in these moments i feel this
how it used to be
seconds before
the wind blew like this
we rise from
conversations we had
in the before
in the details
in the moments where i could
say what i wanted
before it broke
before the silence
started filling in the spaces
we didn’t name
we melt into
fine lines and lost rights
echoes and some quiet resilience
i’m broken by all of these things
a beautiful defeat
weakened wings and tired ceilings
i break to find these late nights
my glass of virtue splintered
pieces i still try to hold
like they mean something
fingers atop yours
how we melt together
like we’ve done this before
like memory lives in the skin
i think you’re afraid
i feel like something whole
so embodied in who i am
like i’ve finally stepped into it
does that scare you
it doesn’t scare me
not anymore
down by the fence
on the way to wade by the tree
where everything feels slower
like time forgets to move
i touch you in that moment
where fingers learn to grasp
they interlock
and hesitate for just a second
like they know this matters
and i know you question
those feelings
of how we’re supposed to be
what this is allowed to become
if we let it
but something pulls
deeper than thought
and my lips speak
before i can stop them
can you question it
when it feels like this
i know you feel it
the reeling
the way it catches in your chest
like breath you didn’t mean to hold
how time bends
and my eyes found
what they were looking for
all along
in the smallest movement
in the way you look back
like you almost understand
i write these words
to leave you here
for you to read
in the streets that hold me
where i drift into sleep
where everything echoes softer
but still finds its way back to you
still touching your sides
like memory doesn’t need permission
it feels like heaven
to feel it here
even if it’s temporary
even if it slips
i barely know your name
yet i like the feeling
of you right here
like something i wasn’t meant to keep
but was meant to feel
and maybe that’s enough
maybe that’s all this ever was
just a moment
that knew it wouldn’t last
and stayed anyway
Apr 22
Apr 22, 2026 at 1:48 AM UTC
i descend into what i believe
to transcend into moments of you
like dark hues under eyes i used to pour into
i break into motions with men i fought on a darkened end
of streets where i scoured to find signs in the night
like which way to write, which way was right
and i prose you in thought
a slumber in deep hum
a hymn to a rhythm, a tango i once fought
in front of desire and passion
the way you hold a lighter in echoed moments
from mountains atop midnight
where i eclipse my mind and transcend to find out
how i used to sleep at night
in dire moments with a rhythm of you
as we’re slow dancing to a cause i fail to see
yet hide to ignore
because beauty sees and the ego hides in what it wants
like melting with you
holding onto past mirages of men in might
in false knight armor
darkened elixirs to bring desire
i paint you a picture
for what you want to see
i breathe you into a world where
i paint you to be
how i’d like to see
how i’d like you to be
how the fog at night masked you to be
in summer of thirteen
Jan 21, 2019
Jan 21, 2019 at 12:35 AM UTC
running on lines i told myself in echo
of where i was when time was fine
like ruins in my brain from days where
a daze was all i had
but i’m dancing in oasis
yet some call it purgatory
i think of it more as if it’s harmony
a soul and mine combined to find ideas
i used to tell myself in night
where shadows crept upon
dying was beside me
it was like fine wine
but cheap wine got us drunk faster
into you before i
and i watched as you twirled
in and out of consciousness
ignoring unrequited bliss
and he was a preacher
who talked upon himself
a hardness, a leather
blue sheets at night
with the moon of bronson
talking to us
from cemeteries we used to lie under
with voices in night
i still talk to you
i still talk at you
and it was always for you
like love in light
wine in night
shadows i used to hide
like pride on my tongue
how i used to give you it all
as if its high tide and you needed mine
to breathe at night
Jan 16, 2019
Jan 16, 2019 at 10:34 PM UTC