I feel myself being pulled in every direction.
I don't know what to do anymore.
The girl who has all the answers
is breaking under the microscope.
I realized the other day that I lie to myself
more than anyone else.
"Everything is fine.. I'm fine.. really don't
worry about me.. how are you?"
I'm lying.
Everything's not fine.
I'm not fine.
Worry about me.
I don't care how you are right now.
I'm ******* dying.
Mar 30, 2014
Mar 30, 2014 at 2:49 PM UTC
As you looked away
You poured in too much
It was unnoticeable at first
You were unaware that
you had changed everything
For everyone
It cooked differently
It smelt differently
And tasted differently
Maybe if you weren't so careless
And aware of your actions
It would hurt less
You've turned everything bitter
But you could start over
And make things work
But instead you chuck it onto the heap
Were it rots away with all the others
That you gave up on
Mar 30, 2014
Mar 30, 2014 at 2:35 PM UTC
How do you make emotions stop?
Take love to the edge, then let it drop?
How can you just let it all go,
When holding tight is all that you know?
Never just turned and walked away
With a heart that’s crying out to stay.
Letting go just takes all your might,
When doing what’s best doesn’t feel right.
Knowing there is no one to blame,
Knowing who it was that fanned the flame.
Knowing who chose to cross that line,
Hanging too tight to what wasn’t mine.
Wrapped up so tightly in this web,
Yet wanting to tear away instead.
Walk away and just let it go,
It sounds so easy, and yet I know,
Its so hard to just let it lay.
Wish it wouldn’t have to be this way.
Mar 27, 2014
Mar 27, 2014 at 2:24 PM UTC
Even though everything has Changed
No one dares to ask how I am
They know to well what the reply would be
As the water drains from my eyes
No one takes a second glance
As the shadows tease me
No one stands up for me
And as my heart is ripped from my chest
No one stitches it back
*I am just left with an empty black whole
Filled with hatred and sorrow*
Mar 24, 2014
Mar 24, 2014 at 12:52 PM UTC
Every touch
pierces my pale skin
Bruising
Every word
Hits my ear drum
Echoing
Every look
Sends a sword deep into my heart
Inserting your sweet poison into me
Torturing
Mar 15, 2014
Mar 15, 2014 at 7:23 PM UTC
Why is it that every time if see you my heart aches
There's just that empty feeling that can't be replaced
And my body starts to waste
Mar 15, 2014
Mar 15, 2014 at 1:24 PM UTC
"I'm scared"
I can't let go,
The thought of not being
together is daunting me,
But it has to be
"I'm scared"
My hands grip on tight to you
My eyes flood
And my body shakes
But still I cannot let go
"I'm scared"
He whispers back to me
"We will be fine, I love you"
The words mean more than,
They ever had
"I'm scared"
His hand loosens,
"Goodbye, I'll miss you"
Kisses my forehead,
And walks away
"I'm scared"
All I can do now,
Is watch him walk away,
Into the distance, alone
he doesn't look back
gone gone gone
Mar 14, 2014
Mar 14, 2014 at 2:05 PM UTC
The lillies you bought me are fading
Our love is pushed away,
Out of sight
You'd rather have a newly sprung rose,
Where the bee's come uninvited
rose adores being the ******
And you join the buzz,
lillie watches from the side,
No one can see her sad petals drooping
One by one the beautiful petals wither and die
And,
rose's sharp thorns dig deep into your flesh,
Epiphany takes over your body,
rose's honey is bitter and fake
lillie's gone all thats left is the empty vase,
You were too late
disregarding ist he most painful sting you could have gave
Mar 10, 2014
Mar 10, 2014 at 5:51 PM UTC
The part of my heart was still missing
I looked up at the dancing leaves at the blue sky
As if I might find reassurance there
My heart seemed to struggle in my chest
Fighting my ribs
The rows of trees towered over me
And my mind was fogged with grief
I pushed my lips together not letting anything out
But the anger sprayed out of me
As if a thunderstorm had just begun
The terror took over my body as the lightning struck
But it cut off just as quick as it hd begun
His stare stopped and he carried on walking
Not noticing that his hazel eyes had scarred my heart once again
why, why, why
Mar 8, 2014
Mar 8, 2014 at 1:30 PM UTC