Funny how all of my memories consist of how the Streets was the one that actually raised me. This must be why all of my people are afraid of what’s to become of me, when I finally lose the rest of my humanity.
So while looking into this broken mirror, I can see the Devil sitting on my shoulder so clear; and I understand all of his sweet whispers he constantly fills into my ears, reveals the truth behind all of the pretty little fears.
For even though to her, my love was just another game; I got to take back control and level up my plays. I must stay focused on myself, and my own **** lane, if I want to stop digging around the bottom like searching for pocket change.
And before you think of attempting to destroy all that I’ve sinned to gain, remember that it was because of my devilish twisted name that you were able to obtain everything that you try to force under your claim.
So I’m learning the right lessons, no classroom. No time for regrets, just got to be the best to prove that “Almost!” only works best at hand grenades and horseshoes.
‘Cause even though I'm improvising from the initial programs, please make an effort to thoroughly comprehend that out here every day is a battle whether i wake up or return to the being part of this land. There's no Heaven waiting for me, my soul has been ******
These events have taught me to watch out for those who you let hold your heart. Surrendered mine out to a phenomenal soul that only wanted to rip it apart. In the end, what is left of this beautiful disaster might only be the faded scars, because I forced myself to erase Her painful memories with the **** back, squeeze, “Bang!!!”, another flash in the dark.
For it wasn't the ones that branded me with labels naming me the vile enemy, but the ones that were insisting that once, they were very dear to me. At least, make somewhat of an effort to try and remember me before I get relinquished from the sight within the rest of our memories.
Maybe we could've found a way so the voices could have stopped, but we gave up our lives, before ever reaching any sight of those mountain tops. We're stuck in our dreams, every second watching these ****** clocks; trapped in our mental cages, fighting with time against these **** locks.
This isolation holds me daily performing a little comedy set on this stage of how the loner deals with the spirit when it quietly starts to break; so I hope this letter will finally get all my thoughts into jotted into one place, so I can hopefully, reach out soon and every evil deed I must have committed to deserve all of this emotional and mental pain
I would have analyzed over and over until the rest of my scared time was like whispers in the wind, quietly flying by. So now I lay me down to sleep, but Lord can you not take me on this night, and have mercy on me, because she left me with no other options but to get my mind right.
To all those wasted, abandoned dreams, I bid you goodbye.............
Nov 10, 2023
Nov 10, 2023 at 2:23 AM UTC
In a world of concrete, hard and gray,
A rose emerged, against all dismay.
Through cracks and flaws, it found its way,
A beacon of hope, amidst the fray.
Its petals delicate, gentle and red,
Blooming courageously, against all dread.
Against the odds, it fought and bled,
A symbol of resilience, in words unsaid.
Though faced with struggles, it stood so tall,
Defying limitations, breaking down walls.
Its fragrance of triumph, expanding its sprawl,
A reminder that beauty can conquer all.
So let the rose inspire, each and every day,
That even in darkness, there's hope and a way.
For in the harshest places, life finds a say,
A rose in the concrete, reminding us to stay.
Jul 21, 2023
Jul 21, 2023 at 1:01 AM UTC
When I'm with you, I can breathe with no pain.
I been in love with you every single one of these days.
Without you in my life, my time is spent in vain.
Never wanted to have you again drift further away,
Because next to you I am Andrea the Great.
Being in your presence saved my mind from going insane.
You're a Goddess on this Earthly plane,
And even if I disappear or pass away,
On the other side, for you, I will wait---
So together we can pass into the Heavenly Gates.
Jan 7, 2023
Jan 7, 2023 at 4:59 PM UTC
In the shadows of Life blossomed a beautiful rose,
Whom became familiar with the darkness as a home.
Rumored of a fear for others, but in reality, he didn't want to impose;
Because he grew accustomed to being alone.
He witnessed those that were very close
Slowly transformed into his greatest foes,
Leaving his petals disfigured or broke.
It's a shame that it happens more often than most.
So he hides behind a wall of smoke
Thick enough, most men would have choked.
He remembers the past, when he was filled up with hope;
God, he should have listened to the lessons that were once spoke.
Dec 9, 2022
Dec 9, 2022 at 7:50 AM UTC
Maybe I'm Madder than the Hatter;
But it took smoking on a Caterpillar
To realize that I was making it a habit
To become Alice
In order to give chase after you, my White Rabbit.
So I guess the Cheshire Cat
Was right, in fact,
Because you never know who really has your back.
And while you Tweedled with my Dee, making me go Tweedled ******* Dumb,
I really should've paid close attention
To what was the up incoming outcome.
For even as I hoped that I wasn't in this alone,
You looked down at me from the height of your throne,
The Queen of a Heart that continues to roam.
So while you made deals with the Devil,
But while we conversed, you claimed everything was handled.
So now, I feel trapped inside this wicked scandal,
That's breaking me apart, and corrupting my ****** soul.
You had me questioning if you were really mine;
I guess I really should not be so surprised.
I wish I could take back so many countless nights,
When I stayed to put up with the countless lies.
I pray you get all that you deserve,
That would be only the best, even though I'm hurt.
I can't shift gears to back up time into reverse,
So I must find the drive to pick myself from out of the dirt.
Sep 10, 2022
Sep 10, 2022 at 7:35 PM UTC
To the ones that I've fallen in love with,
First I would love to apologize from the furtherest depth within this bottomless abyss that is my soul about whenever I lost control of my rage. I just couldn't prevent those actions committed by that monster when he broke through my ribs, so he could escape from behind the brittle bars of His cage. I apologize for those countless days when my mind would just slip away, and the Angel that was standing in my place; yeah, he had fallen from his good grace, because his sweet whispers happened to be laced with a venom, that even up to this current date, there are still remnants of the appalling aftertaste . Maybe I deserve to be locked away behind a padded caged just like the rumors about me say; maybe I will get finally that much needed break from becoming the stress and giving power that fed the demon of hate; so now I'm tripping again over another heart I break. I know now that things will never be the same, but there is one thing that I wouldn't change, that would be the fact that no matter what came my way; I kept true to myself and remained to never to be tamed. I ensured that with you, I always have a place, or even be a thought that runs through your brain; even if that thought causes the both of us terrible pain. That me and you are somehow forever chained together, if only though, through our mistakes, and that I made it ascertained that I engraved, letter by torturous letter, every single one of my devils names since they are the reasons for my fame
From the shadows where they imprison all those that are considered a basket case, the almighty king of the foolishly greats,
Jester
Apr 26, 2022
Apr 26, 2022 at 2:38 AM UTC
Your smile brighten up my day.
My demon said you were only in the way.
You can somehow tame my rage.
He began feeling trapped behind my rib cage.
The chapters in my life, you filled every page.
He couldn't stand being left backstage.
As we grew wiser and stronger with age,
We didn't know that my heart went on a rampage,
And he slowly begin setting the stage.
We should have prayed over me with sage,
Or cast some spell like some Mage,
Because we weren't ready to disengage
When He began to display the hatred he contain.
We became hopelessly chained to his domain,
As He claimed you for the target of his blade.
Now I follow everything he says without debate,
And what remained of you I'm afraid
,
Is lost forever I'm sad to say.
Jun 30, 2021
Jun 30, 2021 at 11:36 PM UTC
Come midnight, the whispers crawl from the darkest depths of my head, sharing stories that hold wisdom, tragedy, and even the secrets of the Dead. They guide me throughout life until all comes to an end. When the final word has been said, they weep for a great friend joins them as I lie down inside my dirt bed.....I awaken to teardrops forming in the corners of my eyes, questioning if there is actually a God up there in the sky. Convincing myself that it's alright to let myself silently cry, for I was the one who fool themselves into believing that I wouldn't eventually die. So I ask myself, "Didn't you already experience enough through this Life your currently partaking in? That the animal inside is constantly banging against the decomposing rib cage that forever imprisions it."; and there's Time who, just like the Devil, slowly creeps up on us dragging forcefully to our final deepest sleep; a place where we all must face that which we have reaped. So now I lay me God I hope these promises you really keep. So I vow to you on this night, my beautiful Moon, that I'll be coming to home to you soon. Even though I thought that I was completely immune, you somehow twisted my mind and twisted me into another ******* loon, under the wicked cover that you were falling for another temporary lover; and when you left me as nothing but food for the buzzer, that devilish smile would make the world shudder.
May 18, 2021
May 18, 2021 at 3:21 PM UTC
To the ones that I Love..........
I just want to up and run from the twisted punishment that has begun, sent from the high Heavens above. That the weight of this fallen kingdom has me succumbing to the will of my oldest of demons, and I sure do miss that tantalizing burn from when the smoke fills up my lungs. Oh don't worry, for there's no reason for ropes to be hung, or knives that need to feast on an enemy's blood, or any hot lead that needs to be forcefully swung for these problems to be done. Oh no, for you see, I AM officially done; I've met with the fat lady after her song has been sung. Most of this would've possibly had sprung from the pettiness locked away deep in my own emotional dungeon, but some of y'all couldn't even wait till I was completely gone before I became the favorite topic to discussed by those that would only appear whenever my money would come; you all had me at a disgust with myself until it bashed me over the head with that which is of blunt. So I'm over with the lust that had such a possessive grip over us. If this is the animal that I am to become, I promise you, you won't enjoy the final outcome that this story whenever the last of the tread has been spun.
Sincerely the ruler of this kingdom for the fools, outcast, and those playing the roles of dumb,
Jester
Mar 3, 2021
Mar 3, 2021 at 7:37 PM UTC
I denigrated your tears when I brought you that devilish pain;
Just to corroborate my claims of being mentally insane;
But if you explore to the cryptic depts of my ominous brain,
You will understand that my actions were committed entirely in vain.
For behind this mask that I wear daily, I am forever crying.
This malignant antipathy has me in a state of continuous agony.
I officially gave up because I'm tired of denying
These emotions from soaking into every piece of my forbidden writings
That imprisons the villainous thoughts that I try to repel
From my memories, trapping me within this demented cell
Of my very own tormented personal Hel.......
Hah! Don't I hide it so well?
Mar 2, 2021
Mar 2, 2021 at 7:01 AM UTC