There's something in the undertow
That pulls me in when I want to go
I swear my heart is fused to you
And youre too blind to see it
Can't you feel it? Beating there
Next to yours, willing to share
Hoping to be seen, for fear
You'll pull it off and leave it
Don't forget me, we're attached
By shiny wires, ropes, and tacks
Staples, tape, glue, a mask
I know its broken, thats the trap
Im so much nicer than you deserve
While hanging on your every word
Lies on lies but they fuel my soul
Just words to you, but to me, gold
Then flick me off like lint on sleeves
Like everything was all a dream
Weaponize the silence most
While i drown, you fake to float
Another day of empty waiting
Another day you dont come back
I sit, here wrestling my violence
But you hold no space for that
Oh pretty mess, what have you done
You've taken off, right for the sun
Somehow forgot im still attached
So I guess I'll burn with you
I wasn't ready yet, to go
Or to die, or to loathe
So tell me as I scream your name
Why you're so conceited
Oct 6, 2025
Oct 6, 2025 at 9:57 AM UTC
I tried to hold
the ocean near,
It whispered soft,
then pulled, sincere
The waves were kind,
the tide a friend,
A gentle sway
that seemed to mend.
I laughed, I floated,
light and free,
Its arms like silk
surrounding me.
I thought I could trust,
thought it was mine,
A calm embrace,
a place to shine.
But currents shifted,
shadows grew,
The whispers darkened,
cold winds blew.
It ****** me in,
then spat me out,
Again, again—
I feared, I doubt.
For fleeting moments,
the water calmed,
And I felt safe,
my heart was warmed.
I trusted it,
I leaned, I stayed,
Believing pain
could somehow fade.
A ripple stirred,
a shadow passed,
The gentle sea
would never last.
Waves twisted, darkened,
cold and sly,
A whisper of danger,
a muted cry.
I cant hold on,
though I reach wide,
Grasping for rocks
where I can hide.
A solid shore,
a steady hand,
Something I thought
I might withstand.
But even stone
is slick and cold,
The ocean drags me,
uncontrolled.
The tide that soothed
became a gun,
It struck, it roared,
it weighed a ton.
I could not leave,
though pain was clear,
The ocean’s grasp
pulled me near.
A gentle world
now torn and wild,
I float alone,
the ocean’s child
A tranquil home
turned violent, deep,
It drags me down,
I cannot sleep
Beauty dissolved
into jagged foam,
The sea, once kind,
became my tomb.
For a moment,
the waters still,
A fragile peace,
a fleeting thrill.
I felt held,
almost complete,
The tide receded—
cold, discreet.
It spat me out,
Abrupt, controlled
I tumbled alone
where the waters rolled.
A part of me wished
it would return,
A siren call
I knew I must spurn.
And now I drift
where waves have ceased,
A hollow calm,
a broken peace.
I watch the horizon,
tense with ache,
Drawn to the pull
I cannot break.
I try to mend,
to patch what’s torn,
But every lull
feels bruised and worn.
The ache remains,
the doubt still feeds,
What if the tide
returns with greed?
Phantom currents
curl in my mind,
Imaginary waves
that pull, confine
I reach for something,
anything to hold,
But the ocean is gone—
its story cold.
And if it returns,
will I cry for help,
Accept my fate,
or leap without doubt?
Will I be strong,
or slip once more,
Back to the tide
I once adored?
Oct 4, 2025
Oct 4, 2025 at 11:11 AM UTC
There's something in the air
That makes me feel like I've been here before
The birds chirping
The sun disappearing and reappearing behind fluffy white clouds
The soft breeze
The heat
I've lived this summer before
Maybe in a different universe,
Another life time,
Or a dream...
Maybe I'm still asleep
Jun 22, 2025
Jun 22, 2025 at 1:21 PM UTC
You said our fire burned too bright
We lost control of the flame
But I've been dancing here, dwelling
I'll take the blame
Because I'd watch the world burn for you
And I'd do it with no shame
You said our fire burned too bright
We lost control of the flame.
I can see that you've realized where you're standing
You're not lost in it anymore
Now you're drowning
And to let you save yourself is the only way
Because I'm dancing in this light
And you're afraid
You found a way too quench your thirst
And **** the flame
Put out the fire give up desire you didn't refrain
For I was so in love with the love and not the man
I didn't see I never saw you walk away.
Dec 8, 2024
Dec 8, 2024 at 10:56 AM UTC
There's something about you
That blows my mind so completely.
I want to stand on the edge of a cliff
And shout my love for you to the stars
Jul 20, 2024
Jul 20, 2024 at 2:15 PM UTC
You saved me yesterday
When the rolling clouds were dark
The wind, like a hurricane,
Was whipping through my heart
It was beating just as loud as the thunder over head
All i felt was dread
The ground shook with emotion
While i tried to hold it in
But my mind felt like exploding from the pain that i was in
Then you, stranger, walked on by
And took me by surprise
Grabbed my hand, pulled me up, looked into my eyes
All you said was 'hi'
And i felt that could breathe
My heart, though it stayed racing
Stopped pounding in my sleep
Angry clouds above me
Started to evaporate
The walls that surrounded me
Began to dissipate
And though the world was shining
Once again renewed
I couldn't take my eyes off of the beauty that was you
Jun 22, 2024
Jun 22, 2024 at 11:36 AM UTC
The bright summer sun warms my skin
instead of energy, it puts me to sleep
Gone are the days, id run and play
And the joy i wish i could keep
The smell in the air is nostalgic
Of a memory just out of reach
Not sure if its real or i dreamt it
But its of one i can no longer see
Is the laughter from my past a real sound?
Or something id wished i had heard?
Memories fade so much with time
And recalling them seems so absurd
You havent been here for a while
These memories keep coming in waves
Feeling so lost yet familiar
Something i cant get back or replace
Jun 2, 2024
Jun 2, 2024 at 5:47 AM UTC
I'd scream
If I weren't
Empty
But I'm
Mumbling
Through this line
I'm sorry, I don't get it
Had my head down for a minute
So just quit it
I think my heart stopped
For like five
And suddenly I've
Been revived
I'm still
Dead
And I'm terrified
That I can't remember
The last time I cried
Hey
I'd scream if I weren't empty
But I'm mumbling
I'm Mumbling
Through this line
Sep 10, 2021
Sep 10, 2021 at 4:02 AM UTC
I hide it so good baby
I hide it so well
You'll never know babe
I'm going through hell
It's not the first time
First time that I'll die
All on the inside
Not the first time I've cried
It's not the last time
I'm saying good
bye
It's not the last time
Last time that I lie
Just want you to know
Babe, I've got to go
I say it so easy
But you don't even know
I hide it so good baby
I hide it so well
It's not the first time
I've escaped from hell
Sep 10, 2021
Sep 10, 2021 at 3:43 AM UTC
It doesn't matter what I do
I was made to worship you
Kiss the ground that's held your feet
Fight for you, never retreat
Hold you up when you are down
Give you breath before you drown
But I am not perfect
I can't do it all
No matter what I do
You make me feel small
Sep 10, 2021
Sep 10, 2021 at 3:09 AM UTC