I have something to say
I don't know if I'm okay
All I know is that I tried today
I just want to go out and play
I'm floating in a river
So cold I'm starting to shiver
Drowning down in the swell
Feels like I'm getting pulled to hell
Never know what's going on
All I know is soon it'll be gone
Yelling quietly to those around
Maybe I don't want to be found
Nobody heard me scream today
I'm not sure if I'll be okay
I don't know if I tried today
All I want is it to go away
Apr 23, 2019
Apr 23, 2019 at 10:31 PM UTC
It's easier to be angry
I don't need to try
I feel the fire all around me
Burning through everything
The world is a wasteland
The water rises
The wind roars
The air is cold
Trees are falling
Buildings crumble
Everything falls apart
Unitl nothing is left
Remembering what everything was
Watching as it dies
Seeing the nightmare
Waiting to be taken
Mar 25, 2019
Mar 25, 2019 at 6:24 AM UTC
Digging a grave forever
Making a bed to lie in
To never wake up
And never pull myself out
Closing my eyes to see the world
Seeing the storms over it
Watching it all burn away
The oceans spilling from my head
There is no solace
It all burns away
Getting hotter every second
Eating away at my brain
The heart decaying
My legs get weaker
Feeling everything until it's gone
The air is numbing
Breaking walls that hide nothing
Burning the bridges of the future
Slamming my head to stop the noise
The silent screams never end
I need a hand to pull me out
But I don't want to go
Nothing good can come from it
The path has been scrubbed away
There is nothing left to lose
But I still want to keep it
Staying in the pit of darkness
An endless hole I've fallen into
I feel like I'm diseased
Poisoned without a cure
Seeing a light that isn't there
There is no point chasing it
I've given myself up
I've let go of everything
There's nothing left
No reason to move
Mar 25, 2019
Mar 25, 2019 at 6:03 AM UTC
At night when you walk in the park
Looking around at the shadows and dark
Feeling a chill run down your spine
Knowing soon all will be fine
The look in your eyes is one that can ****
One of fun and of thrill
Endless joy and excitement awaits
Bringing you into your certain fate
Looking around at shadows and dark
Walking at night only for a lark
Finding your time has come at last
It's now time to forget the past
Mar 7, 2019
Mar 7, 2019 at 2:45 AM UTC
I'm just a clone in this reality
An empty vessel on the sea
Darkness coming from the light
It never does say very bright
My heart beating like a drum
The faceless enemy making me numb
Feeding the fire that's inside
I guess I can say that I've tried
The haunting walls all around me
Years later and I'm still not free
Free to leave this space for good
All I can do is pull up this hood
Living in a hollow shell
How long, only time will tell
Melting away this wax cocoon
Smiling a hindrance rather than boon
This is not what I need
All I want is to be freed
I am destined to fall
Just to walk down a dark, empty hall
I promise that I will fail
To the dark world I will hail
I will continue try and try
Although I'm not quite sure why
From a young child to a hollow man
I've done all it is that I can
I welcome to my life all the danger
It is a part of me and is no stranger
I'll pay my toll at the gate
I may as well accept this fate
Until I find there's no way through
I'm just waiting in an endless queue
Mar 4, 2019
Mar 4, 2019 at 2:46 AM UTC
As I press on the fog is thicker,
I can't see as it's getting denser.
Where I will end up i don't know,
but I'm starting to feel tenser.
As the mist settles down and I can see,
I just can't help but wonder if I'm free.
That's all I've ever wanted,
But all I get is to be haunted.
I'm getting scared for what might take place,
As I'm trapped in this tiny hellish space.
I want to venture and find a new life,
So I can be set free from all this strife.
The clouds form into a storm,
Like the way everything takes a new form.
It's very ominous in this sky,
You could even say one could cry.
The thunder strikes and let's a loud roar,
But what is the strike really meant for?
The thunder is loud and makes it hard to hear,
And you'll wonder what you're doing here.
In the end after all the damage is done,
You start to think that storm has just won.
The storm has laid heavy burdens inside,
And you wonder if you may have died.
You know you need a new beginning,
But you never wanted such a terrible ending.
Why did all of this have to go on,
Maybe it was to make you be gone.
It may not ever be fair,
But what should be will never be there.
Who will make sure you're alright,
And make sure you don't take you're final flight?
You want to go and see that great Man,
But you wonder if you ever can.
But that is quite alright,
So don't worry about you're plight.
A second chance may await you very soon,
And you'll always be looking at the same moon.
As bad as it had seemed to be,
The storm really had set you free.
Say goodbye to this cruel place,
For maybe you'll beat it in the end of the race.
Don't turn around just keep going on,
Because one day it might just be gone.
Until the next time this is your last farewell,
Say goodbye as you leave this hell.
Dec 21, 2016
Dec 21, 2016 at 12:24 AM UTC
It is so easy to get angry these days
Especially when my mind is in a haze
I don't wish to be like this
I know that there is something amiss
I enjoy most aspects of my life
Although I am nearing my trife
Hardships come and hardships go
They always say you reap what you sow
I am lazy and full of shame
I really am only to blame
My actions and words are often dumb
So I may as well just **** my thumb
I have no dreams or aspirations
I only desire a long vacation
To move to a place far far away
Where I may look at the trees every day
Never to worry about money or fame
I would extinguish this screaming flame
My life now begins with me
I only wish that I could flee
Jul 22, 2015
Jul 22, 2015 at 3:44 PM UTC
It keeps happening
I can't stop it forever
Eventually I'll return to years ago
You were always able to stop me
You gave me hope
I need something to help
I can't do this alone
I want to do it again
If I'm here I can't be stopped
I can't fight it much longer
I want to put it off forever
It's just so tempting though
I think I'm doing something wrong
I don't want to fail you
I don't want you mad at me
I just feel like I need this
I tried it one night
It was before we were torn apart
I couldn't do it though
I thought of you and stopped
I can't keep doing that
I'm just so angry inside
I need to change
I need you here with me
Sep 8, 2014
Sep 8, 2014 at 12:50 AM UTC
Reality is getting hard to bear
I'm not sure what is really there
What I want isn't here
When I open my eyes my nightmares appear
When I close my eyes you're there
I can't help but think it isn't fair
I miss having you to hold
I want you with me even when I'm old
I guess you could say I'm scared
There's never been someone like you who cared
You've done so much for me
And I still don't feel free
I feel so lonely here but I'm not alone
I miss being with you when the stars shone
Everything I do goes back to you
I don't know what else I can do
I don't want to be older
The winters have been colder
If we get separated for years apart
Please don't forget about my part
Aug 31, 2014
Aug 31, 2014 at 11:45 AM UTC
I don't dream of many things
But I have had one dream for many years
It's the one I wish were real life
Only recently I've thought it may actually be
I've been having a surreal time
It's funny how it never lasts
This time I even knew why
It's as if the universe taunts me
I can never be left alone
I'll be in a worse spot than years ago
There is no place for hope anymore
It's either real or imaginary
It's an answer I'm afraid to know
I can't avoid it much longer
It's been too many years
I can't go on like this
Maybe I shouldn't even try
Maybe the worst is inevitable
My mind is always deceiving me
It is the worst feeling
It keeps me up every night
I only dream while awake
I know I won't make it genuine
My dreams become my worst nightmares
Aug 20, 2014
Aug 20, 2014 at 12:01 AM UTC