In a styrofoam cup resides one of the strongest poisons
Your Love.
My conscience fades and mind wanders with every sip
But.
In our recent departure i fell victim to the fundamentals of gymnastics
You know.
How people flip
May 16, 2020
May 16, 2020 at 12:09 AM UTC
Leave me on delivered
I’m throwing rocks at your window
Only cause you got tha qualities
That’ll make a mufucka **** for
Is it real tho?
Tell me is it real tho
Tell me what’s this feeling
I’m feeling like you’re my antidote.
Apr 18, 2020
Apr 18, 2020 at 10:20 PM UTC
Ecstasy on your tongue
We french kiss, you love to share
Lost for the moment where time isn’t real
Whats real?
No idea but we’re searching
Get lost and stay gone
But time never shows mercy
Ecstasy on my tongue
We french kiss, i hate to share
I need to stay lost for the moment where time isn’t real
Where the pain isn’t real, where I’m numb so the feelings i don’t feel
Whats real?
Nothing for now but the thoughts creep
I gotta get lost and stay gone
I can never sleep
Ecstasy on our tongue
We used to french kiss, we used to share
We used to get lost for the moment where time wasn’t real
What’s real?
We used to question through the late night
We used to get lost and stay gone
No time left but it feels right
Jan 29, 2019
Jan 29, 2019 at 2:57 AM UTC
Sweet Serenade
Seductive Symphony
Words played on every note
Oh how you sing to me
Softly Struck
Slightly Shy
Warm whispers played on every chord
Oh how you sing to me
Jan 18, 2019
Jan 18, 2019 at 10:42 PM UTC
Such a powerful drug you are løve
The elusiveness of you
Keeps all intrigued
Searching
Needing
Such a beauty you are løve
There is even beauty in the pain you bring
Never more alive do we feel løve
As when we finally have you in our grasp
We
Quickly forgetting
You løve
Never last
Aug 27, 2017
Aug 27, 2017 at 3:19 AM UTC
A lesson nobody taught me
when i was younger
Is once people are broken in a certain way
They can never be fixed again
As i grew older
I saw people around me break
And eventually you start to wonder
Then you ask yourself when is it your turn or if its already happened
Aug 21, 2017
Aug 21, 2017 at 5:22 AM UTC
Addiction and depression are when a good, hopeful, optimistic, sensitive, beautiful soul
Felt too deeply, loved too fully
And then had the essence of their joy crushed out of them by a world that is frightfully cruel and sad
Its just a sad small human nursing their sad small heart
Escapism addiction whatever you call it is the soul trying to stave off the pain just for a while, just to catch its breath
Seek not to judge but to understand
Aug 21, 2017
Aug 21, 2017 at 5:18 AM UTC
I remember laying in the grass
Adolescents way to drunk and high
We were out with friends
They were sitting under a bridge nearby
Looking up into the night sky
I turned around and kissed her
She kissed me back and turned around
3 minutes of silence passed and
She said "ive never wanted to kiss someone so much but without wanting *** ive never wanted to talk to someone but without the words, ive never wanted to be around somebody just to be around him, do you think that's love?"
I looked at her and said if it is love i love you more than anything
My heart was beating so fast
She said "i love you too more than anything"
Ive never felt better
So much brighter on the inside than with any drug ive felt before
And i knew from the moment she kissed me my depression was gone
This was the most beautiful moment of my life
Sitting there with my first real love
With the people i love
In the darkness i love
Under the bridge i learned to love
Smoking the **** i love
Drinking the alcohol i love to hate
But eventually friends turned on me
The bridge got demolished
And she left
All that was left was the darkness of that night, the **** and, the alcohol
I wrote over 300 poems that year
Writing stuff of my young sorry soul
The poems helped me mentally
And the drugs helped me write them
Thats how i became an addict
Now people look at me and tell me im an addict
But im only addicted to her love, these friends, this place, this night
And that's what people dont understand
Im addicted to leaving this world
Leaving this pain behind just a few hours
There's a story behind every addiction
If you speak to an addict in your life
Speak honestly and dont judge them
You'll learn something
You'll learn that this world is a sad little place
And every sad little addict has a sad little heart
Dont judge people you dont feel what they feel
Aug 21, 2017
Aug 21, 2017 at 5:06 AM UTC
Miss me
Miss me
Then they're gonna need me
Miss me
Miss me
Now they wanna see me
I hate to see those i love just look at the ground
"Who is he"
I had to be someone i told them i never wanted to be
Read me
Read me
Recite my words and free me
Read me
Read me
Please come and read me
I talk time speak what you speak
Prior memories in dreams i relive them and weap
Terrors at night
A sunken place not too long ago i went
Just to tell me everything i own really is for rent
How bad i wanna tell you
How bad i wanna show you
Ive lost so much trying to win your heart
How bad i wanna show you
How bad i wanna tell you
Ive lost so much including your heart
Aug 14, 2017
Aug 14, 2017 at 1:30 AM UTC
You're the foundation of my love
With a hallway to my youth
The ceiling is caving in
You deserve to know the truth
No running water
Taking showers with bottled water
Shovel in my hand
Im digging myself farther
Inhale then exhale
Before the bell rings
I never knew this was the type
of drama commitment brings
A dagger to the heart
Your look of disgust
Like im a first round pick
Turning out to be a bust
Now it's the middle of the summer
And my actions getting dummer
Now im feeling buried alive
Promises i couldnt keep
And the only time i get to see you is when i go to sleep
Woah
The sky never seemed so low
Im looking at her like you never seemed so close
Everything is perfect you know i love you the most
Forever here with open arms you know how i feel
I love when you meet me in my dreams
Everything's so real
Everything's so real
Baby i can hear your heartbeat
Everything's so real
We got babies sitting in the carseats
Everything's so real
Everything's so real
Everything's so real
Leave Me In Reality
Man i wish i could live in our fantasy forever
And **** reality cause then we'll never be together
In reality everyday is another battle
My mind and my hearts in a trance steadily taking collateral
Not searching for sympathy
Not trying to play victim
I keep my feelings locked in a basement
Praying the demons stay with em
In reality im lost, searching without a clue
In reality im lowkey always thinking about you
But in reality i highkey can never let you know
Cause in reality we threw everything out the window
In reality lord ive gone blind
In reality im too comfortable with not trying
In reality ive came a custom to lust another curse of mankind
And in reality two nickles dont add up to a dime
But in reality the perfect girl never gets enough time
Take a shot in the dark
Its tearing us apart
"Smite me with madness, blindness, and astonishment of heart"
Deuteronomy 28:28
Go to sleep
Wake up
Playing a game of give and take
Jul 3, 2017
Jul 3, 2017 at 9:10 PM UTC