023 at 12:46 AM UTC