I'm sorry I feel nothing,
But infinite torment.
Listen to music,
For an emotional fix.
I'm sorry I don't cry for you.
I'm sorry I would die for you.
I'm sorry....
I can't help apologizing for caring,
Because every tear,
Every sad face,
Tears my heart apart,
And rips away the pieces.....
So I'm sorry,
That all I want is a smile,
A laugh,
A hug,
I'm sorry.
You can hate me for a smile,
Abhor me for a laugh,
But at the end of the day,
You are happy,
And I have done what I could to make you happy.
So I am happy,
When I say sorry.
So hate me if you want.
But I love the smile so never stop hating me.
I'm sorry that you are beautiful.
Dec 9, 2015
Dec 9, 2015 at 11:24 AM UTC
I still think,
Of all the things we did.
Late night roleplay.
Early morning claiming.
Claiming the friendship that,
In its hardship,
Makes life seem worth all of this pain.
It's hard to see why,
There is any gain,
To be this high.
Why did you leave?
Dropped like a leaf.
Blowing in the wind,
Controlled by a social trend.
I can't feel anymore.
It seems to much like a chore.
Just waste away in music.
I miss the way you smiled,
Like.i make you feel like a child.
I miss the noise you make,
As you walked with me.
I could feel the gentle shake,
As the winter air chilled your small face.
And as we kissed,
The world seemed to disappear.....
I had nothing else to fear......
But why couldn't I continue?
Live in this moment?
Just like a menu,
So many choices.......
I was wrong.
I miss you.
I am so empty.
I'm so sorry......
Oct 11, 2015
Oct 11, 2015 at 7:18 PM UTC
Its always to hard to be the third wheel,
That breaking pain In a heart of steel…...
I felt the same,
I know it's lame,
Shoulda never done that thing…..
To many tears were shed,
Feeling like the heel of the bread.
Always last,
Always hurt,
Left behind just so you could get turnt,
Up the music to drown the sounds,
Of every muffled cry,
Still too loud…….
I hate to say,
I'm about to break…..
Please help me wipe up this splattered blood stain!
You were always the strongest,
Enduring the tears that flowed!
Like a searing acid rain!!!!!
It drove a stake through your heart,
This Hate is going off the charts!!!
I'm getting mad,
Feel like I’veI been had!
This crazy train,
Make me go insane!
To much to doubt,
That's what loves about,
So many words I spout,
Bout how I'll always be there,
For you to cry,
To lie,
To up and quit,
Try to die!
Spittin words of hate,
Till your up to late,
To pass that stupid test,
But all I say is,
Goodnight, I hope you do your best……
I fill your head with empty promises,
Roads we haven't even crossed yet,
And it hurts to learn,
That I'm just another reject,
A small town ****
I said I loved you,
And I swear it's the truth,
But the proof is so **** minute,
I might as well be a mute.
But you continue to survive,
In this life of lies.
Oct 11, 2015
Oct 11, 2015 at 6:55 PM UTC
*What happened?
Has your silver tongue turned to lead?
Oh it's such a pity.
The alcohol stirred his blood in a caludron,
Now I'm as good as dead.*
Jul 21, 2015
Jul 21, 2015 at 12:09 AM UTC
An armor of cloth
is all I have to offer.
resonate like tiger lilies
A shield of granite
splinters like glass
extend further than orchids
A sword of ink
spun from the backbones
of poets awaits you
bleed thicker than roses
This is the art
of flirting with
death and
having a *one night
stand* with life.
.
Jul 21, 2015
Jul 21, 2015 at 12:09 AM UTC
Through the amber forest,
The untempered glass,
The souls reflection shines.
Influential darkness,
Uncensored light,
Fallen sun bringeth,
Never ending night.
Through the tortured lens,
On a blank face,
Shattered soul comes forth,
Covered by fractured smiles,
And exhausted energy.
Jul 14, 2015
Jul 14, 2015 at 8:05 PM UTC
Sadness is *****
I'm bathin' in my blues.
My heart is a hurtin'
The tears are burnin'
You never had a clue.
I shower in my sorrows
Let my pain cascade around me.
Still my friends surround me.
Sickness is deserting.
Whining pain keeps churning.
A sickness in my heart,
A sickness in my soul.
With every passing day,
There comes a deadly cold.
Happiness is cleansing.
The feeling of joy,
I'm not pretending.
With a smile on my face,
Just one last grand embrace.
With that look in your eyes,
The sadness is gone,
Without a trace.
Jul 6, 2015
Jul 6, 2015 at 9:09 PM UTC
It's interesting to look through the cracks in my eyelids,
Find wonders without even tryin'.
Staring out the window in my soul,
Womderin' why it's so fah king cold.
<><><>
To many mistakes,
Feelin' fake.
To many superficial sunsets,
To few undetected inlets.
I hate these bright colors,
Blue, green, red,
And what the **** is wonder flutter?
<><><>
I feel this dark hue,
Trickle down to my new shoes.
Sending shivers down my spine,
It's a good thing death is not a crime.
Trade my soul for a sense of humor,
Must really ****
Died cuz I had a tumor,
Whatever, don't give a f*#k
<><><>
Treat me like a ***** rat,
I'll treat you like I'm Chris kratt!
Explainin' all these animal blunders,
Still not another bowl dunker.
Don't treat me like I'm new,
Not like I work at a zoo.
Jun 28, 2015
Jun 28, 2015 at 1:58 AM UTC
To many bright lights.
Places to cry at night.
Screams to raise the hype.
What a world of darkness,
Yelling into the broken light.
<><><>
If the dripping heat cleans the flesh,
With the searing pain of intense locks,
Who would help with the unloved moisture?
<><><>
Feel the rays,
Through the dark veil of rain.
The marriage of cloud to sky.
The Twilight to the starlight.
The soothing feel of,
Heavens harsh tears,
Born of unbearable pain.
<><><>
In the starlit sunset,
The world falls asleep.
To wake anew,
With a risen dew.
All to wait for the starlit showers,
After a beautiful sunrise.
Jun 24, 2015
Jun 24, 2015 at 10:45 PM UTC
In the silence,
I can hear.
In the silence,
I understand.
In the silence,
I can feel.
In the silence,
I see the world as it is.
In the silence,
I can cry.
In the silence,
I feel pain.
In the silence,
I miss your voice.
In the silence,
I miss your breathing.
In the silence,
I can't remain.
Jump into the noise,
I must refrain.
For fear of the laughter,
I can't contain.
Silence is my curtain,
Your smile is my window,
But today it is not sunny.
Closed,
The curtain shall remain.
Sitting in the silence,
Afraid of the pain.
Jun 24, 2015
Jun 24, 2015 at 1:29 AM UTC