but I dont know where she goes.
She walks with me,
Down city streets and bright hallways.
But never in the dark.
She won't walk with me down my street.
She hides in the cars that pass by
Watching.
She is always watching.
Even though I've studied her face so thoroughly,
She never looks away from my eyes.
I think she might love me.
Because when I cry, she cries,
And she doesn't stop until I do.
Jul 8, 2020
Jul 8, 2020 at 2:35 AM UTC
Every day is longer,
yet I grow no stronger.
I just want to wander,
but I'm forced to squander
my time away.
Each passing day
there's more decay,
and whose to say
this won't be the end?
We can all pretend
that we don't comprehend
the position we're in.
We are so driven,
and we all have a vision,
but I'm stuck in my kitchen,
watching the world end.
Apr 10, 2020
Apr 10, 2020 at 12:48 AM UTC
I never thought I would be so happy to forget
all the time I spent fighting
when your grasp had already slipt
you gave up on me and I held on and on and on
until now
I stand on my own ground
I stand as who I am
and who I want to be
I stand as the girl
who forgot about you,
finally
I hope you are happy
with whoever it is now
But I strive to be happy
without a single soul around
Mar 15, 2020
Mar 15, 2020 at 10:12 PM UTC
I can't remember what movies we saw.
I can't remember which nights I lost in you.
I can't remember the shape of your jaw,
or what convinced me I loved you too.
I forgot about your birthday,
and on Valentine's, you didn't cross my mind.
it would have been a year in January,
but I forgot until almost nine.
the box in my closet has collected dust.
empty spraypaint cans starting to rust.
my bed smells like me again,
and less like us.
I think the more I forget,
and the more I live longer,
I'll search less for a duet,
and just learn to sing stronger.
Mar 15, 2020
Mar 15, 2020 at 10:08 PM UTC
he posted that picture
of that familiar place
don't overthink it
you drove past him
twice in one day
don't overthink it
he liked your post
after six months
don't overthink it
Feb 2, 2020
Feb 2, 2020 at 12:41 AM UTC
A Bitter Taste is your legacy.
the mark you chose to leave on me;
one of wasted time, and wasted space.
a mark I can't seem to erase;
those words you spoke to me
while laying in my company
over and over and over again.
Nov 20, 2019
Nov 20, 2019 at 11:41 PM UTC
I am tired of feeling lost in you
I am tired of running back when you call
I am tired of never being enough
I am tired of being nothing to you and everything to your ego
I am tired of this bitter taste,
of your voice in my head when I can't sleep
of looking for signs of you on every street
of wishing I had been what you needed
because, you never saw me as anything more than a little girl with a lesson to be learned, and yourself as the perfect teacher.
Oct 20, 2019
Oct 20, 2019 at 4:13 AM UTC
I used to think you were my cure
But I know now you are my curse
Because I cant forget eyes just like my own
Or a smile as big as yours
We died just in time for our flowers to bloom
And now those flowers are hers
Jul 31, 2019
Jul 31, 2019 at 9:34 PM UTC
Please
Dont whisper my name
Ill shoo you away like one of my bees
Yell it instead
So I can hear You
Please
Dont tap on my shoulder
I'll ignore you like one of my keepers
Shake me instead
So I can feel You
Please
Dont stare too long
I'll think you can see them
Buzzing behind my eyes
And holding a knife behind my back
Mar 16, 2019
Mar 16, 2019 at 2:19 AM UTC
My bees do the work
Taking my mind
To make their honey
And push it through my mouth
To be collected
By their keepers
Whom I cannot see
They hold me still for extraction
They watch me sleep
Incase my bees try to leave
Through my ears at night
But
My bees love me
They need me
For their honey
They'll buzz for me until
They've taken all I have
And then
They'll buzz
Some more
Mar 16, 2019
Mar 16, 2019 at 2:16 AM UTC