DisturbinglyHuman
24/F
When the Moon chases the Sun out of the sky and the air stills, I feel closer to forever. A blanket of quiet to allow my mind to scream aloud, where I fall in love with everything. Song after song to guide my hand, writing the words of my broken heart.
you are my sunrise,
peaks of gold coloring those liquid eyes
burning fire caressing my pale skin
a symphony of sensations that tease and amaze
stealing away into a numbness that opens its maw to yawn
leaving me stranded, panting, and even more in love.
Jan 12, 2021
Jan 12, 2021 at 12:02 PM UTC
keep a light on in your heart,
i'll come find you and give you my hand.
to lead you out of the dark corridors
where the blank bulbs hang heavy,
swinging in tune with your broken heart strings.
past the pieces that roll around,
fragments of a lost childhood,
shards of contempt and regret.
to a place where there is warmth,
and solitude will not bury you under memories.
Jan 12, 2021
Jan 12, 2021 at 9:52 AM UTC
i bite down to taste blood,
ground myself in this plane of desolation,
to feel anything other than numb.
i share in your suffering,
where you are lost and afraid,
broken before you begin.
i put my hands out into the stillness,
but it is hard to reach you,
in the dark alleys of your mind.
i close my eyes against the change,
selfish, scared, swallowing every regret,
where it resonates in the notes and chords.
i would trade places with you,
if only i could see your light shine,
beautiful smile and hazel eyes.
Aug 10, 2020
Aug 10, 2020 at 4:05 PM UTC
do you remember what it felt like to be in that dark place
as it suffocated, choked, fell like inky black tar,
we felt like we would never be able to surface.
do you remember what it felt like to hold hands for the first time
as you reached out into that endless space,
your hands so very rough against mine.
do you remember what it felt like to end up falling
as the gravity reversed around our hearts and the light exploded,
and i could finally drown in those warm brown eyes.
i loved you with all the butterflies that were inside
as they would sing your name and spin and spiral.
i loved you with every heartbeat that left me weak
when it would flutter and try to catch flight.
i loved you with every sundrop that fell between us
as we made love out by the tall grass that warm night.
i guess what i am trying to say is that good things
can come from broken hearts and when i forget
i can look into our stitched hearts
and remember that
i love you.
Nov 1, 2019
Nov 1, 2019 at 2:30 PM UTC
i try to bring myself peace
in the tall grass rippling like waves
a sea of greens, purples, and yellows
i dream that i am floating
running my hand along the bottom of the flat clouds
holding a ray of sunshine
like a warrior, conquering all the lands
until i've created a home among the wildflowers
somewhere for you and me to finally be
a slice of paradise in a very large world
where everything makes sense
and i don't feel quite so alone
Oct 18, 2019
Oct 18, 2019 at 12:32 PM UTC
one by one, two by two,
you pulled those creamy petals,
threw them into the wind and screamed.
this is what it feels like to be alive,
your hand in mine,
standing tall and wide over the edge of the world.
i was entranced, living in a dream,
where the dust settled and i could see,
your smile painted in hues upon my lips.
"don't you see, this is for you and me,"
every stupid thing leading to this,
an adventure for our hearts to be free.
Jun 5, 2019
Jun 5, 2019 at 7:18 PM UTC
you tore my soul wide open,
pale blue eyes held wide,
and you peered inside.
you were the catalyst to my downfall,
with everything laid bare.
Jun 5, 2019
Jun 5, 2019 at 7:01 PM UTC
when do we lose our imagination,
our curiosity and lust for life.
is it during the first heartbreak,
where our souls are left scattered in the remains of something beautifully haunting.
is it during the death of our loved ones,
holding hands, burning eyes, tight throats,
whispering our last hello and goodbye.
is it during the realization that our age comes finality,
generations before us falling to their knees,
back into the earth that bore our footsteps.
is it during the times that test our strength,
foreign words of sickness, a prognosis,
cancer burning in her chest, chased with poison to eradicate.
when do we lose everything,
our hearts built around familiarity, family,
the loving smiles and tears that brought us into this world.
i find it hard to sleep at night, as i toss and turn,
thoughts haunting the corridors of my mind -
wondering where i lost my imagination,
my curiosity and lust for life.
May 1, 2019
May 1, 2019 at 5:36 PM UTC
peace twirls around my mind in ribbons,
while your lips move silently by starlight.
how can i tell this foolish heart that you're gone,
when you still sing sweetly to me in the dark,
i've lost myself in this deep velvet sea,
where your memory is going to be the death of me.
Jan 30, 2019
Jan 30, 2019 at 10:31 AM UTC
it's one of those nights,
where the lights don't feel right,
and the darkness mocks me.
my heart beats in time,
with your fingers on my temples,
telling me it's all in my head.
your face is a pale stranger,
eyes a despondent wanderer,
two hardened brown orbs.
you tell me it will be okay,
that it has to be,
and i know that it is a lie.
because the glass fogs,
and here i am,
alone.
Jan 20, 2019
Jan 20, 2019 at 8:20 PM UTC