I want to believe
In what he says
It’s hard to see him
When there’s no
eye contact
Am I in your thoughts
Or do you forget......
Self absorbed
Is how you like to act
Blank stares
Words crumbled together
This mask try’s to hide
Your deepest emotions
As it’s only you, you care about
No room for me
When the night falls
Who is left?
To stand by you
When you’re all you need
Apr 5, 2020
Apr 5, 2020 at 11:41 PM UTC
Intrigued
Seeing
The
Danger
Up close
The warmth grows
Hotter
Leaping head
First into
Fire
Just as it begins to
R
a
i
n
Jan 16, 2020
Jan 16, 2020 at 12:14 PM UTC
Could it be
your touch
that hurts me?
Left on my arm
Black, blue, and green
These
bruises
like
to
tell
the
truth
Voice
silent
as
I
cover
myself
and
find
I still
love him
Black, blue, and green
spreads to and
above my
heart
My body a canvas
of his three favorite colors
A signature of love
From,
The Abuser
Jan 15, 2020
Jan 15, 2020 at 3:14 PM UTC
red streams
down a hide of vulnerability
exposed, dumped into the cold
eyes wide with a blurred hold
of my new found surroundings
i kick, i go deeper
the sunlight only weakens
i sink past each shade
of blue in my face
no choice do I have
but to swim with the fishes
a daunting position
due to my last name...
Jan 13, 2020
Jan 13, 2020 at 3:22 PM UTC
There you sit
alone again
as I make my way over
Reaching out
to a cold touch
I've only known as familiar
My normal response
as I retract is
my heart isn't made
for you lover
Yet here I sit
With you again
Like I don't know any better
Won't you some day
Want to fuel the fire
Not drown me in ice surfaced water
Or will you watch as I fade
in your dark isolated space
Dec 3, 2019
Dec 3, 2019 at 2:30 PM UTC
Glued shut lids
Mouth sealed tight
Key locked in your heart
Don't show yourself
Made all the mistakes
Bounded to those times
Still life in disguised
to blend until some time has passed
Leaving the past
Like a faded memory
that echoes in and out of my ears
Thoughts of you leaves echoes...
Nov 19, 2019
Nov 19, 2019 at 9:14 AM UTC
Listen,
I want to say that
I want much more from you
I say this because
I want control
I think if you change who you are
I can accomplish this easier
I see you sitting there eager with your mouth parted
I know you have things you want to express
Listening drops the I in this conversation
I rather you not talk
Oct 25, 2019
Oct 25, 2019 at 12:11 PM UTC
Both you hands
on my heart
I start to feel
the rip
I want you
and you want
Until there's nothing
more to give
And if only
I had the chance
I gain control
over the pain
the hurting
Aug 15, 2019
Aug 15, 2019 at 8:37 AM UTC
Espy
a secret
Buried in eagerness
Acting different
It read out loud
To an exact feeling
Uneasy to miss
Nesting there
Something small
Finally became big
Branching out
Untouchable height
It seeks no limit
Or consequence
Of prepping for a glimpse
Desired by
Ignorance
Staining red
Conflicted doom
Upon old experience
Fully aware of the oblivious
Old trick
May 23, 2019
May 23, 2019 at 9:26 PM UTC
Another soul
has lost their way
With all the hands
who tried to help
What is left
only regrets
Erie day
Can not change
Yesterday
and now this
Reoccurring Sting
Dec 19, 2017
Dec 19, 2017 at 2:29 PM UTC