When I was little I thought that if I was sick
Everyone would care
I would have all of the attention
All of the affection
But now I can tell you that’s not true
People grow bored of your pain
They grow angry at your complaints
So they all leave
Trapping you alone in a broken useless body
Aug 23, 2025
Aug 23, 2025 at 3:19 AM UTC
Why does no one care im dying?
Do they not realize?
Do they not see?
My hair is falling out
My hands are shaking
Maybe they don’t hear the cries
Maybe they don’t feel my cold hands and feet
My stomach growls louder
My mind is fuzzy
Can they not notice my baggy clothes
Can they not listen to my whines
The doctors don’t care that I’m dying
They can’t even tell me why
The doctors don’t care that I’m dying
They’ll just take their money from my grave
Apr 27, 2025
Apr 27, 2025 at 2:20 AM UTC
Suddenly the words “I’m not hungry” left my mouth
Which was odd
Because I’m always hungry
An indescribable hunger
A painful hunger
I am hungry when I go to sleep
I am hungry when I wake up
A unimaginable hunger
A debilitating hunger
I never thought I’d be afraid of butter
Or chocolate
Or bread
I never thought I’d be starving to be thin
Nov 8, 2024
Nov 8, 2024 at 4:20 PM UTC
What a cruel fate it is to have such a broken body
All tied together with a neat little bow.
No one will notice
No one will know.
No one will know the cuts and tears
No one will notice the needed repairs
No one will know the sobs and cries
No one will notice the twitch in her eyes
No one will know she’s not fine
No one will notice the shatter spine
Sep 6, 2024
Sep 6, 2024 at 12:52 PM UTC
I thought a man would fix my problems
I thought he would make me happy
But here I am, with a man
Still depressed
Still anxious
Still hopeless
Still in pain
So what’s the point?
Sep 3, 2024
Sep 3, 2024 at 9:01 PM UTC
God,
Give me hope. Hope for the future. Hope in myself. Hope that one day, being awake will feel better than being asleep. Hope that one day, there will be no pain. Hope that one day, I will see myself the way you see me. Give me hope.
Aug 31, 2024
Aug 31, 2024 at 4:48 PM UTC
I remember when I hated you,
Or at least I claimed I did
We’d yell and fight
You’d chase, I’d bite
But even then
you are my best friend
I remember when I was proud of you
Or at least I tried to be
You were always smarter
So I tried harder
All of that work
Just to be like you
I remember when you were cool
Or at least I thought so
You had a best friend
And a cool loft bed
But all through then
You’d let me play with you
Jun 22, 2024
Jun 22, 2024 at 11:54 AM UTC
God,
Give me wisdom. I turned 18 today. I know not much changes..it’s just a number, but it feels new and scary. I didn’t think I’d make it this far God. I don’t really know what to do. What I should do. What I have to do. What I want to do. I don’t know. Give me wisdom.
Jun 15, 2024
Jun 15, 2024 at 4:40 AM UTC
God,
Give me strength. Not for some big adventure or adventurous thing, but god, give me strength to get up again tomorrow and live in this ratchet body. This ratchet body that Satan himself has cursed. what was once a beautiful peace of art is now rubble…trash. Give me strength to walk on coals that Satan must’ve placed, because no person who loves me could give me this much pain. Use this pain for good or fix me. Give my pain purpose. Give me purpose. Give me strength.
Jun 13, 2024
Jun 13, 2024 at 3:59 AM UTC
I want to either be the favorite
Or the very bane of existence
I want to be the hero
Or the villain
I want to be the best
Or the worst
I don’t fear last place
I fear second place
I want to be something
Even if I’m the enemy
I don’t want to be the side character in my own story
Jun 11, 2024
Jun 11, 2024 at 3:39 PM UTC